nOW inside my office blogging here.. hahaha ..its been sometime again since last blog... hahaha this few days went out wif ah pa n ah kor plus uncle... hahaha they never failed to meet mi everyday de.. but sometimes i need my freedom too but of coz i never say out.. as i noe how they will feel after all they mean good to mi no harm.. hahahah.. yesterday went china town wif them coz i wanan do my heels stupid heels... while walking around OG saw some perfume not bad... was quite cheap pa wanted to buy for mi hahahah.. i keep dunwan but he say nvm so he brought it.. was happy.. as its the 1st gife from him mah.. n they treat mi good wo.. while inside the car.. they was thinking of opening a chalat... den they ask mi when was my birthday i say sept.. den they say i wanan open anot.. of coz i ask them serious meh?? they say ya.. den i also agreed to it lor.. must wait till ah pa to do the booking 1st.. they really dots on mi sia.. although we dunno each other for long but i can see their sincerity.. thanz vincent uncle, andy kor n richard ah pa.. hahaha never failed to tell mi lots of things.. i will learn from it.. n see guys more clearly..

on the 23th nite.. i forward a msg to daryll.. n he reply mi i was stund n suprise.. talk bout y he dunwan to give mi tthe chance all that lor... den chat n chat... he say that HE HAF FEELINGS FOR MI.. because of his ego thats y this goes this way n acturelyl is not wad i expected.. i dunno now.. the msg he say make mi so confuse again.. but my feelings not that strong as befor le.. but still there.. because of his ego thats y he dun dare to say out his feelings to mi.. coz his pride means alots to him.. i did noe it long ago.. last sat at mu i did saw him keep looking at mi but i just kindly ignore n dance lor.. he say since i like him den y i can flirt around wif guys in mu last sat.. when i saw this msg i very work out.. n i say him back..how can he say that.. it means all long i dun gain his trust at all.. wtf lor... its been so lnog le he still dun understand mi.. haiz.. one more msg is he say that he dunwan accept mi is because he dunwan to hurt mi n he noe we wont hav happy ending.. i reply if there r happy ending in the world there wont be wars n divorve around le.. happy ending is depand on urself n the other party.. haiz.. i got ask him y he can accept a ger so fast n all that.. he reply he was onli fooling around wif the gers onli.. i reply n say since u can fool around wif them den that means his fooling around wif mi too.. n i was liek a fool been played by him?? he reply.. if his fooling around wif mi would he still consider a chance for us n will he still consider if he accept mi he will hurt mi anot.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. dun really guess wads his thinking.. coz he himself sometime also dunno wads his thinking too.. so confuse.. think he dun really noe wad he wans now.. after that bout 1 plus he say wanna talk on phone anot.. n i agreed so i called him.. we chat lots till 4 plus lor.. its like been back to last time le.. but its so diff le the feelings so diff.. i dun feel the happiness the joy all that when talking to him.. although happy lah.. haiz.. one more thing he say thats because of his ego he ignore mi accept ger all that.. but deep down inside his jealouse.. hahahah i see le abit happy but i must control..

we really talk bout many things.. everything sia.. from the day i noe him till now he never failed to tell mi his things.. he maybe selfish n care botu himself but sometimes he wont.. n can see that his pride means lots to him de.. n his a da nan ren zu yi de ren.. i still hope for the day he will com back to mi lor.. but i told him i will onli get back to him if his sincer n really put mi in his heart.. coz i dun wish history to repeat..now i treat him as friends.. hope him too.. maybe we still need to noe each other more.. n he told mi he found a job le.. part time job hope he wont over tired.. care i will still care for him de no matter wad.. hahaha.. wish to see him happy n hyperactive like last time lor.. since the day we broke off he never been happy n his lonely.. none really care bout him.. i wish to bring him joyn make him back to last tiem de daryll.. but i guess its hard... after talknig to him that nite.. i really think that now we remain as friends is better lor... i always belive in wad i do coz i believe wad i done will gain somthing back.. n now i did it again as he talk to mi again le.. hahah we can chat for hours no stop de.. just dunno y leh... his using x800 panasonic phone now le.. good for him.. haha he ask mi to used also.. but i dun like of coz.. he say acc mi go see that phone all that.. i was happy.. n appreciate it.. keep asking mi to used that phone kns de him.. bth afetr all wish him all the best in his career lor..