yo its christmas time.. which everyone a very merry christmas... hahahaha hope everyone enjoy it. acturelly tonight is quite boring... cos we acturelly dunno where to go omg... so sian.. went to charles de friend pub.. n something just make mi fed up/ coz they told mi a wrong place.. so hav to walk lor.. leg pain... after reaching the pub it was real darm boring it when i go in bout 1 min we gonan countdown to christmas.. omg its so irritating when they play wif spray.. luckly i was alert n did not been spray on my hair..... after awhile we decided to go to boat quey.. kel n wei come fetch us over n the rest took a taxi...

when we reached quite alots of ppl n looks happening.. n 6 of us went in to the pub.. n we order one bucket of beer.. hahaahh was sitting there doing nothing much.. bout 2 plus they leaving to mu cz william they all gonig over n the gers r quite excited bout it so we went over,, as ah wei kor n terry was there too... but da ie leave early.. saw val too.. hahahahah tonight dun really feel very happy.. duuno y...

but i am back wif kel le.. its gonna be the last chance le... if he does anything that make mi feel sad n unhappy its gonna be the end le.. n its his promise... i dunno if i should believe him again.. but after all the chance i give le its up to him to choose... i cant do anything.. he is gonig for an interview coming weds hope he can do it n quit the current job... hahahaha

oh tonight hav turkey wif my family.. n my mum friends.. hahah its nice.. i love my mum curry... gonan learn how to cook it.. wasted i cant get to drink much red wine coz i meeting joey n koni at cine.. hahahaha sian just reached home feeling tired le... gonna rest.. tomm my off day.. tomm gonna go out wif my biker friends its been so long since i last go out...

saded... crying alone in my rooms.. feeling down n sad.. dunno y.. maybe i cant believe that it happened just so sudden.. n i dun hav to persuade him anymore.. as we r finished.. just coz his attitude n my stubbon that cause it bah.. wad gone is gone it wont be replace.. i hav my freedom from now on... n i am alone again.. dunno wad life i be leading on..

after all both of us hav wrong.. so we cant blame.. u hav ur own attitude n i hav mine... after 7 monthes together finally u noe wad kind of ger i am?? it will good taht we really be friends.. list we wont get to quarrel so offen le or maybe not at all le.. i noe i wan too much from u le.. just dunno y i always got selfish feelnigs to u.. sometimes i need u i wan u by my side n sometime i dun need u i will ask u away.. i can say is my feelnig is there for u.. same old phrASE i say to daryll now it reflects back to u too.. "feelings will fade but memories will always remain" pls forgive for wad i did to u.. n i dun mean to hurt u.. but its just my feelnig who does it.. i may feel guilty but after all i wont regret it..i will always remember the happiness n not the sadness.. all along i never blame u at all.. i really do understand u.. but is u dun understand mi n wad i really wans...

really hope i can be strong again n be the old xiao fong last time bah.. really thanz to u i really did treasure wad u give to mi... i always say words to hurt u.. n do things u dun like mi to do.. but in my heart i do care.. u just dunnoe mi well thats all.. really hope in my next life be can be togetehr again n i wish u would be better den now.. n wish u will find a betetr ger den mi... i really hope we r still friends.. i believe u hav the same feelnigs too.. the tears i had for u is all the pass le.. i gonna stand up again... but i cant promise that when i saw u i wont cry..

hahaha so tired everyday tired... so bored.. yest recieve a sms i was like so shock lor... that daryll still dare to msg mi wanan go mu anot... i think his more worse lor.. got gf still can ask other ger out... he should be the one feeling shamfull bah... hahahaha... btw eveytime he will start scolding mi de so who cares... we hav nothing to talk le.... u shell help whoever u wan not my pro...

after kel saw those msg he feel very angry bout it.. n not happy wif him le.. of coz i stop him from donig anything... i dun wish to see more trouble.. i noe after all daryll cant win my bf de so.. better not make him lose face.. hahahahahah he should thank mi for that...

tomm going to expo wif my belove biker friend gonan buy mp3 player... the one i am using going to spoil le.. using it for bout 2 yr le bah... dunno y suddenly siao siao le... change a new one should be better.. hahahahah gonig mu too i guess... dunno leh... i wan faster get my pay n go for my riding test.. faster pass faster buy bike... heheheheh... its coming up very soon.. guys just wait for a bike ladie bah.... hahahaha

happy leh.... this christmas i sure spend alots de... pay all my things... present?? celebration wif dear dear... wad eals?? my mp3?? sure cost mi alot one... after that will be new yr...

my boss going to austulia liao.. happy for them can go holiday... they say will buy something for us... so nice of them right??? i love my boss n his wife.. they r really good.. never regreted working there... coz they treat us just like they treat their own child.... after all onli 2 person worknig mi n my colleage... so of coz will dot on us more de... heheheheh

work in a small company is better den in working in a big company.. list in small company we still hav a chance to see the boss chat wif them this n that... but big company boss heck care one so thats the diff between this... haiz... cant bare to leave them.. if i really go to study hope will hav a chance to work wif them agin if i went for study... hahahaha guess that time my pay will be higher le... hahahahaha

gonan slp le.. waking up early tomm.. tata nite nite

hahahah sian... later going for my bike pract 5 le.. meeting up wif some friends there... coz they be takinng their pract too.. hahahah btw just wish us luck bah...hahahah dunno wad to do after that... sian.....gonna meet senfeng for my lunched... hahha

scared my timing onli n also the plank... haiz.. tonight gonig mu also.. dunno whos going lor bored... think getting sick le.. not good wif my trote sian lor.. haiz..

nothing much to blog leh....

wow.. so lnog to blog liao... haahha too busy le... think from tomm onwards my timeing is more n more tight le.. coz i be starting worknig part time soon le.. some where near city plaza... hahah looks not bad... if ok i can work as full time... work weekdend n weekdays after my 1st job... think will be tired.. n less time for my belove dear dear liao.. u guys can com find mi too....

dunno got time to take my bike practical anot... but afetr calculate my monthly income bout $1500++ bah.. hahahahaha if fuull time i will hav more...but just scared i cant cope... btw the boss is nice... hahahaha.. n the place is not bad lor... quite near my work oplace n my house... hahahaha nice nice...

guys wanan find mi just give mi a call den... hehehe

its sat again.. been never slp well this few day keep rushing for work.. so busy... haiz..just com back from movie... COLIC!!!! hahaah the show abit scary i sit wif joey... nice nice.. both of used screem ... so funny n KNN stand for GODBYE. n eveyone laught for that ... at 1st thinking of going to mu de.. but dear never wear shoe cant go n its late he gonna work tomm... haiz... den went back home lor...

To: Selene
think befor u talk. u r just a slut fucking around their blog.. if u so daring talk to mi face to face lor... ur bf so wad?? big FUCK meh??? just look at urself.. still say wad if i am a guy sure whack mi de.. u com try lah... who scared who u dare anot i am always in mu de... be waiting for that man... control ur own gf lah.. dun let her go around looking for guys in mu can liao.. world peace... btw fat ass is better den slut.. at fat ass can slim down but a slut will always be... btw dog barking u should reflect back to ur bf n not us.. just see who the 1st to start the conversation.. u should be the one looknig at the mirror... so poor thing. btw blog is for everyone to read.. n u dun hav to make any comman out of it.. if so.. den dun say that ppl look at ur blog this n that.. just delete it away den... in the 1st place if u r not happy just com out n talk n not maknig a big fast out of it in ppls blog.. n plz just take a look ur bf is also a hong one lor.. that how u guys suits. ke lian...

btw small matter i wont wanna care to... wait for them to com den say.... who cares.. btw they r nothing to mi.. hahahahaha i shell enjoy myself at mu... ruther to see er xin de ppl.

went for my pract revision... i find myself improving n thats great, gonig for pract 5 next week le... wish mi luck den... thanz dear for accoupany mi there.. always trouble him so jia lat... haiz... tomm maybe going to mu... but dunno wad time i be comnig back from JB.. sian... now gonna slp le... tired.. gonna hav a good slp
nite guys..

yest went to mu... those ppl never com down.. i was wonder y lor... thats some peroblem between us... conflict... n its gonna be solve tomm... dunno wad gonna happened... but i will believe my sister de.... coz i noe...

but hope everything will be fine lor... haiz... my problem put aside 1st le... just feel angry bout somethings... n those who really backstub mi de... i wanna make things clear lor... n wads gonna happened i also dunno lor...

haiz... sat de problem really make mi dunno wad to do.. after all dear still support mi for wadever i do... n ger things guy cant touch... btw meet up wif da jie also reguarding this matter n we did talk alots... n she printed the picture n pass it to mi... thanz da jie~!~! until now i noe da jie really cares for us alots alots... muacks!!!! love her... but if thnigs happened i wont pull anyone down de... even if i am in hospital or wad... if wan u beat mi to death if not life wont be so easy lor...

i also dunwan anyone to get involve in this matter.. after all i am not in wrong. so y should i admit.. n now i did not make a police report.. after lots of thinking n all the trouble will hav... so i shell see bah... after all i dun belive someone like her wont get any returbution one.. n it will be on their child..

read through yc de blog... i hope wad he say really work on him... as its all depant on him.. of coz i sure encourage him de jia you YC~!~! xing gan de!!!

now really very fan n confuse... report also cant dun report also cannot~!~! haiz... after all its sux... as its messy that nite... after all thanz to joey that nite... after all she the onli one that say go down cine wif mi de.. anything she will help... guess amount my friend shes the onli one will say that bah.... friends is wad??? dun need too many de good or bad u urself will noe.. n i noe whos good n whos bad.. who did thnig behind mi n wadever... all things lah.. but i keep quiet!!! maybe soft hearted is not a good thing i can say... hahahahaha... just though my face give ppl taht i am easy to eat??? guess i shell be more fierce le.. haha thats wad da jie say de... i too good to everyone le...

now i dare to promise i wont talk or see DARYLL YEO this fucker~!~! who ever talks to him sister bro friends till today.. i dunwan to say much!!! that all...

yest was a fucking day for mi... totally sux men.... meet up wif joey n ling... while i go collect my polo-t.. hahahaha den we went cine to eat wow the mango snow ice very very nice lor.. n big blow very nice~!~! hahahaha.. after that we went to mu le... after that yc n sonice came.. so onli 5 of us lor... but was still so fun... later on jace came n xiao val also... it was so fun through out the nite... n really suprise when i saw kelvin lor... omg... my dear dear suddenly hug mi from the back... so sweet... but he was too high liao i think drink too much le.. hahahah

suddenly a guy friend of kelvin dunno dare val to open da pao... xiao not dare him also lor.. in the dunno wad happened they started quarrel while i went to ask xiao di wad happened coz xiao di also like wanna fight lor... when i walk they there is this two BITCH n so call XMM say wad i push her... of coZ i say i never push lah... ppl noe mi well enough noe i wont find problem de.. so nvm i say sorry to them.. the ger like not happy lor... com n hit my head... wtf... wanan hti back but the bouncer stop mi... n ask mi up to talk... there is police outside... after xiao val noe the ger hit mi she was angry n coz of the guy pro also... kelvin also very angry...

xiao di say the ger ask mi go cine talk... den mi n joey, yc, sonic, jace we went there... but the ger dun dare to step out... i was there liao since u dare to hit mi den should be dare to stand out... i dun believe i will lose to u.. so wad if u r pregnent... think i easy to eat izzit??? plz look at urself befor getting someone into trouble if not u wont noe urself will be in big trouble.. dare to find trouble in mu just never die befor... pui!@!!!!

one of the ger still dare to talk loudly n ask xiao val go cine talk, when xiao val reached the ger dun dare to stand out n talk.. we r standing infront of them lor.. dare to say dare to stand.. siao de ppl bei gang one lah.. f off n go back to ur xdd xmm playground lah.... n plz get to noe who u r finding trouble wif lor... if cant fight den dun find trouble.. n dun talk so loudly... that y i say siao de ppl cannot make it one lah.. the gang should close early... not to offen some of my friend ... hahahahahaha next week mu we shell see....

haiz i was so bad lor... was talknig wif dear under my block yest... while he keep vomiting~!~!

yo... sian... bored.. gonig out soon le.. meeting joey liao... den going jalan besar collect my sbf polo-t leh... nice nice finally le.. my t is here.... good.. next tuesday is my revision for bike le.. nice nice... good good... brought a shoe from ebay nice men.. but abit too ex le.. cos the shipping is $25 lor.. wtf... kns.. haiz... dunno who is gonig to mu tonight...

wow... so tired... yeah getting my pay le... tonight think the gers going to zouk... but i not going coz no $$ n guess they stay till late... nvm i stay hoem n rest lor.. tomm worknig also... finally my sbf polo t-shirt is here i been waiting for so long liao le... hahahah good good.. this sta 7pm gonna meet dawn ... but see if joey meeting mi early anot... coz be gonig to mu after that..

Yest quarrel wif dear again... n its very serious... but i dun wish to say coz its a very serious matter... i gonna take my bike revision le.... wish i can pass my pract 5 soon... thanz god..

will be starting my slimming programmed soon le.. hahahaha

tomm gonna work.. life is so sian... nothing interest me..

went facial in the morning meet my colledge at suntec lor.. after taht we go up n acturelly its a MLM lor.. but free facial so i am ok.. after washing ok lor.. they hav cold steam wow really shock.. the product is new.. i find it ok.. n the price for mi is abit too ex but still can afford it... think i will take some of the products.

nite time went mos wif yc, kang wei, lyn jie, ling n spawn.. hahaha its really very cool men when i saw most of the ppl dress up. really fun more fun den mu lor.. compare to last yr.. but was very pack wif ppl... saw mike there he won a prize, think is the most scarest guy ba.. i dunno... there r also free pop corn n candy floss, really i dunno how to discribe it.. at 1st was at trance side but after that went to r n b.. in trance side its spacious but r n b side is more fun n pack... n theres ppl walking round in n out so irritating n its hot in there... in the end ah wei say wanna go mu lor.. so all went there...

when reached there saw koni crying n she hug mi.. coz she saw her cutie n selene together.. i also like quite shock... i mean since selene hav a bf den y still go n seduce other guys?? n its against koni too.. i noe how koni feel... so after all we ppl noe how selene was n wad kind of person she was... but for mi i did saw her n cutie quite close... but too bad his not koni de boy.. if not list she can do something...

in mu not that fun... saw that daryll again haiz y everytime is him??? omg.. really fuck...

i went off early.. coz head abit giddy le... dun feel like staying longer.. so i went off 1st..

been so long since i last blog.. guess u guys miss mi alots right??? hahahaahah pai seh i too thick skin liao... was really been busy this few days.. even my holiday also wasted coz i was sleeping like a pig... hahaha n last sat is ah wei kor de 21st birthday.. celebrate wif him n the rest of them, was happy to see so many ppl wo... but too bad that day things happen so never really dance much n someone is gonig to mos...

i really gonna study for my future le.. in the line i dunno if i can succeed anot but i noe i love drafting so i dun mind... but my collage dun seem to be encourage to mi coz she herself say its very sian in this line coz she can give up her time her love life coz of this job... haiz i really must say ya its true... we must sacrisfied all our time n focus onto it... she is now 26 le but no bf.. hahahaha btw tomm i going facial wif her free trial leh... she ask mi to go de... coz her friend cant go last min so i will replace her friend slot.. tomm is halloween nite guess it would be fun over there...

tomm is also dear de friend william celebrating his advance birthday at mu... hahahah but i wish ah wei yc they all could com to mu.. but think they r going eals where le... saded... haiz...

ben long time no blog le.. been quite busy de... just pass by to write some bah... holiday is round the corner le... n ah wei birthday is coming le... miss him sia.. so happy can see him le...

last few weeks/ days some thing unhappy happened... especially in mu... hav some conflict wif some idiot... that touch my friends.. btw doesent mean his a guy can do everything he wan... i wont care who is he as long as he touch my friend i wont be happy... btw withough any proof plz dun say ppl was saying bout u lor... not happy wif us gers com den... who scared who... even u r my friend de friend i also heck...

just some kind of ungental men.. btw dun say le... this sat mu again... hahaha but stupid de gonna pay cover charge for non-member again... sad.. maybe not buying things le broke for now...

mi n dear dear 4mth le.. gonig to 5mth liao.. happy... oh ya that day meet up wif ching omg i was so happy.. coz i saw her... hahahahaha long time no see lor... miss her men...

my bf call hav to go liao.. bye

ben long time no blog le.. been quite busy de... just pass by to write some bah... holiday is round the corner le... n ah wei birthday is coming le... miss him sia.. so happy can see him le...

last few weeks/ days some thing unhappy happened... especially in mu... hav some conflict wif some idiot... that touch my friends.. btw doesent mean his a guy can do everything he wan... i wont care who is he as long as he touch my friend i wont be happy... btw withough any proof plz dun say ppl was saying bout u lor... not happy wif us gers com den... who scared who... even u r my friend de friend i also heck...

just some kind of ungental men.. btw dun say le... this sat mu again... hahaha but stupid de gonna pay cover charge for non-member again... sad.. maybe not buying things le broke for now...

mi n dear dear 4mth le.. gonig to 5mth liao.. happy... oh ya that day meet up wif ching omg i was so happy.. coz i saw her... hahahahaha long time no see lor... miss her men...

my bf call hav to go liao.. bye

this few days never really slp well.. so tired.. tonight gonna hav a early rest... tomm gonan work again...

yest nite went zouk wow its been so long sincve i been there le... still the same so fun n nice.. i love their dance n the way they dance.. its so unique lor... n with all my friends n sister around... more fun.. but one thing very suey i saw that daryll there lor.. wtf.. is this our fate???? always saw him where ever he go.. trying to advoide him n act strong liao... but haiz.. pass le... but i went off early last nite.. got work mah... was real fun wif u guys... muacks...

some of the things i dunwan to say i noe can le... coz its personal... hahahah

tomm got wedding dinner.. happy leh.. dunno wad to wear leh... sian... after that den go down to rush... dunno if its real that its the last week for them.. scarly com out wif next week den last day.. i sure F them off... hahahah... tomm gonna be a happening nite le... gonna rest le tired.. nitie

em... now at home blog.. coz i com back from work taking 1/2 day off... coz not feeling well... fainted earlier on.... sian.. dunno wad happened just sudden black out lor.. haiz stupid leh... now face got scar liao.. f***... sian... this month 2 ladies r having their celebration at mu.. hahahahaha.. 22 n 21 yrs leh... how can dun go must sabo liao...

been so so lnog never blog le wo.. hahah just move to my new house for one weeks onli... now having my own room le yeah... but hav to pay money le... more sian.. how i wish i earn alot now.. haiz.. really getting boring le... no time to rest at all... so busy.. expecialyl wif my bf haiz... btw that day steamboat was real nice men.. coz got quite a num of ppl de... n tonight is rush time.. coz last day for rush liao... hahahahahaha next weds zouk... meeting hui xian n the rest too... yeah cant wait... just pass my rtt.. very happy sia finally...

sat was a enjoyabler nite for mi.. coz finally i got my love one celebrate bday wif mi le wo... hahahah just love him... but hope all the gers enjoy themself although i get drunk early... pai seh.. think the most funniest is i was my leg inside toilet bah.. hahahahah i recieve one stalk of flower from dear dear.. omg it was beautifulll ... love it... n a cake from him too... n i wear the dress that was given from my sister n friends.. love it men.... celebrate wif yc n shiny jie.. n some of the sept babe... hahahahahah after i was drunk dear n jace send mi home while ah chey send hui xian home lor.. coz so late alredy le.. hahahahahah

yes its my bday le.. hahahaha gonna celebrate my bday at mu le... happy n thanz to those who give mi a big present.. a dress... not bad.. will be wearing it tomm.. n thanz fm for the adidas bag.... hahahah also to my belove dear dear den piglet.. its so cut i love it... althought i am sick but a appreciate wad ppl do for mi... btw last few days something just happened to joey.... dun wish to say much... coz nt my problem... i can do is just listen n see onli... btw after all i just wont leave my friend alone or put plan unless i hav important things on.. tomm is my bday.. dun wish to see things happened.. i sure will scold who ever is wrong one.... tomm lots ppl will be at mu.. so happy sia... n i am broke liao.. more sian.. haiz..will be busy tomm le wo...

haiz... so sian... hahahah few moew days to go wo... this few day meet dear go out... how i hope i hav money now.. den open bottle... haiz... i brought 2 shoes... one heels de... not bad leh... but scared wear le ugly... dunno how my bday celebration gonna be.. hahah so excited... brought yc n shiny jie bday present le.. hope they will like it wo.... :) that day saw daryll at mu he was wearing cap... he seem to slim down alots.. n he was not that cheerful le... wish him luck for his ger that he want lor... after all its been so long liao... n he cry that day lor... feel like going out to talk to him.. but i dun hav the courage lor... was fun at mu .. its been so lnog since i been there..//

so happy today.. its mi n dear de 3 monthes le... omg.. guess wad he brought for mi??? a ring... omg.. a ring.. hahahaha so nice of him... but haiz.. i dunno lah... next week is my baday le.. counting down liao le wo.... hahaah dunno wad to wear leh.. so sian wo..;.

hahahaha... bored... i very good ger at home... dunno wad to write leh.. just counting down to my birthday n its more n more near le wo.. hahahahahahaha where is all my present/... i wan many many present leh... jk lah....

yest meet up wif dear at nite..i went down to my friend de funural was thinking of gonig jb after that de.. in the end things happened... think is suey ba.. accident again wth lor.. fuck.. this time his bike really cant ride liao.. n the taxi uncle gonna pay for it... n the 2 stupid passenger on the taxi keep laughing i was darm again after scolding the taxi uncle i scolded n shouted at the 2 little boy.. wtf right.. ppl fall n they still can laught.. feel like ging over to hav a good scold of them.. n one thing the uncle also wrong.. he shouldent hav turn when theres car/bike going front... now my dear the bike take to biek shop to repair lor... so this few days he gonna take bus nor train liao... haiz....

i feel sad for my friend bah... coz his bf suddenly jump down from his house n die like that... so irrasponsible right.. n left her alone.. wow liao.. n today his body gonna burn le... they was gonna ROM on coming DEC de.. but now all gone le.. i think if i was the gf.. i will jump wif him liao le.. hahahaha jk... but hope my friend would be fine...

long ttime never blog here liao le.... its sept now... so hapy n excited... still thinking of wanna get off for my birthday mah... haiz.. yest went mu wif the same person.. not much ppl lor.. abit boring leh...all just sux... i getting boring n boring... unexpected that daryll was not there... hahahahah nvm... today dear never fetch mi.. so i went home myself lor... cant blame him lah... he need to work... hahaha get my pay le.. but very little onli.. may not open bottle liao.. see how bah... lots ppl bday on sept sia.. feel like gonig shopping later on.. to buy some presents... hahahahahah see how bah...

yesterday was suppose to go mu de.. but too bad i cant make it.. coz meet my dear le... if not he will go wif mi de.. was quite sad cant go mu de.. haiz.. stupid dear dear lor.. dun say le.. he say he wont because of friend wad de.. in the end also wad... coz i dunwan go wif his friends.. haiz... but i cant do anything.. in the end go watch movie lor.. my super ex gerfriewnd.. was quite funny de lor.. not bad... hahah... really bth that ning lor.. so playfull de... cant stand.. if i am her i think my bf sure kill mi de..hahahah maybe i should do that.. nvm next week gonna go mu le.. fuck care my bf liao.. coz he starting his job le.. so hes not free liao hahahahah... but i am free... very soon my birthday coming le.. n also cant wait for that day.. yeah.. sure is a wounderfull one... hehe.... nice nice... but my pay com i die liao.. no $$ sure spend all de.. gonna open bottle bah..

haven talk finish bout yest... after movie they went fongseng nasi lemak there for supper.. but i never eat coz not hungry.... after eating le.. they going tower somewhere at higher seletar reservior... mandai road there.... but when reached its so dark n spooky.. omg.. no light at all so scary de.. how to go up to the tower.. in the end never go up... after that went seletar DAM... hahahaha my old place used to go there wif many bikers de but now.. hardly le... sian.. go one round no ppl de... coz its quite late le bout 3 plus liao... den they suggest go jalan kayu for kopi.. while i ordered mutton soup... was nice i 1st time eat sia... the smell not that strong lor.. hahahahah.. worth it... after that go home le.. reached home bout 5am liao..tired.. n went to bed...

n now i meeting dear again... seems like everyday meet him lor... haiz.. so bored.. but going to his mother house.. coz his sister son birthday mah.. ask mi along lor.. hahaahah dunno wad to buy also lor.. hahahahaha gonna go le.. bye

hahaah lets blog here... went rush tonight.. was alright lah.. join joey de friend n jace came along too.. hahaha befor that after work meet d3ear n his friend zhi wei n ning.. coz zhi wei bday amh.. so went to riverside point the indonasia restaurant for our dinner.. quite worth it.. not bad lor.. 6 dishes of main dish n free flow of rice n each person onli bout 12 plus leh... not bad.. after that i was suppose to meet joey de but they wanan go mouth faber lor.. so went there... i was quite angry de.. coz i meeting joey den dear dunwan me to meet her keep wanting mi to acc them lor.. but i cant wad.. den like taht we quarrel again... but he still send mi to rush.. but after rush he at loyang so never fetch mi.. i guess also noe he wont wait de.. hahahah if he does along ago already did.... dunno he now wif ger anot... if i noe on the spot i break off liao lor.... haiz dunno lah... btw rush was alright the songs not bad... got my favouret song too... ah bengs n lians.. when ending soon got a fight lor.. so sian... haiz.. n now i am home../

hahahaahh back from home finally... wednesday celebrate dear birthday at marina south... mi him, zhi wei n ning, 4 of us lor..ning was funny ger... but shes cute... brought a cake for dear dear... n we sing songs... too bad onli 4 of us.. but nvm lah was fun.. after that went in to jb together.. when we com out coz going zhi wei house chit chat bout our business things.. on the way out from jb.. suddenly at one of the corner near to woodland we buang... so suey.. nb.. heng we nothing happy onli dear de leg bleeding lor.. haiz... 1st time sia.. think its the bed time coz 7 month mah.. its a warning to bikers that no cornering during this period if not good luck... but now we r fine le.. dear bike abit no energy onli lor.. haha.. heng still got zhi wei RVF help us if not dear die liao.. they went hospital while mi n ning sit downstair of teh blk chi chat till 5 plus when they com back.. was so tired.. den after that dear ride home lor coz he still can ride mah... so went his house ton..

today never tgo work slp at dear house... den nite time suppose to meet joey de in the end never coz of him.. we quarrel again lor.. sian... den i went off from his house.. after that he com fetch mi lor.. from clark quey to his house coz zhi wei n his gf meet us for dinner... went tiong bahru market eat... mi n dear quarrel again this time its serious one... i really wanan break wif him le... coz he slap mi lor.. wtf he slap n push mi leh... i was so hot till i really wanan fight n kill him lor... wth... wan com kill mi mah... in the end say sorry for wad... my feelnig for u hav fade especially that tight slap haha shuang.. i will remember it de... ok.. now gastric pain again.. fuck lah... chee bye... tired also cry whole day le.. acturelyl still wanna go fishing just now de in the end never... hahahaha

today is dear dear de birthday 15th aug leh... just now dear com fetch mi from work.. den we went to marina south de billy bombus eat steak wow yummy n nice.. but expensive.. expecially the cheese friends really worth it.. n the shake too... hahaha we eat total bout $64+ lor.. but dear treat so ok lah.. dear also brought mi a stock of roses... but from mini toon de.. not real flower fake de... but i love it thanz dear...hahahaha after that went to boat quey one of the club name "WOW CLUB" his friend jio de... so go lor.. no ppl de coz its weekday thats y so quiet... i was sitting there nothing to do so bored lor.. n suddenly a call came...

a unknown num lor.. so i listen to it.. suddenly i listen i really very shock... i really wont believe it... guys wad... DARYLL call mi omg.. its the grettest suprise i ever had.... den i went out to listen... but saded he ask mi y am i keep looking at him on sat nite.. i was like wth... call mi just to ask mi that i thought wad happened sia... den disappointed again... but i was thinking how he got my num??? i called up joey n tell her bout it.. n she told mi that daryll called her n ask for my num lor... haiz... den she ask him wan for wad.. he say wanan ask mi something.. den joey ask him he n wawa togetehr ar.. n his reply is "yes" such a disappointment.. but of coz in my heart i still like him but i still wish them luck lor...

after i went back to sit... another strage num msg mi... n its wawa lor... guys he confirm wif daryll de... she ask mi wad.. y u ans daryll i not looking at him on sat nite... i was like of coz i cant say i looking at him wad.. so abvious.. n i wish him n her together n i noe they r together le... but its obvious u both r together lor... haiz... den she reply wif a msg... saying.. u noe he was crying coz of u??? i was like huh?? crying for mi?? he should treasure u now.. she say will tell mi wad happened.. but until now still no news from her.. can say i really wanna noe wad happened acturelly.... plz dun tell mi that u all hold hand all that in mu is fake de lor... i wont believe it.... btw pass le... i admit i still love DARYLL YEO RONG DA n i never forget bout him... but now i hav a good guy beside mi... i really dun wish to hurt him.... acturelly my feeling for dear has fade le... but i dun wan to see him sad... coz he love n dot mi alots... really...

i really dunno.. if this two guys ask mi to choose again i really dunno who i will choose.... one is i love de one is love mi de.... haiz.. so fan n sad now... hope wawa will reply mi tomm bah...

n tomm going steamboat wif dear n some friends le... happy leh.. steamboat n i brought a cake for dear...

id that time till now i still wif daryll i believe he will be really xin fu... coz hahahahahaah everyone should noe... sian.. gonig slp le.. tired... brain keep thinking bout him...

sian... today off.. taking mc again.. coz yesterday i went to clinic after work wif dear... he acc mi lor.. den saw that mu de candy there was so suprise.. coz its not a original clinic... hahahahaha i was there for few hours lor.. so sian n bored.. after that dear bring mi home to bath... at 1st dun wish to go home coz lazy mah.. was thinknig go eat liao go shopping de... in the end all was wasted.. coz while eating suddenly my gastric very pain till i cant eat.... the pain is really killing mi.. so i ask dear eat faster... den he bring mi to his house n rest for awhile... but the pain dun seem to go any better.. bout an hours plus later... still very pain i really cant take it lor... 1st time sia... den i ask dear bring mi go hospital liao.. but he still at there tu... some more used medical oil to apply on it.. i was like wtf lor.. my gastric pain leh not stomach pain.. but he insist n ask mi rest for awhile more... but the pain still dun go any better.. in the end den he willing to send mi to go hospital lor.... on the way to hospital we was still quarreling lor.. power right... hahahahah

went to general hospital emergency department.. but there was many ppl there lor... wtf.. hav to wait till 3 am den can see doctor lor... wtf.. taht time was onli 10plus pm leh.... how to wait?? later wait till i die how??? stupid.. in the end dear bring mi to alexandra hospital... when reached there no ppl de.. compare to general hospital... hear the hospital was haunted one... hahaha but i bo bian so just went... the doctor give mi medication n one needles so ask mi to rest on the bed for 1/2 an hour to 1 hr lor.. see if the pain was alright not... the most funny was dear ask the doctor to wake mi up but i was sleeping so soundly lor.. thats wad dear told mi... after that went back to he house to rest.. wanted to go home de.. in the end slp at his hosue again... coz drowzeness mah.... just now went to eat... till now den home...

wow tired day... its national day wo.. but pass le... hahah n also its mi n my dear de 2 month annivesary wo... hahahaha... good right on the 9th... hahahahah... went to play bball at blk 10... long time ever since i play my bball le... today mei they all com down so go down lor... but quite fun n nice de.... not bad wo.... hahahahaha after play bball at blk to we went to geylang eat the beancure wo... was very full now hahahahaha... the feelings r great.... my birthday also coming very soon... will ask them out for some dinner bah... hahahahah my sister for years... still love them as befor although we hardly meet or see each other.. coz they will remember mi... i really appreciate them.. hahah thanks to fomei, tansy, layming, zhi ming, suat kim n some others... really thanz... thats wad friends are.... hahahaha...

they never failed to be there too when i need them... still the same lor... hope things will go on like this... hahahahaha

today is really a bad day for mi... haiz.. dunno wad to say.. went to mu lor... was alrigth bah.. saw canto barcode they all also... i saw something which i really will never believe lor.. DARYLL hav a GF le.. n its the ger all of us noe.. omg... i nearly fainted lor... how can i take it men... i totally gone n lost.. haiz.. since he hav change his num.. this mean he really totally foegetten bout mi le.. n willing to give in to another relationship... wad i can say is wish him good luck n all the best... wish him will be happy as befor bah...

but to my feel he dun really looks happy at all... coz the gf can go around wif all guys as a bf how can he take it... n his attitude wont take it de... but maybe his love her more den mi bah.... thats all i can say.. i cant win his heart but she does... i totally lose to her le... in looks n dancing i lose to her... but love i wont lose to her coz i noe she dun love him that much... always see him sitting alone at the table.. i really feel like gonig over but i couldent... coz i am no one to him anymore... i really love him alots... he just dun understand until now i still haven give up.. i still hope teh day will com.... god is really unfair....

i hate it i hate it... its so crue...... WHY WHY WHY?????????

my feelnig for kelvin had faded.. but get really stronger on daryll i also dunno y... when i saw him wif that ger i really quite sad n hot... i really dunno wad to say....

:(...

its a boring day today.. so sian at home rott.. sick sia... haiz.. nb i become more fatter le.. gonna slim down again liao... hahahahahahaha.... i wan pretty pretty... i wan wear many many nice nice de clothes.... this my wish for now... i believe i can do it.. xiao feng jia you k??? jian fei...

think something wrong wif mi.. no i guess not... coz i really think i am fat.. no u r not fat... just big size.. oh no big size consider fat le.. no no no big size is big size fat is fat ok...

em... oh izzit??? yap of coz.. u hav nothing better to do??? yeah i am bored to death.... anyone can help mi men... oh no none can help u onli u urself...

y am i always been trap in so many things... family?? friends?? relationship?? work.. money n so many things around mi omg.. yet some ppl just dun understand it... haiz..

oh really u hav so many things to worry about??? com on tell mi some of it...

lots of things inside mi but i dunno how to say it..

com on just say it men...

dunwan lah.. later say le more worse n make things worse...

oh well wads bothering u men.. friends?? boyfriend?? family??

1stly my family they just dun understand mi well enough... they just think i am a bad ger keep going out wif my bf.. but thats not i wan de..

den wad u wan?? em.. i also dunnon..

2nd my bf.. he simply just dun understand mi either.. my parents already dun understand mi even him... haiz i tell him my feelnigs he thinks its bull shit... always quarrel wif mi.. i really tired of it... hIZ..

MAYBE CAN TALK TO HIM MORE??? bout ur feelings??? ur thoughts??? n everythging.

no everytime i say le he will start quarrel wif mi.. but i noe his a godo guy but his attitude... i just cant stand it men... lousy attitude.. btw his birthday coming.. he wish for a wallet but should i get for him???

em.. its up to u for wad gife u wan for him.. as long its from u he will like de...

ok.. i shell go shop for it bah... thankz

3rd bout my friends around mi... somethings just happened between us... dun wish to say who.. but just read ching aiai blog n saw wad she write... i totally agreed wif her.. doesent us been good enough to her?? r we too bed n so worse to be her friend?? omg.. i really dun understand it..

haiz dun be sad ger... things may not be wad u think??

but the truth is there u can see it for urself.. hav u ever had a friend that say u n hurt u so deeply?? n its a sudden.. just like someone backstub u.. do u noe the kind of feelings???

oh sorry maybe i dunno but y not try talknig to her den???

oh as her attitude do u think she will listen?? maybe just just fucking care???

how u noe it ???

of coz i noe.. hahahaha.. coz the problem lies wif her... if nothing gonna com out from her den things will be like that... sister?? wad is sister?? i really dun understand this word anymore... n wads that for??

oh cool down cool down ger.. dun be so angry.. just relax n everything will be fine... simply heck care bout her??? maybe its just her lose for losing u all.. so dun get so work out..

haiz.. i dunno my mind now is blank.. i onli wan to work n earn lots of money...

ok den go straight to wad u wan n aim for it...

ok thankz buddy.. u r the best.. i will tell u all my feelnigs though i may not see u at all... hope u hav a good rest.. we shell talk again..

oh sure no problem i shell talk to u again.. any problem just look mi up.. cheer up ger... dun think so much dun worry be happy ok...

ok sure u too.. bye bye nite

nitenite

em.. this few days very tired n busy.. was wif dear this few days... went jb, go eat steamboat at suntec convention hall... wif his mum n uncle... was a nice one... coz free mah... hahahaha ops... can say busy bah.. today is friday le... no where to go leh.. at home bah... tomm leh.. think gonig mu bah... shuang dao... hahahahaha dunno who going... i wanna go shopping tomm.. hahaha shop shop...

was sick also sneezing n coughing.. haiz.. sian.. life getting fun.... hahahaah.. get back all my old friends in mu... shuang...

reguarding xiao xiao blog.. i hav no comman... i am not the one who made this decision... i dun think i will talk much also...

ya after reading wad xiao xiao blog n wad she say... i hav nothing to say coz now the problem does'nt lies on neither mi nor joey... is just that how does the party want things to go am i right??? ya for my sake i hardly will ask ppl out de... think most of u will noe even if i am sad nor anything...in this world nothing is perfect.. wad god give mi i will treasure it... none of us noe each other well so wanna noe each other well nothing onli getting close but speaking out should be the right one.. thats how we noe each other more..

i always forgive n forget but do hav limits sometimes.. i am not a dead person wif no feelnigs too.. sure will hav some feel... forgive n forget this two words it may looks so easy but somethings u really cant forgive n forget de... so dun ever do anything wrong.... hahahahahahaahah

yeah n of coz i do admit to wad u say.. everyone do hav their do n does their good n bad right??? but i mean just like i explain earlier on, things can be slove, anything just say out its just that simple... wad wrong for saying each other bad point infront of each other right??? for us all of us noe koni dun hav a good attitude n the way she react some time is totally cant acceptable.. but for us sister we also did not even say a thing..coz we noe how she will react coz it will show no good.. ya our tone sometime maybe abit hush but this doesent mean we r putting all angle on u or anyone.. yeah n for xiaoxiao n koni case i dunno wads really going on also.. i also wont interfer..

i already make myself very clear over here le.. dun wish to repect the same old story... btw i dun think admit things that u r wrong is a shamefull thing... charecter can be change is weather the person is willing too anot... so dun ever say because ur charecter is like that de... so u wont admit anything wrong...

example u take a knife n kill a person, but u dun do it on purpose, in the end u say u never n instead u say is ur good friend who do it.. how he/she will feel??? angry n cant take it de right?? same goes wif anyone of us.. i am not a leactural or like to leacture ppl de..

n so the story is admit for anything that u hav done wrong, the person may forgive u. but if u never even admit even if its ur wrong, never assume that the person will forgive u...

THE END

btw i am a very straight forward person also.. those who noes mi will noe it may offened some ppl but wad i say is all true no lies... if theres mistake plz correct mi.. i am willing to listen n learn from it.. thanz alots.. hav a good rest n nite...
ZZzZzzzzzzzz :) think i should showly change my charecter too.. dun be too straight forward, sometimes it may cause some problem n some case... shouldent try to be a good person too.. cheers ('-') YeaH!!!

wow feeling so tired.. eye closing soon le... just back from jb lor... went out wif dear to jb n meet up some of his biker friends... wow so qiao some of them i also noe de.. hahahaha all big bikes onli my dear n one sp is small bike but nvm my dear gonna take lesson soon le... hahahaha...

went da ma hua yuan eat sea food not very nice lor.. i prefere go tian lai eat lor... hahahah but too bad.. think i really gonna catch up my bike practical le.. so long never touch bike liao.. coz i also wanna hav my own bike... list wont let ppl look down... hahahahaha

off on thursday yeah.. hahahah shuang dao... i get my pay liao.. quite happy de but gonna save liao... gonna slp soon le..

sian.... life is bored.... sian... oh chat wif aaron yest... bout the matter that koni is not happy bout.. em tell him wads going on... see wad he gonna think bout the conversation... hahahahaha... btw life will go on.. no problem... nothing big deal...

meet up wif jace yest... btw i dun hav to explain anything as all was written here.. anyone can read n understand it... btw been a bad person is hard... been a good person is more hard...

stress meet up wif dear yest... some unhappy things went on.. but now fine le.. hahahahaha btw seems that the problem will end here n its settle...

dunno wad to get for my boyfriend.. his birthday coming planning to go for steamboat... hahahahaha on the 14th..

now meeting dear le....

after reading koni blog.. ya i really cant take ur attitude anymore... ya its ur blog u can do anything u wan ok.. since u like wad others say den dun blog it if not there will sure be some conflict.. n if u dunwan ppl to see ur blog must well u dun blog it.. n wads blog for?? since its for u to type den its for others to see too.. y get suck a big fuck out of it den...??? ya kelvin is my bf so wad??? did i ever say i will side anyone of them??? now its ur wrong n u yet blame it on others... so wad u break up with william??? do u hav to put all ur angle on ur sister n u also can say its bout 1 yr le... wads the problem men.. n now the problem lies wif u... i trying to make this things go smoothly n yet thats wad we get..

more insult from u... since u not happy wif anyone of us y dun just say out infront of us den??? den y when i ask u to say out wad u r not happy wif anything n all u do as keep quiet??? just say out lah... n we r infront of u.. i dun hav to side anyone of u.. but now for wad u do i really find that u r really not a good friend of us... coz u dun understand anyone of us well.. n u r selfish.. n u urself r the one that always take ppl as spare tyre.. this is not the 1st time u say ur sister le.. we r not blind.. we always give in to u.. u still think its not enough dun u think u ask for too much... we always there for u when u need us.. in the end thats wad the result we get??? been INSULT BY U.. N nOW i noe WADS SISTER FOR...

n yest u can just say back my bf de.. if u r right i will say him de.. but now his just trying to make things easier.. n his been say by u.. cant u just think bout it??? none of us is leaturing u.. ya now onli xiao xiao , xiao yun r ur good friends ok... go ahead.. we dun bloody care anymore... ur problem is not ours.. ur attitude is getting worse.. i wont noe who will be ur next target lor... those ppl will noe it.. since that how u can treat us it will be the same to the rest.. dun ever say u r sorry as wad done is done wad hurt is hurt ok...

n plz always get things clear befor accusing anyone for doing anything.. n dun make so much bull shit here n insult us.. not happy wif us u can call us out to talk de.. n if u think wad ever i say here is not true den continue blogging all ur shit.. n sister till today ok... nothing to talk bout it.. n now u r not happy wif us n not we r not happy wif u k.. we hav no loss... u r just been so unreasonable.. thats all... btw my bf hav nothing offended u ok... if u r not happy wif him also fine. he wont even care to talk to u too... he can just shut his mouth.. n that how selfish u r instead of saying thanks n yet in the end blame him for his wrong.. btw he help u not because u r my friend ok.. he can simple dun do anything de.. if he noe u will say its none of his business that he quarrel wif william because of u, i think u r really very scary i wont noe wad things u will do behind of us lor...

plz used ur brain n think for all the things u done ok.. befor accusing anyone of them.... i dun admit i hav nothing wrong in donig anything.. but list i hav my own reason for doing everything... list i wont say my own sister or anyone of them n hurt them wif words... btw i already very pissed of wif wad u hav say.. go ahead wif wad u wan den....

hahaahahha... things change... coz finally agreed to let mi go mu le... haiz.. that day at mu i noe i lost control. those who saw mi cry should noe bah... haiz... just simply cant forget him thats all... had a big quarrel wif dear n i wanted to break up wif him.. coz i cant stand control from him lor.. haiz... he noe i will go mu but yet keep dun let mi go.. haiz.... so drink some chivas.... too long never drink le... easily get seh bo bian.. that nite daryll talk to mi.. i was really onli standing beside him nia leh... haiz he dun admit den suan le lor... aqfter all he say his married.. although i dun believe but i cant do anything lor... i noe he will care for mi one... but he wont express out onli... haiz... this is his charector.. bo bian... nvm dun think so much le... let it be bah... dun talk bout it le..

after mu kelvin came to fetch mi home... but i was seh le... den dun feel like talking to him... he talk wif elmo also.. he he let mi go mu liao.. hahahaha love him leh.... after aLL this time he really give in to mi le.. but i will hav limit also lah.. dun worry... hope our relationship will last bah... hahahaha..

went to explanade yest.. wif koni... hear some bad news from her... that william one leg wanna step two boat sia... how can he do that...so irrisponsible... a guy do this thing to his gf really shamefull lor... haiz... dunno lah... hope koni will be fine can le... guy dun hav still can find de...

now is 7th month le.. chinese ghost festival... so scary sia... now all my neighbour move away le.. left our unit.. haiz.. so scary... heng got dear acc mi wo... love him...

yest was supposed to be happy de.. in the end things end up so unhappy.. coz of my bf.. haiz... i also gt tell him many time le.. dun tie mi so tite till i cant breath lor... i cant take it de... yest almost we break up... coz i cant take it le.. n he keep forcing mi lor... i just wan to go mu wif my friend y cant i??? even my mum can understand lor... y not u??? i was very disappointed.... haiz.. sms him dun com to meet mi at nite le... n he was angry again... e quarrel again..

i very angry n cup his phone n a msg him " i dun suits u. go n find a better ger" den he keep calling mi but i ignore.. he noe this time i am darm angry le lor... guess he noe wad i mean bah... den in the end he nicely talk to mi... he say wanan com down n talk to mi.. fuck lor... talk wad??? i already say dunwan meet him le.. but he insist... after work he came... den we quarrel n talk things out.... in the end i cry again.. n i tell him i dun suits him lah.. go find someone who dun chiong lor... all that.. den he cant take it.... he give up.... coz i won... hahahaha.. he allow mi to go mu le.. but hav limit... hahahahah.. always must wait till i cry den he happy... haiz.....

haiz... this few day very bored mostly stay at home lor... yesterday had a big quarrel wif him again.. wth lor.. i was sick n having fever n yet he still can quarrel wif mi wth this kind of bf... how can i take it .. my charector dun allow lor.. if this goes too much i think i will be the one saying that "*****" words lor.. coz i cant take it always quarel wif my bf lor... he just cant think for mi?? i am sick n feeling headach yet he was so selfish just think for himself... always pick quarrel wif mi lor.... but of coz i appreciate his visit for mi but not quarrel lor... ya he bring mi a small present.. i love it.. of coz a big thanks to him... btw how i wish we can be like how lovely as agnes n wen bin lor.. this couple is very lovely lor.. they been togetehr for 10 yr le n still so lovely.. haiz.. btw cant compare... maybe his not mine.... n i am not his bah... i also dunno.. i wanan go mu.... onli there i can forget bout my unhappiness. but i still feeling week.. haiz.. haven been eating much since yest... haiz...

sian.. yest we had a big quarrel again... sian...

meet up qwif joey den we go eat sushi buffy... after that dear got call mi say wanan meet mah.. we both of us was quite fierce in talking de... den talk to him i really very peck chek lor... bth... den mi n joey saw 2 helmat lighter... den i was thinking for having it for dear coz today is our one month annivesary mah.. in the end the name "junJie" one the lighter spoil the ideal.. kns.. the stupid person who created the lighter put his name on it... fuck lor... the helmat so nice he spoil the taste...

meet dear at far east plaza... den he wanan eat.. we go eat chicken rice again... den we got walk walk lor... coz his break time is 6-9 mah... den he go back work after that... while i wanna make4 something for him.. so i went back to one store to do it.. its a small shirt wif our photo printed on it de... so sweet.. i going to take it later on... den tonight give him... hahaha hope he like it..

den mi n joey went PS after that coz she wanan do the mp3 mah.. while i saw the offer on the mp3 price 119 neeon leh.. onli limited de.. i wanan buy.. omg... after that joey n mi wanan go mu awhile.. den i got tell dear but i noe he wont allow.. but i can dun tell him n go myself de but i dident lor.. coz i respect him so i tell him.. in the end liek that we quarrel again.. he dunwan mi to go mu lor.. den i very angry mah.. onli go awhiel will die... he say by 11 must reached home.. n the time is bout like 10.25 le lor... knn.. den bo bian went in to mu awhile saw xiao fei n his gf there.. den tal;k awhile rush home liao.. den when i reached home i msg him say i reached home le.. coz my mum using phone so i cant get to call him.. n he make a big fast out of it.. n i very dulan n angry wif him.. we quarrel again... n he shouted at mi... n i put down the phone... n off teh phone.. coz he just dun believe mi at all... was crying after that.. he call mi i never pick up le... he sya sorry i also heck care liao.... i go slp after that.. call mi many times him... den i wake up bout 2.15 den i miss call him lor... den he call back n say ask mi dun slp wait for him..... aftert hat quarrel lor den i cry... cry till very jia lat... den he aso soft heart3ed liao.. hahaha thats how i win de... now everythings fine again... but really tired le... haiz..

tonight meet him.. our one mth leh/... happy. .dunno where he bring mi to...

few days never blog le.. things happened when we go along.. been very tired everyday.. n thanks dear for helping mi wif the painting job... i noe all of us r tired le.. so we sure will hav abit of conflite de.. but things say just forget lor... no point keeping it... hope things wont go worse bah... after all i really appreciate for the things u do n i love the pig from him.. cutie.. when i took photo i will post.. now his worknig le... he going back home later.. coz i am tired n him too.. tomm will be a new day.. i become more n more guai liao.. hardly go chiong le.. my friends will wounder y... haha coz after work i will go home report den acc him lor... where got time hahahaha, now all of us r busy le.. dunno when can meet up together... now more n more problems comnig up le... my studies my job, my family, my bf, my bike lesson n much more.. work already killing mi le... not enough slp le... just hope my dear can be more understanding lor..not i dunwan acc him sometimes.. his diff from mi.. coz i hav lots of things surround mi.. haiz.. if i tell him my feelings.. we sure quarrel again.. so i just keep it...

now just concentrate on my job bah...

yesterday went to mu wif hui xian n joey.. was alright lah... acturelly cant go coz my bf dun like but i insist... he aLso LL lor... in the end let mi go... talk alots wif him this few days bout our problem... i find it very comfortable coz list we say out our thinking... but now i truely trust him.. coz he wont leave mi alone... i am glad to hav him by my side... now my life is very strict le... sometime he will control mi lor... he get jealouse easy... but for mi i just like that lor... hav to report to him whenever i go.. haiz... i noe i cant be control de... even my mum also never control mi... but after all i treasure him.. just hope sometime he will give in to mi more...

elmo, barcode they all was at mu yest... coz celebrate barcode com back to mu again... hahahah lots of ppl was there wo... was alright or... ah hua they all was there too.. the malaysia lor... hahahaha den got R n B cum techno lor... mix mix.. william was there too.. but no koni.. bout 2 plus i went of le.. wif hui xian lor.. joey went hm 1st... while mi n xian wait till 2 plus... coz i waiting for my dear mah... love him... den acc xian wait for cab lor...

dear dear n mi go play pool at east cost park there... hahahaha till quite late.. he order some food there... wow liao so much again... i eat some lor bo bian.... when reached home bout 5am liao le... haiz.. so tired.... kns...after that he stay at my house till bout 6 lor... den he went back liao le...

em... acc dear the whole day yesterday.. i never go work yest n today.. hahaha coz too tired liao.. acturelyl wanan find joey yest de... but too tired.. went to find dear at his work place but he ask mi dun go.. coz my leg sprain mah... in the end i also never go hahaha.. acc till he off work lor... den meet a branch of aunties n uncle over there.. but they r fun n cute... aspecially one of them become my god mum liao.. so cute sia.. they ask mi go down again.. n one of the ger there was on the newspaper yest de.. the vegetable lady.. she was so rich .. the bill all she pay de... she got 5 house 3 market n one stall sia... but she work hard for it... sian... i think gonna get sheck by the boss liao.. but nvm lah.. find a new one den.. hahahah later tonight meet dear again....happy...

went jb today wif hui xian, ah shen, ah hua n zhi wei... hahahah they r such a nice guy men.. acc us all teh way.. but ah hua n zhi wei going go work so they leave early lor.... while mi n hui xian n ah shen go city square... coz we watching movie... was so suprise that ah hua acturelly give ah shen money to treat us movie lor.. really thankz him alots... was walknig the whole day... leg pain n tired... now resting at home... brought a adidas jacket at 69.90 but 10% dis so is 63 bucks.. hahahah cheap cheap.. also a bag n a t shirt for my dear hope he like it bah... today shop not enough coz wif a guy around is very difficult to shop so did not buy much things also.... maybe next time go kl or melacca wif them bah... hahahaha...

later meeting dear dear again pass him the things lor... haiz now my eye wanan clsoe liao tired.. but watching show 1st.. should be a ncie show..

em... yesterday went dear house again... its very last min de... went to dear de mother house... saw his sis de baby cute cute leh...hahahaha love my dear lotas ltos... he send mi to work.. its abit raining last nite... thats y... slp early also wo... burt still very tired after i wake up... haapy its week end again... hahahaha

he working i off work i offwork his working.. how i wish our timing can suits each other... coz mostly we onli meet at midnite wo.... sometime really very tired lor.. haiz.. eveyday eat onli.. fat fat liao le.. haiz.. yesterday eat chong pang nasi lemak.. haiz... now its raining le... cant meet dear liao.. unless befor 2 am den ok lor... hahahahaha

tIred dayS~!~! never slp well this few days.. keep fallnig asleep lor... when nite time talking if dear i will doze off n start talking rubbish like a blur queen lor... hahahaha den dear dear also liek blur blur when hear mi talk coz i myself dunno wad am i talking bout.. hahah so cute.. i wanna cute my hair soon liao.. maybe this thursday bah... ask dear go wif mi.. hahahaha

went dear de house yesterday.. den this morning he wanan fetch mi to work de but raining.. arh... stupid weather so stupid rain wad rain.. hai mi cant sit dear dear de bike to work.. n hav to take a taxi over... but dear give mi $$ for cab fare.. love him much more le... from the way he behave n the action i can see clearly lor... but still cant put in 100% yet... hahaha was abit late for work... but heng ar.. stress at work also.. client called up n ask when i can hand up the drawings.. haiz.. so stress... i dunno if i can take it.. too many things for mi le...

he really feeding mi liek a pig lor... everyday everynite once i meet him 1st thing is EAT n eat.. n the way he eat really very scary... i eat double of wad i normally eat lor.. wont grow fat is fade de... i wan slim down... hur hur... but he dun allow... sad sad.. not meeting him today le.. coz too tired to go out liao.. tomm meet him bah... now my eye already closing le.. waiting for dear to go home give mi a call...

today almost hav a quarrel wif him lor... but heng nothing happened..

hehehe.. yesterday went mu again hahaha.. wif joey, koni n xiao tian... hahaha.. befor that went to take my spetical leh.. hahaha cute sia.. saw daryll in mu again.. as usure.. his always wearing the same clothing wad sex something de... as usure will still look out for him lor.. acturelly i feel abit sad for him... he looks so lonely lor.. but his walking around in mu.. hahahaha but i just dance my song.. also never bother much lor... chye went mu too n that stupid lawrence keep diturbing us... irritating... hahah but he was fun n funny...

after that meet dear dear he com n fetch mi lor.. koni n joey acc mi go out lor... den follow by tian... sorry gers that i cant stay till so late.. coz of my bf .. hope all of u understand as all of us r attached too... :).. u all also will be xin fu 4 ever de ok...

i did drink abit yesterday but i tell a lie to dear n makes him very angry of mi.. coz i promise him i wont lie to him.. we went to 24hr de duo hua you tiao da wang... he say i talk to him like wanna quarrel but i did not.. i just talk abit louder thats all... he really very dot on mi.. wad i wan he say on wif mi de.. thats y yest got abit of conflit wif him.. coz thinking of wad to eat.. in the end still eat duo hua you tian lor.. den we went to east coast park... yest some words say from him let mi think of daryll.. n i really quite sad n i drop my tears.. he saw it.. n ask mi dun cry.. we went somewhere near bedok jetty.. so sit there n eat.. after that he talk to mi lor.. lots of things... i dunno y i really think that he love mi alots... but i dunno y i cant put in 100% of feelnig for him.. like how i treat daryll.. his really very nice.. the feeling is like if he wanan break wif mi n will say ok lor... but i wont lah... i will treasure him from now lor... i shell totally forget the past le... n love him more.. after talking he feel better le... n mi too.. but i feel sleepy liao le... so we went home lor...

but some of the thing not convinian to say out here also... i shell stop here le..

guess wad.. i saw him again in mu.. but i onli go down find my friend den go off le.. saw val n xiao tian over there.. hahaha so qiao... guess daryll is enjoying himself bah... never really go talk to him or wad... coz my darling waiting for mi mah...

ent dear house yesterday hahaha 2 person so xin fu... dear really very good to mi.. i never go work yesterday lor.. think i go work sure jia lat liao de... went ikea shop shop wif dear... den went home change all that... den went for movie watched the omen alrigth lor not bad... list the storey line still ok.. hahahaha den after that go mu... just wad i guess as usure daryll was in mu lor... i thought i wont get to see him le... hahaha.. pa tell mi befor daryll dunno how to treasure mi its his lost... n i onli lose a guy that dun love mi, n now i hav found a guy taht love mi more den he do.. so i shell put in my love for kelvin le... :) daryll is my past le... now onli kelvin... hahahahah... die i getting fat liao.. dear keep bring mi go out to eat everyday just eat n eat omg.. how sia... haiz.. den everyday not enough slp.. think gonna stay at home this week le... but can i dun go mu??? i guess i can.. its all my memories there...hahahahah... i love my life now

hahahah.. feeling so xin fu.. but den u wont noe wad will happened next.. just let it be bah... had a chat wif daryll that nite.. he noe i hav a bf le... but i still feel sad lor... dunno y... think its really gone for us liao le wo...

now nvm lah.. just let things go bah... hahahaha yest meet dear ah pa, ah kor, n ah kor de gf wo.. we went ktv leh... after that go loyang pray... dear ride mi go.. kns he ride very fast sia... bth leh... but think i slowly will put kelvin in my heart le wo.. hahahaha... later meeting my dear again.. go east coast eat le.. hahahah..

xin fu

hahahahah.. now all our sister r attached le wo... seriously all leh... we all feeling so xin fu right???

Koni <3 William
Jace <3 ah yong
Ching <3 Helmi
Xiao Xiao <3 Wei Cong
Joey <3 Ching Cai
last but not list is mi~!~! <3 Kelvin

sister see... all attached liao... happy right?? i haapy for u guys too..


yesterday is my 1st day wif darling... hahaha althought we togetehr but i will take him in slowly de.... i wotn treat him bad de... n i will slowly forget bout him.. yesterday went to mu again... saw him there... was suprise when i hear wad joey told mi lor... he ask joey where is mi leh... dun u guys think its funny... all along he wotn ask that.. maybe he wish i was not there ba.. but if one day he really ask mi back to him i will say no... hahahah.. coz i got my KELVIN le... he treat mi good... i really feel he love mi more den i do... thats y i feel xin fu the most... hahaha tonight mu again... sure will saw him de.. but yesterday i already sense that he wanna com near to us le lor.. he keep on looking.. last time i used to look out for him de lor.. now seems things change har... sorry i abit disgusting pai seh...

but memories should remain in mi.... everything every single memories....

wow today is my 3rd day of work in my new job... new friends new enviroment le... worknig in katong there as an architactural... wow 1st day work the guy ask mi do a big project liao le.. so stress sia.. i was totally blurr lor.. i really never touch lots of the things leh... although i may be study befor but its still not enough.. now eveyrthing must be very carefull liao.. cannot be wrong.. coz its serious project lai de.. sometime even hav to bring home to do lor... see how stress i will be.. but i like this job so its ok.. will learn lor.. gonna study everything thing all the rules n so on... hahhah the office very cold... its freetime lor.. they never really control my time but if the project need to rush i must finish it on time lor.. haiz... think hardly got tiem for my things le.. just book my bike practical le... hope i can faster pass den wont so stress liao...

got to noe a guy from koni de bf william... the guy was cute sia.. n its my type.. but one thing my heart there is still another guy i really cant put down lor... haiz when will i really put it down.. always keep wanan msg him de but i cant... really... i miss him alots.. but i hav to put down n accept another guy... but even if i really be wif him i will be truefull to him de... i dunwan to hurt him too..hahahaah... now i also dunwan think so much liao.. work shell com 1st...
the ugy also got ride de wo... not bad.. think got to noe him more 1st.. hope he will help mi forget bout daryll bah.... hahaha sian.. tomm worknig again.. stress day..

i really dun understand y he can change so fast lor.. i really dun understand him anymore.. as when i trying my best to understand him give in to him n things happened.. fuck lah y like that... i really cant stand it le.. he always think that is my fault lor... kao he never think how will i feel at all... ccb.. i super hort n angry wif him le... i give him up le... n i sya everything clearly to him liao.. i giving up on him.. he shell lead his own life from now on n i lead my own life.. since thats wad he wan i grant his wish ok.. i wont msg him any morew... coz i dun worth my love.. n I HATE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! from now on i will hate him... as he hate mi too... since we both hate each other things goes easily.... his a big lier big big lier... fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.................... not gonna give in to guys anymore.... enough is enough guys i tell u all we gers are not ment for u guys to play around... we hav feelnigs too.. if u dun treasure the person or like her dun ever accept them... now fuck off from my life man...

yesterday is my last day working in feng shui company le... will start my new job soon le.. next week lor.. hahah nice nice... went to see ah du wif my boss.. but aiyo so sian de... boring.. hahahah.. ah du nothing nice not yandao also.. kns..

after that went bugis find joey lor... after awhile kor they all called mi go for dinner all that.. den went to chinatown eat the claypot chicken rice.. wow nice nice lnog tiem never eat le... was a very big potion lor... eat till full full.. den uncle they all say wanna go chiong coz his friend got bottle over there must finish by yesterday.. so they ok at 1st i dunwan go de coz of some reason lor... but in the end still go.. hahaha his friend stupid de keep saying mi watermelon ger.. liew.. peng sia... but alright lah was fun.. went mos lor... hahaha

den daryll got msg mi also.. ask mi call him.. but i was outside mah... he got ask mi wif who all that... when he say he was jeslouse i was quite happy de... coz i noe he still care... den i got drink submarin.. is uncle they all do for mi de.. was a mix lor... not bad... but no kick.. den i got drink nid.. hahaha shuang... i was abit high liao le mah... den i ask ah kor help mi take num from the bar tender taht time at mos i saw de... he was working.. but i write my num to him till now no msg from him.. think he forget le.. nvm.. now got daryll can le...

den daryll ask mi call him all that lor... den we chated alots... i even cry lor.. n at that point i also abit high le.. haiz.. he did ask mi to be back again wif him.. but he wanan keep low profile lor.. haiz.. he also got ask mi go back to malaysia wif him... i was really very happy n touch lor... after all i still love him... hahaha i hope this time his true... kor they all com out le after that.. dne they say wanna go eat den went to chinatown eat porridge... hahaah my phone also low batt le cant msg daryll.. when i reached home daryll call mi lor.. coz i already high le no energy to walk... hahahahah den he say his hungry kns forever de lah him... hahahahaha

yesterday went ktv wif ah kor n pa... sing at party world in china town de... haiz... think of him again.. when will i accept a new relationship again.. did sms wif him... but haiz... no hope no chance... hahahah den after that went to meet joey lor... den go to eat... went cosy bay den go home le.. boring day leh...

how can i forget him??? god plz help mi my mind is all himm.... dream of him yesterday somemore.. haiz.. i did miss him but i cant stop to tell myself his not worth it... haiz.. i hate myself.. but i noe my sister also trying to help mi forget bout him.. thanz... to koni, jace, joey, xiao tian i lvoe u gers.. n my aiai ching..

nIcE n fUN nIte

hahaha here goes again mu mu.. hahaha went mu again.. yesterday meet up wif ah kor n ah pa go boat quey there eat... coz miss the food there.. die think i gonna be fat le wo.. sian.. after eating 10 plus le.. meet koni n joey outside of mu.. den we go fetch uncle to mu lor... den we reached mu koni wad hungry so went prata shop.. awhile later elmo arrive too.. heheheh.. cutie elmo always bully mi de haiz... den jace reached mu le... i sign her in.. today mu was packed as usure lor... den lots ppl like never see befor de.. tian arrive later... the was jenski n melvin ar also got com mu too...

while we gers was dancing got another group of guys beside us so irritating sia keep bang into us.. but inside their group one of the guy was cute althought he was fat fat plump plump de.. but was so cute compare to the others in the group... den koni n joey kns go say i wanan noe him make mi so pai seh sia... den they pull mi to their table there omg.. den got one guy in red shirt de fuck lor.. i also dunwan noe him keep talk to mi irritating bastard.. dancing also very er xin lor.. the butt keep shacking here n there see le also vomit.. hahahah but the guy name ah cheng is i wanan noe de... i was so pai seh till i went back to dance floor lor.. awhile later they com dance floor too... den the guy n one of his friend keep looknig at us so jia lat.. but i just dance lor.. just when i n jace wanna go toilet one of his friend hold mi down n say can he be my friend all taht rubbish lah.. den ah cheng came along too... den ah cheng n mi become friend le lor.. den stupid koni, jace, tian n joey keep saying i hong aiyo.. i never hong lor.. think this the way i forget bout daryll bah... hahahah den got exchange num wif ah cheng.. he was really cute n friendly.. althought his a malaysian.. but i believe malaysia guys r better bah.. compare ot here... i must really believe it... if got futher contact maybe ah cheng will be my target bah.... but his same age as mi omg.. dun believe it... but his older lah... nice nice.. later meet pa go eat le.. n ah kor too..

make up my mind

yesterday went rush to celebrate jace de birthday heng nothing happened sia.. hahahah.. brought her a cake leh.. nice nice.. den treat her to drinks till she abit high sia.. but alright lah.. den tian den bf came also.. wow he really looks decent sia.. haiz not like mi.. always choose a bad guy.. say bout daryll i really give up liao... his always giving mi the false hope i am just always too stupid to do that stupid thing to hope he will com back where the fact is he wont be back le.. this few days chat wif him i really very happy but the feel is diff le.. n he lie to mi bout the air stewaedess gf things.. wads the point sia where he can just tell mi straight away.. do he think that the best way to give up on him??? but i can say it onli makes mi feel more hurt n sad lor... the way he talk to mi is not usure him lor.. he can really talk to mi very sacastic lor.. inside his heart he was just wan mi to give up... wad give mi a chance because i put in effect all that was just a lie from him.. since he dun mean it den dun say it.. say dunwan hurt mi but does he noe he already hurt mi so much lor... hahahahaha now i wont feel the pain anymore its already enough.. n i gonna give up on him totally le.. no point holding on.. com on there r more better guys out there.. he can easily just do anything to mi anytime without noeing if it hurts my feelings.. since his pride means so much to him den wad for he still tell mi those rubbish wad wanan patch back this n that... fuck lor.. i gonna enjoy myself in mu tonight... so wad if i will see him he means nothing to mi anymore.. no matter how much i love him i still must give up.. i hav my pride too.. i dunwan gusy to look down on mi n my friend say i am usless.. i really look through everything le... no more tears n more sadness.. i gonna be taht lively xiao feng again... guys can just fuck off..

wow liao... just hear a news bad news.... knn tomm go rush liao.. i wanan see teh person who beat my friend lor.. cb de.. bo da bo ji been hook... rush really sux men.. ppl there sux too.. kiddy place.. always got problem there one... ban rush sia...

nOW inside my office blogging here.. hahaha ..its been sometime again since last blog... hahaha this few days went out wif ah pa n ah kor plus uncle... hahaha they never failed to meet mi everyday de.. but sometimes i need my freedom too but of coz i never say out.. as i noe how they will feel after all they mean good to mi no harm.. hahahah.. yesterday went china town wif them coz i wanan do my heels stupid heels... while walking around OG saw some perfume not bad... was quite cheap pa wanted to buy for mi hahahah.. i keep dunwan but he say nvm so he brought it.. was happy.. as its the 1st gife from him mah.. n they treat mi good wo.. while inside the car.. they was thinking of opening a chalat... den they ask mi when was my birthday i say sept.. den they say i wanan open anot.. of coz i ask them serious meh?? they say ya.. den i also agreed to it lor.. must wait till ah pa to do the booking 1st.. they really dots on mi sia.. although we dunno each other for long but i can see their sincerity.. thanz vincent uncle, andy kor n richard ah pa.. hahaha never failed to tell mi lots of things.. i will learn from it.. n see guys more clearly..

on the 23th nite.. i forward a msg to daryll.. n he reply mi i was stund n suprise.. talk bout y he dunwan to give mi tthe chance all that lor... den chat n chat... he say that HE HAF FEELINGS FOR MI.. because of his ego thats y this goes this way n acturelyl is not wad i expected.. i dunno now.. the msg he say make mi so confuse again.. but my feelings not that strong as befor le.. but still there.. because of his ego thats y he dun dare to say out his feelings to mi.. coz his pride means alots to him.. i did noe it long ago.. last sat at mu i did saw him keep looking at mi but i just kindly ignore n dance lor.. he say since i like him den y i can flirt around wif guys in mu last sat.. when i saw this msg i very work out.. n i say him back..how can he say that.. it means all long i dun gain his trust at all.. wtf lor... its been so lnog le he still dun understand mi.. haiz.. one more msg is he say that he dunwan accept mi is because he dunwan to hurt mi n he noe we wont hav happy ending.. i reply if there r happy ending in the world there wont be wars n divorve around le.. happy ending is depand on urself n the other party.. haiz.. i got ask him y he can accept a ger so fast n all that.. he reply he was onli fooling around wif the gers onli.. i reply n say since u can fool around wif them den that means his fooling around wif mi too.. n i was liek a fool been played by him?? he reply.. if his fooling around wif mi would he still consider a chance for us n will he still consider if he accept mi he will hurt mi anot.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. dun really guess wads his thinking.. coz he himself sometime also dunno wads his thinking too.. so confuse.. think he dun really noe wad he wans now.. after that bout 1 plus he say wanna talk on phone anot.. n i agreed so i called him.. we chat lots till 4 plus lor.. its like been back to last time le.. but its so diff le the feelings so diff.. i dun feel the happiness the joy all that when talking to him.. although happy lah.. haiz.. one more thing he say thats because of his ego he ignore mi accept ger all that.. but deep down inside his jealouse.. hahahah i see le abit happy but i must control..

we really talk bout many things.. everything sia.. from the day i noe him till now he never failed to tell mi his things.. he maybe selfish n care botu himself but sometimes he wont.. n can see that his pride means lots to him de.. n his a da nan ren zu yi de ren.. i still hope for the day he will com back to mi lor.. but i told him i will onli get back to him if his sincer n really put mi in his heart.. coz i dun wish history to repeat..now i treat him as friends.. hope him too.. maybe we still need to noe each other more.. n he told mi he found a job le.. part time job hope he wont over tired.. care i will still care for him de no matter wad.. hahaha.. wish to see him happy n hyperactive like last time lor.. since the day we broke off he never been happy n his lonely.. none really care bout him.. i wish to bring him joyn make him back to last tiem de daryll.. but i guess its hard... after talknig to him that nite.. i really think that now we remain as friends is better lor... i always belive in wad i do coz i believe wad i done will gain somthing back.. n now i did it again as he talk to mi again le.. hahah we can chat for hours no stop de.. just dunno y leh... his using x800 panasonic phone now le.. good for him.. haha he ask mi to used also.. but i dun like of coz.. he say acc mi go see that phone all that.. i was happy.. n appreciate it.. keep asking mi to used that phone kns de him.. bth afetr all wish him all the best in his career lor..

went mu yesterday as usure... n its ah jon de birthday too.. but never join them lor.. haiz.. saw him again but he never bring his gf down leh.. so suprise.. but i just act nothing bah.. sicne he so dao.. mi n joey go down togetehr to eat at kopitiam near there.. wif ah kor they all.. saw canto n terry wo.. hahah happy leh lnog time never saw them le... den went mu after that... mu was fun yesterday lor.. super the song is nice... plus still got canto, terry, ling, ah wei, sonice n some of their friends haha but too bad we leave early.. can see taht tian abit not happy but den bo bian.. joey need to go home... went 7-11 1st den go of meet ah kor they all... coz he seng us home mah.. went china town eat leh.. after that went home le lor... haiz...

den today meet ah chye coz he early msg mi go eat lunched while i still sleeping lor.. kns leh... den wake up acc him go eat while i cancer to meet kor n ah pa.. went to yishun den chye say later go k song wif his sister n some of her friend den i on so afetr eating went up to look for her sis... haha most of them was from bike forum de... get to noe more biker le not bad ar... good.. they r friendly.. den went to k song at yishun newly open de ktv. meet ah kor n ah pa foe dinner.. acturelly wanan join tian they all but in the end kor they all dunwan den bo bian... chye got thought of going to sing after his work.. at 1st i on but in the end never coz joey not gonig n something happened... not to be mention here.. so left mi ah pa n ah kor lor.. so we decided to went for a drink bah.. went to cosy bay there was place u noe.. msg ah chye to join us.. n he on very steady leh... so he came down.. he n my bro they all very click lor.. thats good next tiem go out together lor... hahah not bad lah.. n now i am home blogging le.. hahaha

ShacK

HahA sORry sO lOnG nEver blog lE.. coZ i been going out wIF my bRo , uNcLe and my god dad.. coz my god bro drive mah.. so he bring us out.. got meet joey almost lots of days leh.. hahahaha they really help mi forget bout thinknig of daryll lor..

got a news from koni yesterday that daryll got gf le.. when i hear taht i was sad but den i never cry hahaha mean i really can do it.. i still will think of him but not like last time le bah.. coz of everything he did to mi.. since now he got a air stewerdess gf den godo for him lor.. hahahaha if he dare intro his gf i sure wont give wad face de... hahaha

Yesterday we went to mos leh.. got mi, tian ,joey and koni 4 of us... was not bad but teh song sux lor.. we dun like.. after that we went to mu leh...onli mi n joey went 1st while koni and tian went to rush... hahaha saw daryll in mu.. but never care bout him... i just dance... not many ppl leh.. tonight was jon de birthday celebration hahaahahah althought hardly talk wif them but still take them as friend lor.. still wish him a happy birthday..tonight mu again..

i was quite shack de n tired not enough slp le... haiz... sian.. dunno leh when i am alone still will think of him leh... dunno y... although now he got gf le.. but i hope we r still friend n not stranger bah... haiz... dunno lah.. now joey is wif mi she slp in my house leh.. hahahah i hope i can really forget bout him now...

tHoSe picture i post is my past memories.. n i never really like a guy so much befor.. but all i can say is i zhi zhuo duo qing bah... haiz... really hate it.. but i cant control my feelings when ever i think of him tears drop.. even till now still the same... the feeling is still there n is still so strong... when i am wif him i really feel happy... since the day he left mi i really very sad even till now.. my mood was like sux lor.. after reading YC blog.. i find that his more lucky den mi.. list he n selene was still able to be together... not liek mi not a single chance le.. no more chance for mi... everything is gone gone gone!!!!!!!!!!! y must i suffer this way??? acturelly treasure someone u like is good but i dun even hav the chance to cherish.. i dun even hav a chance to take care of him le.. he cant tell jokes to mi le, no more joy, no more happiness, no more care, no more smile from him.. y he cant just be like other guys.. i r4eally hope i dunno him in the 1st place..

yc n selene i really envy them.. although there r abstical between them but list they try to solve out themself.. i dun even got the chance.. u guys r consider lucky.. like now i am suffering myself i really hope i can brainwash n forget everything.. everyday keep thinking of him... think bout wad his doing, eaten already.. doing wad so on... n i cant take care of him, joke wif him, be like befor those days... i wish i could turn back the time.. but i cant.. wad done is done.. but i wont force him bah.. we r just you yuan wu fen lor...

in mu when i saw him i will keep looking at him.. search for him but i just keep it myself... dunwan him to feel uneasy n scared.. now mi n him is like a stranger lor.. totally u noe how i feel??? yeah say friend but friend will be so strange meh?? till cant even joke?? i though he will be cheerful n joke around wif us.. but he did not.. acturelly i very sensertive when a sms com i will think if its him anot... i really cant get out if him... u all can see mi happy joke around all that.. but u all noe since the day we break off till now.. everyday i was crying n thinking alone.. befor slp i will keep thinking.. i sad alone cry alone... i also dun wish my friend to worry bout mi.. but just hope that u all understand mi bah.. although i say i will forget him but i noe its very hard really... i noe u all mean good to mi.. n i love u all.. but in my heart daryll is really very special.. i dunno how to say but the feelings.. u all may comman him not handson, not good, flirt all that but i will just listen bah... but to mi its diff.. list his brave enought to try in the relationship n he wont cheat my feelings... yeah he flirts but list he wont 2 time.. but for now i dunwan to think so much also.. life still goes on.. happy or unhappy also like that.. but still waiting for that day bah... how i wish daryll will saw my blog n noe all my feelnigs n thoughts.. but dun think he will~!~! my feelings r all written here.. this the way i can release my stress n love for him..

i may slowly get colder to him but i can say my feelings is still the same no change at all.. i still love him as befor.. i really very stupid i noe..hopw u all understand really.. its really hard to love a person... he dunno how i feel he dunno wad i done is all cos of him... he dunno how much i love him.. he dunno i go down mu partly is to see him.. he dunno my worries for him.. he dunno my care for him... lots of things he dunno coz he never really put his heart in... n he dun really care.. simple is he dun love mi at all... i can put in 100% love in for him but in the end how many percent i get back??? 0-50%??? or maybe less den that...

i wish i can hav no feelings no emotion all that.. i really cant read his mind.. all along i dunno his impression for mi.. all i noe is his onli thinking bout his feelings.. n not mind.. he dunno the words he say really hurts mi, the way he treat mi make mi heartbroken, the way he leave mi makes mi cry n all this makes mi change to another person...

i willing to do lots of things for him... i change for him, i care for him, i cook for him, i brew liang cha for him, i acc him, i tell jokes to him, i make him happy, maybe sometime i maybe lame but all this things i done is onli to him.. my other ex i wont lor... all this onli to him lor.. but he dun understand n put all the fault in mi.. my friends should noe bah... i wanted to fold 512 star for him.. but scared he wont accept now he makes mi scared.. everything i onli dare to think n dun dare to do le... coz i scared he scold mi, ignore mi, cold to mi all this really make mi scared.. even i blog here so much but no point.. he cant feel it.. maybe his happily wif another ger le.. but onli mi so silly waiting for him n think he will turn back...

but xiao feng can u plz wake up.. he dunwan u le.. he dun love u le.. u r such a cheerful ger y make urself so lang bei??? n so unhappy?? cant u enjoy ur life happily?? y??? y???

when i recieve his mag i will be as lifely as monkey lor... n smile like mad.. haiz... none can control their emotion one lor.. even mi... now i really noe wads true love.. n it really suffer n xin ku.. totally...

waiTiNg for train to Mu

tHe pAsT meMorIeS..

this is hiM.. mIsS hiM lotS

fRoM hIM

just com back from mu leh.... so sian... today lots ppl went down.. got ah chey, my ah kor, god dad, uncle vincent , auntie jasmin... hahaha quite happening... but last n nt list.. his always there.. was happy when i recieve his sms... but sadly he sms mi as a friend onli.. but list something better den nothing bah.. coz i cant ask much n thats wad god give mi... really hope one day we will be like befor... when i saw him i never really talk to him much.. he dun seem to be as cheerfull as befor n the time i noe him lor.. he seems change.. i can feel it.. or maybe am i thinking too much?? he may carry a smile on his face but acturelly his not... haiz.. acturelyl he did com close to mi but i tell myself i hav to control... onli talk to him few words bah... i intro my bor n ah pa they all to daryll hope he wont feel weired coz i still wan him to noe my friends... as usure.. my uncle, my ah pa, my bro they say his not godo all that but to mi his diff... coz onli i noes... lots ppl say i am silly lor.. but indeed i am... but dunno y.. i just cant leave his slight i will still worry bout him, keep looknig for him.. when i noe his fine den i relax down.. but of coz i dun wish him to feel that i keep looknig for him lor.. coz he dun feel good taht way.. but my care is always a bad point for him.. get used le... although we never talk much but i am still happy to see him.. i did dance awhile wif him.. guess now he already got target le.. if there is i will still wish him good luck as befor... i noe i cant turn back the time anymore... wad gone is gone unless mirical really happened.. but i still hope for that mirical to happened... but will there still be??? i dunno.. ]

now we r onli go out as a friend.. but in my heart he will always be more den friends... i really hope he wont scared of mi can le.. but really happy to hav kor n pa wif mi.. they r great.. hahahaha love them all.. n also my sister... hahahaha love u guys lots... nv fail to be wif mi..

my new house comnig too.. i gonna design my own room hahaha nice nice...

yesterday went to mu... haiz.. as usure.. mi, koni, joey ,joyce n tian tian also shi hui.. so its ladies nite.. but mu dun hav ladies nite lah... hahahah honam they all got go down also.. but daryll was there too i also dun dare be so clsoe wif honam le.. coz of the incident.. but daryll just very happy lor.. i really dun understand lor.. dun he hav feelings mah??? although i was there cant he even say hello??? i really very disappointed.. acturelyl lots of time i wanan go over de but i scared he will angry n shout at mi.... but i really dunno how to discribe.. but see him happy den ok le lor... i really nothing to say.. think slowly i will get used to it de bah...

i think throught le

after this days... i really did miss him really cant forget bout him lor... haiz.. but after today i noe wad i should do le.. no point keep finding him.. if its urs its urs not urs force also no used de... just let nature take its course bah... btw he also wont bother bout mi le... so i will just treat him as friend onli lor... btw i really wanan thankz my friends... n those who r always wif mi... hahaahah now think he should be more happy le bah... hope he wont ignore mi ba if i saw him.. later going mu.. so dunno if will talk anot..

everything is gone again

i think i am really stupid... last sat he meet mi at my house downstair... i was so suprise.. den we went somerset together we go walk walk awhile bah... den meet up wif joey... at nite we went to mu again...this time i was real happy lor... of coz we dance ours lah.. he was quite happy too.. his action show that he gonna give mi the chance again... but i saw a friend of mine in mu.. den he was drunk so i acc him go 7-11 when i was back .. daryll was quite angry de he ask mi who is he of coz i say friend but indeed he was my friend onli.. den he just go off like that again.. not onli once le.. but many times.. this time i chase him out.. i really dunno wad to say... all along he just dun trust mi... we r really finish this time.. he wont give mi any chance le.. no more n its totally finish.. y we r in love but yet cant be together dun tell mi wad i done is still not enougyh mah???? i do all things r for him n waiting for the day to com again... i really cant take it.. y things alwasy happened to mi?? he dun like mi just let mi go y still give mi the chance for??? i really hate..

yesterday nite i eat panadol n cut myself i though i would die.. but i did not.. i gonna leave this scare on my hand n remind mi that i cut this scare is for him... n will remain in my heart deeply... i will always remember him..

everything is gone

everything is gone again.. the hope the effect n time.... just in few mins time.. y god hav to do this to mi?? am i not sincer enough??? or r u punishing mi??? i try n try my ways out in the relationship but in the end i gain nothing... no love n no trust from him at all??? i really treat him very good le just coz of a guy a friend of mine?? yes i can say i hav lots of guys friend too.. n u hav lots of ger friend too.. we both hav our friends.. i can trust u y cant u even hav a little trust on mi?? after all this day wad i done is just rubbish to u.. n hardwork n love my heart all been dump by u into the rubbish.. now my heart is totally hurt n nothing can heel le.. since the moment u left mi again i keep asking u to stay but u ignore... if since we cant talk things our wad for i keep on waiting?? since i totally mean nothing to u?? yes u r jealouse i can see..n u r angry but u just keep it.. i can feel the sour is 100% more den i hhav.. coz u can angry till leave mi alone n u dunno how to think at all.. nvm i give u times to think again.. acturelly i am tired le.. but i always believe in merical..i can swear to god mi n my friend n just normal friends.. u r just too sensertive little bit u r angry... yes ur temper is not good that i noe.. but not to this extrim right?? like that next time even we together n i am always the one who give in if one day u not happy den sure break up again de... i really dunno wad to say n exlain le.. u care for mi but u hide it.. u like mi but u hide it.. n all this i can feel it if not u wont say give mi another chance again.. i already give u freedom n all u wan.. now another problem how u wan mi to take it??? i yesterday walk over the road i wish i will just been bang by the car on the spot. n i wont feel so hurt n heart broken anymore... n i wont feel anything anymore... n maybe it would be the last time i see u.. but till now i still can say.. i love u lots. DARYLL

yEstErDaY meet joeY gO eAt.. we eat sakura.. nice nice.. next time jio the rest alnog i 1st time eat,... hahaha got ask daryll alnog too but his not eating.. but was funny when daryll reached my heart was like very excited.. i pay the bills n walk out meet daryll.. we did chat for awhile lor.. coz he cant enter joey was complaining that i took so long..

yesterday daryll fold heart 4 mi again.. but of coz i tell him all my feelings.. i will onli put the heart together when one day he really accept mi back again.. den i went back find joey i ask him wait there... hahahah den joey keep saying got daryll no her liao.. hahahah but for now i wanan chase him back mah.. hahahah den after that he got say wanan find william coz he working in john little.. so ok lor.. we go ahead... i maybe seeing him infront of him but i cant do anything coz his not mine now.. haiz.. how i wish i can hug n kiss him once again...

went mu after that bah.. we never stay all the way lor... he just do his things.. kns guess wad xiao fei wanan chase mi omg.. wad a joke i really dun believe it lor... he give mi 2 kiss on my face but i dunno daryll got saw anot.. joey say he face abit change.. hahahah den i was like nothing to say lor.. he keep doing his stupid action again... haha den we left mu together again... once again we r still like friends..

just now he msg mi ask mi go sentosa i was like get a shock.. he still say go together in couples i was more suprise once he say that my mind ask mi den his gf how?? hahahaha he even ask mi go to his house lor... but i rejected.. after all i not his gf so not very good lor.. btw i dunno y he say that... is he trying things funny again towards mi for giving him up??? tonight going to mu will see him again... hahaha.. from now on i not gonig to control him.. i will enjoy myself in mu once again...