wow just wake up... 1st time slp till so late sia... so tired... just had my dinner...

yest dar meet his friend again.. haiz i wanted to meet him de but haiz nvm lor.. den i go fly wif my friend lor... meet up wif stacy n tracy earlier on at ps.. had our dinner there.. after that meet koni but my phone was stupid lor low batt... the whole nite uable to contact ppl but luckly still manage to find my friend coz his phone low batt too... so suey.. den koni came later was waiting for her outside heng she noe how to walk there if not think die liao le lor... hahaha den later alan came too wif his friend lor... den i went home...

dar call mi earlier but was too noisy to listen to the phone so i msg him i reached home call him lor... when i call him le he dun seem to be very happy lor.. i think i am not in the wrong in the 1st place i already inform him le my phone cant call out n i am using my friend de phone liao.. i rushed home after that lor.. i also abit not happy wif his words so i say him lor... sometiems i just wanan hav more time wif him nothing wrong wad.. since he meet his friend den i meet my friend lor nothing wrong wad right... den he call mi i mai ans but in the end i still call back lah... haha but in teh end he ask mi go coffee shop as he wanan go eat.. kns i though he come n see mi lor... but he say i attitude lor.. of coz lah his words hurt mi leh... kns.. he should please mi wad.. hahaha btw now going down to bugis soon liao le.. haha going to bank in teh money for him...

wow today wake up late wtf.. luckly i am able to catch the bus n reached in time.. hahaha haiz today dar whole day never call mi le... miss him lots... haiz... dunno maybe he onli play game forget bout mi liao le lor.. haiz.. sad ar...

after work went to a fitness center nearby my work place... seems not bad leh.. one ween $20 dollar n i can go anytime to used there machines all that n some trainee to teached n guid u along look good.. decided to take up the package... they got two package both r good but one more ex but got nutrition guaidian lor.. but i be onli taking the cheaper one... hahaha good like that my dream will com true fast.. btw sicne dar no tiem for mi must well i go find something do do n sicne he say i need to slim down den i go for this may help... btw i lnog time never exercise also le lor... its a good chance too... every tiem 1/2 an hour of exercise keep mi fit.. y not...

gonan tell my dar bout teh good new... but haiz he haven even bother to call mi.. yest also lor.. now he everyday game game onli.. how about mi?????????? i am so lonely now..... got bf but his not around for mi.. haiz..

after reading koni blog again.. i noe my ans too... i still wan my boy... coz i noe he love mi too.. althought i still hav feel for kel but i cant turn back the time n go back to him le... coz its the past n i am leading a new life since my boy treat mi good so y not...i cant let my boy down.. but sometimes i do miss kel lor... even if i am wif him back i believe someday same things will happened again so must well stay the way we r bah... onli until the day he noe how to think he will realise last time i treat him the best le... afetr all i still treat him as good friend lor.. now i am very clear le... i love my boy more.. hahahah

wow just came back from my boy de house.. wad a unlucky day i hav today... never go work...early morning my menses stain on my pants... haiz hav to ma fan my boy send mi home... btw he gonig to work also so its ok lah.. y he never off today so sad... haiz.. he was suppose to off today de lor... yest he took half day le but he gonna buy something thats y... wow he brought he dream psp i guess also noe he will buy it.. too rich liao... hahaha

my wish for my christmas is my boy can take off pei mi den go out eat walk walk..
bless my wish com true.. die now stomach cramp again wtf..

after reading koni de blog.. actually i got the same feeling too.. things just happened in us... haiz y??? all kind of shit... sux...

just had a chat wif him again... haiz the feelnig is back... i cry the whole nite this morning wake up also.. haiz.. feel very bad towards my boy now... but cant help it... its so xin ku...

he cant give mi that kind of feeling n the time.. he work everyday sometimes i really tell myself is he the right one... i really dunno.. the way he treat mi really make our relationship very bad... i believe i give him wad he wants but he never give mi wad i wan... y????????? just like yest nite... icall him at 12 plus he was in malaysia bout 2 plus i call him again he was in sing already but he dun bother to returned my call at all... in thew end i fall asleep le... bout 3 plus he call mi again... guess he noe i be at home bah... when i listen to the phone he say he was outside of my house i though he tease mi onli.. but in the end its true lor his outing... dunno y suddenly he will appeared lor... i was really suprise i though he dun care bout mi le... noe wad he say.. "although i never returned ur call but i appeared outside ur house" wow this word make mi feel touch lor... but den... haiz he onli accompany mi awhile lor how i wish he can acc mi lor... haiz... so sad...

in teh afternoon he call mi once nia after that no more liao.. hope he meet mi tonight lor... actually wish to hav sometime spend wif him lor... coz that the onli way we can talk lor.. haiz..