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YeSTERdAY WNET RUSH wif koni.. at 1st was planning to go mu de.. in the end not many ppl go.. den while daryll was wif guo wei they all... it was another bad experience again.. when ever i go rush things happened i dunno y lor... so suey de... btw daryll dun understand mi.. i care for him.. yesterday koni say wanan go rush de.. den i was thinking liek since daryll was there den go lor.. den i say dunwan join them coz i noe daryll will not happy de.. but in the end she join guo wei so i also lor. order one jug of whisky coke n vodka sprite.. mi n koni share.. at 1`st everything was alright but i can see that daryll abit cold to mi.. n he like quite sian de..

sky ask mi out for a talk so i went out.. u noe when he say that daryll never like mi befor i totally lost n sad even cry... all my friends noe i dun take relationship for fun de lor.. its hard to love.. i totally sad n cry inside rush.. awhile later daryll ask mi out for a talk after he tell mi his feeling i feel better list he tell mi i will noe wad to do.. but i ask him did he love mi befor?? if no y he choose mi den?? am i those kind of ger so easy been cheated?? i really dun understand my love for my bf all had change to a un care satuation. i really dunno y.. i tell him i dunwan him to be another jason.. i really trust him n i really wanna stay by his side.. he say i dun give him freedom ok i give him. all along i noe he love freedom... i was so sad when he leave mi alone behind do u noe the feelnig is really hurt?? y he choose to do that?? i really scared to leave him one day.. i did see his care for mi, but if he keep things himself how u guys wan ur gf to noe the feeling.. i dun like my bf to keep things from mi anything u can just tell mi straight away de.. dun hav to hide or scared to hurt my feelings.. coz i been hurt many times..

y guys always treat mi like that??? haiz... he still msg mi say we remain as friends.. but no matter wad happened i wanna stay by him n take care of him.. i wont leave him till the day he totally hate mi n dun love mi..

mIss mY daRlinG.. hEhE.. todAy nEver mEeT hIm.. haiz sIaN...

haPpy DaYs

fInAlly this time i been attached again.. but to a totally diff guy which i really will treasure him alots.. coz i think its worth it.. he really treat mi very good n totally diff from any other guys lor... now i dare to tell my friend that his my bf.. his cute, funny, active , caring ,talkative,, just like my charector... he will take care of mi de.. now i can really feel the true love n i wish this moment will be there forever... i love my dear now... muacks...

this few days i keep gonig out wif my dear.. went mu punch card... i was happy for koni too coz she is also attached to a good guy which is my bf de tao a... hahahah all r nice guys.. list they wont treat us like how other guys treat us lor.. they really will treasure us... wont leave us alone...

but my dear always no money de.. but nvm lah... worth it.. till he take his commision 1st we shelle go hav a good one... but i dun like his gina alex kns.. always ask ger to pay things... knn i hate this kind of guys.. heng i never choose him if not i will regret lor...hahahah think tonight meet dear dear again bah...not sure yet... but i also jia lat sick le.. haiz... went och last nite.. saw him gt things happened of coz will worry lah.. so scared to lose him...