just back meeting my boy.. today is a bad day for mi my mood n just very down now feeling very sad n lost...

1st meet up wif my boy at his work place i was sitting there alone soon after that raymond came n follow by shuan so decided to go bedok 85 eat.. but just when we turn out from his out place the floor was slippery i try to brake le but i too kan chiong go n throtter in the end bang letter box... luckly never kena my friend.. just coz of that been say by my bf at that moment i feel like crying out le... but list he ask how am i that make mi feel better... when reached bedok 85 he keep saying i almost cant control myself liao le... but i still hold on..

i really feel very left out n extra in the group le... when i was a pillion i still dun feel taht way onli when i ride i start to feel that... y does big bike always hiam small bike all also bike wad?? n who dun make mistake?? i already prepered for the worse le since the day i decide to ride so nothing scared mi... but is the feeling that u guys let mi feel so unbearable.. my wish com true le but i dun feel happy at all... wads the point??? why my bf dun understand my feeling?? i enjoy going out wif them i am happy when i hear them comments on my mistake but plz i may be a newbie but i still ur friends right??

really feelnig down dunno wad will i do when i ride while i am feelnig down maybe die on the road also dunno...

today n mi n dar den 3moth annivessary so fast 3 month le... but he seem to do nothing at all but nvm lah... as lnog we r happy.. went out wif dar yest i was riding in the 1st place while his riding too.. so togetehr wif his friend we wanted to go watch movie but was fully packed in the end decided not to watch... was thinking of gonig to changi airport to eat popoye but stupid shuan bike no oil in teh end we eat at sepang bedok lor.. ordered a claypot kuey tiao but i eat abit teh rest dare eat.. he looks very hungry lor.. hahah

afetr chatting awhile i fall sleepy.. keep closing my eye coz i dun slp well for quite long time dar den send mi home lor.. reached my house le he ask mi wanan go his house anot but i rejected him coz was too sleepy n wanted mi to ride so i dunwan coz too sleepy later slp on the road ar... hahaha

slp till 3plus lor wow very long never slp till so late le.. but tomm gonan work again... sian leh..