its a boring day today.. so sian at home rott.. sick sia... haiz.. nb i become more fatter le.. gonna slim down again liao... hahahahahahaha.... i wan pretty pretty... i wan wear many many nice nice de clothes.... this my wish for now... i believe i can do it.. xiao feng jia you k??? jian fei...

think something wrong wif mi.. no i guess not... coz i really think i am fat.. no u r not fat... just big size.. oh no big size consider fat le.. no no no big size is big size fat is fat ok...

em... oh izzit??? yap of coz.. u hav nothing better to do??? yeah i am bored to death.... anyone can help mi men... oh no none can help u onli u urself...

y am i always been trap in so many things... family?? friends?? relationship?? work.. money n so many things around mi omg.. yet some ppl just dun understand it... haiz..

oh really u hav so many things to worry about??? com on tell mi some of it...

lots of things inside mi but i dunno how to say it..

com on just say it men...

dunwan lah.. later say le more worse n make things worse...

oh well wads bothering u men.. friends?? boyfriend?? family??

1stly my family they just dun understand mi well enough... they just think i am a bad ger keep going out wif my bf.. but thats not i wan de..

den wad u wan?? em.. i also dunnon..

2nd my bf.. he simply just dun understand mi either.. my parents already dun understand mi even him... haiz i tell him my feelnigs he thinks its bull shit... always quarrel wif mi.. i really tired of it... hIZ..

MAYBE CAN TALK TO HIM MORE??? bout ur feelings??? ur thoughts??? n everythging.

no everytime i say le he will start quarrel wif mi.. but i noe his a godo guy but his attitude... i just cant stand it men... lousy attitude.. btw his birthday coming.. he wish for a wallet but should i get for him???

em.. its up to u for wad gife u wan for him.. as long its from u he will like de...

ok.. i shell go shop for it bah... thankz

3rd bout my friends around mi... somethings just happened between us... dun wish to say who.. but just read ching aiai blog n saw wad she write... i totally agreed wif her.. doesent us been good enough to her?? r we too bed n so worse to be her friend?? omg.. i really dun understand it..

haiz dun be sad ger... things may not be wad u think??

but the truth is there u can see it for urself.. hav u ever had a friend that say u n hurt u so deeply?? n its a sudden.. just like someone backstub u.. do u noe the kind of feelings???

oh sorry maybe i dunno but y not try talknig to her den???

oh as her attitude do u think she will listen?? maybe just just fucking care???

how u noe it ???

of coz i noe.. hahahaha.. coz the problem lies wif her... if nothing gonna com out from her den things will be like that... sister?? wad is sister?? i really dun understand this word anymore... n wads that for??

oh cool down cool down ger.. dun be so angry.. just relax n everything will be fine... simply heck care bout her??? maybe its just her lose for losing u all.. so dun get so work out..

haiz.. i dunno my mind now is blank.. i onli wan to work n earn lots of money...

ok den go straight to wad u wan n aim for it...

ok thankz buddy.. u r the best.. i will tell u all my feelnigs though i may not see u at all... hope u hav a good rest.. we shell talk again..

oh sure no problem i shell talk to u again.. any problem just look mi up.. cheer up ger... dun think so much dun worry be happy ok...

ok sure u too.. bye bye nite

nitenite

em.. this few days very tired n busy.. was wif dear this few days... went jb, go eat steamboat at suntec convention hall... wif his mum n uncle... was a nice one... coz free mah... hahahaha ops... can say busy bah.. today is friday le... no where to go leh.. at home bah... tomm leh.. think gonig mu bah... shuang dao... hahahahaha dunno who going... i wanna go shopping tomm.. hahaha shop shop...

was sick also sneezing n coughing.. haiz.. sian.. life getting fun.... hahahaah.. get back all my old friends in mu... shuang...

reguarding xiao xiao blog.. i hav no comman... i am not the one who made this decision... i dun think i will talk much also...

ya after reading wad xiao xiao blog n wad she say... i hav nothing to say coz now the problem does'nt lies on neither mi nor joey... is just that how does the party want things to go am i right??? ya for my sake i hardly will ask ppl out de... think most of u will noe even if i am sad nor anything...in this world nothing is perfect.. wad god give mi i will treasure it... none of us noe each other well so wanna noe each other well nothing onli getting close but speaking out should be the right one.. thats how we noe each other more..

i always forgive n forget but do hav limits sometimes.. i am not a dead person wif no feelnigs too.. sure will hav some feel... forgive n forget this two words it may looks so easy but somethings u really cant forgive n forget de... so dun ever do anything wrong.... hahahahahahaahah

yeah n of coz i do admit to wad u say.. everyone do hav their do n does their good n bad right??? but i mean just like i explain earlier on, things can be slove, anything just say out its just that simple... wad wrong for saying each other bad point infront of each other right??? for us all of us noe koni dun hav a good attitude n the way she react some time is totally cant acceptable.. but for us sister we also did not even say a thing..coz we noe how she will react coz it will show no good.. ya our tone sometime maybe abit hush but this doesent mean we r putting all angle on u or anyone.. yeah n for xiaoxiao n koni case i dunno wads really going on also.. i also wont interfer..

i already make myself very clear over here le.. dun wish to repect the same old story... btw i dun think admit things that u r wrong is a shamefull thing... charecter can be change is weather the person is willing too anot... so dun ever say because ur charecter is like that de... so u wont admit anything wrong...

example u take a knife n kill a person, but u dun do it on purpose, in the end u say u never n instead u say is ur good friend who do it.. how he/she will feel??? angry n cant take it de right?? same goes wif anyone of us.. i am not a leactural or like to leacture ppl de..

n so the story is admit for anything that u hav done wrong, the person may forgive u. but if u never even admit even if its ur wrong, never assume that the person will forgive u...

THE END

btw i am a very straight forward person also.. those who noes mi will noe it may offened some ppl but wad i say is all true no lies... if theres mistake plz correct mi.. i am willing to listen n learn from it.. thanz alots.. hav a good rest n nite...
ZZzZzzzzzzzz :) think i should showly change my charecter too.. dun be too straight forward, sometimes it may cause some problem n some case... shouldent try to be a good person too.. cheers ('-') YeaH!!!

wow feeling so tired.. eye closing soon le... just back from jb lor... went out wif dear to jb n meet up some of his biker friends... wow so qiao some of them i also noe de.. hahahaha all big bikes onli my dear n one sp is small bike but nvm my dear gonna take lesson soon le... hahahaha...

went da ma hua yuan eat sea food not very nice lor.. i prefere go tian lai eat lor... hahahah but too bad.. think i really gonna catch up my bike practical le.. so long never touch bike liao.. coz i also wanna hav my own bike... list wont let ppl look down... hahahahaha

off on thursday yeah.. hahahah shuang dao... i get my pay liao.. quite happy de but gonna save liao... gonna slp soon le..

sian.... life is bored.... sian... oh chat wif aaron yest... bout the matter that koni is not happy bout.. em tell him wads going on... see wad he gonna think bout the conversation... hahahahaha... btw life will go on.. no problem... nothing big deal...

meet up wif jace yest... btw i dun hav to explain anything as all was written here.. anyone can read n understand it... btw been a bad person is hard... been a good person is more hard...

stress meet up wif dear yest... some unhappy things went on.. but now fine le.. hahahahaha btw seems that the problem will end here n its settle...

dunno wad to get for my boyfriend.. his birthday coming planning to go for steamboat... hahahahaha on the 14th..

now meeting dear le....

after reading koni blog.. ya i really cant take ur attitude anymore... ya its ur blog u can do anything u wan ok.. since u like wad others say den dun blog it if not there will sure be some conflict.. n if u dunwan ppl to see ur blog must well u dun blog it.. n wads blog for?? since its for u to type den its for others to see too.. y get suck a big fuck out of it den...??? ya kelvin is my bf so wad??? did i ever say i will side anyone of them??? now its ur wrong n u yet blame it on others... so wad u break up with william??? do u hav to put all ur angle on ur sister n u also can say its bout 1 yr le... wads the problem men.. n now the problem lies wif u... i trying to make this things go smoothly n yet thats wad we get..

more insult from u... since u not happy wif anyone of us y dun just say out infront of us den??? den y when i ask u to say out wad u r not happy wif anything n all u do as keep quiet??? just say out lah... n we r infront of u.. i dun hav to side anyone of u.. but now for wad u do i really find that u r really not a good friend of us... coz u dun understand anyone of us well.. n u r selfish.. n u urself r the one that always take ppl as spare tyre.. this is not the 1st time u say ur sister le.. we r not blind.. we always give in to u.. u still think its not enough dun u think u ask for too much... we always there for u when u need us.. in the end thats wad the result we get??? been INSULT BY U.. N nOW i noe WADS SISTER FOR...

n yest u can just say back my bf de.. if u r right i will say him de.. but now his just trying to make things easier.. n his been say by u.. cant u just think bout it??? none of us is leaturing u.. ya now onli xiao xiao , xiao yun r ur good friends ok... go ahead.. we dun bloody care anymore... ur problem is not ours.. ur attitude is getting worse.. i wont noe who will be ur next target lor... those ppl will noe it.. since that how u can treat us it will be the same to the rest.. dun ever say u r sorry as wad done is done wad hurt is hurt ok...

n plz always get things clear befor accusing anyone for doing anything.. n dun make so much bull shit here n insult us.. not happy wif us u can call us out to talk de.. n if u think wad ever i say here is not true den continue blogging all ur shit.. n sister till today ok... nothing to talk bout it.. n now u r not happy wif us n not we r not happy wif u k.. we hav no loss... u r just been so unreasonable.. thats all... btw my bf hav nothing offended u ok... if u r not happy wif him also fine. he wont even care to talk to u too... he can just shut his mouth.. n that how selfish u r instead of saying thanks n yet in the end blame him for his wrong.. btw he help u not because u r my friend ok.. he can simple dun do anything de.. if he noe u will say its none of his business that he quarrel wif william because of u, i think u r really very scary i wont noe wad things u will do behind of us lor...

plz used ur brain n think for all the things u done ok.. befor accusing anyone of them.... i dun admit i hav nothing wrong in donig anything.. but list i hav my own reason for doing everything... list i wont say my own sister or anyone of them n hurt them wif words... btw i already very pissed of wif wad u hav say.. go ahead wif wad u wan den....