make up my mind

yesterday went rush to celebrate jace de birthday heng nothing happened sia.. hahahah.. brought her a cake leh.. nice nice.. den treat her to drinks till she abit high sia.. but alright lah.. den tian den bf came also.. wow he really looks decent sia.. haiz not like mi.. always choose a bad guy.. say bout daryll i really give up liao... his always giving mi the false hope i am just always too stupid to do that stupid thing to hope he will com back where the fact is he wont be back le.. this few days chat wif him i really very happy but the feel is diff le.. n he lie to mi bout the air stewaedess gf things.. wads the point sia where he can just tell mi straight away.. do he think that the best way to give up on him??? but i can say it onli makes mi feel more hurt n sad lor... the way he talk to mi is not usure him lor.. he can really talk to mi very sacastic lor.. inside his heart he was just wan mi to give up... wad give mi a chance because i put in effect all that was just a lie from him.. since he dun mean it den dun say it.. say dunwan hurt mi but does he noe he already hurt mi so much lor... hahahahaha now i wont feel the pain anymore its already enough.. n i gonna give up on him totally le.. no point holding on.. com on there r more better guys out there.. he can easily just do anything to mi anytime without noeing if it hurts my feelings.. since his pride means so much to him den wad for he still tell mi those rubbish wad wanan patch back this n that... fuck lor.. i gonna enjoy myself in mu tonight... so wad if i will see him he means nothing to mi anymore.. no matter how much i love him i still must give up.. i hav my pride too.. i dunwan gusy to look down on mi n my friend say i am usless.. i really look through everything le... no more tears n more sadness.. i gonna be taht lively xiao feng again... guys can just fuck off..