yest went out wif dar... befor that meet my friend apple bike kaki.. went central at clark quey de.. we went to eat the cake that show on tv befor those mini patten de.. so cute lor.. was thinking of having it for my 21st bday wo... hahah

den 1 of our friend came to join us but when he saw teh cake he was keep laughing n say look like those toy lor... hahaha but really look like lah but not bad lah... worth it.. maybe later o ni may show the picture.. taste not bad also..

after that 10 plus dar meet us after his work going in to jb eat tim sum... haha reached there was quite late coz JAM.. wth lor... bo bian cant get out le so guai guai get into the que lor... wad to do... onli that moment i feel the love... hahah dunno y... 7 of us go eat together... n guess wad the price is onli 134.6 ringgate lor... so cheap cheap n we eat quite alot also lor... hahaha eat person 10 nia... after we exit to singapore custom dar was been caught for the ciggrate coz he forgot to take out 1 stick coz i took 2 pack out one each coz i dun smoke so take for him.. so suey lor.. the police man question us.. " u noe one packet $200 fine u wanna pay mah??" wad a stupid question of coz who will ans no wad... he even ask mi i got smoke de meh?? my lips so pink i feel like scolding him.. but i never lah... in the end he give 2 choices either pay the fine or throw away one box.. wad a stupid question again of coz throw away lah.. worse he ask mi throw lor.. fuck right.. kns..

but dun worry coz we still got another 4 pack how can dar finish all i also dunno lor... coz all our friend dun smoke de lor.. all take for him nia hahahah.. went to dam meet another friend guess taht time was quite late le bout 4 plus already wow i was tired le feel like sleeping liao... n dar was tired too.. i really appreciate it that he still make the effect to send mi to my door step.. but of coz lah guy mah... n some more my bf hahahah... sometimes i maybe really think too much liao le... afetr all he do treat mi good... haha i will treasure him but think we still need to spend time together n hav a good chat bah... regarding our relationship.. comments n so on.. i dun wish later in teh end break off without even noeing wad happed n reason lor... i hate that.. list we say now maybe still can save lor.. if wait till he no feeling den thats it liao.. wad also dun need to say le.. haiz..

today is sat lor.. now at home haiz.. just got my new ipod touch 8gb de.. yeah not bad sia. got wi-fi de after all i like it.. maybe tonight meet dar go out bah.. will undate again..

just com back from supper... went katong wif my bike kaki lawrence.. he fetch mi there.. went to the coffee shop opp katong mall the wanton noodles very nice lor... den dar com after that coz he working.. haiz.. but suddenly felt that we like stranger or maybe friends onli.. coz teh feel he give mi totally change le.. we dun seem to be that close le... coz the usure things he do does not exist anymore... is it that theres something happened between us??? or there is a 3rd party i really dunno.. i totally felt very lost now.. but i onli can say out my toughts over here... feel like crying now the feeling sux... its painfull inside mi. aftert that he fetch mi home... guess wad he say i stay home coz he very tired n wanan slp till 1pm wad a excuss lor.. actually i really dunno maybe i think too much... so lost so lost now... no one can help mi... so moody n sad...

Finally i can used back my blog le.. goodness.. hahahah em... this week been staying at my boy house... but abit pai seh leh... haiz... actually sometimes i feel happy n sad... dunno y... the feeling is so unexplainable... haiz... when we meet up we can talk n play around didturbe each other.. but during working hours i find we like stranger he no longer like last time sms mi or call mi le.. dunno y... hate this kind of feelings... but of coz i wont show out infront of him coz we just started this relstionship... n 5 more days will be our 1mth annivessary... guess to him its nothing ba coz he dun care n dun even bother.. but for mi its diff... i care alto n it means alot to mi... i believe everyone would like to spend the day wif ur love ones on that day.. even a simple dinner also would make u feel happy right of coz i dun expect any thing from him... haiz..

but i understand he gonna work but i believe its not a excuss n i try not to think so much le... wad ever bad things i can think off i just put aside n keep it to myself coz i wanna avoid quarrel but indeed he dun understand mi well now.. hope in future he will.. after all compare wif kel he is good lah.. but the joy the time everything he cant give mi... but i hav to accept everything coz i really love him... he dote on mi.. also bring a new mi again n leave the past.. i dun wish to read his mine coz i noe i may end up a bad ending by guessing wrong... he say as long we r happy den ok lor... dunno how he thinks till now.. coz we really dun hav much time spend together... even weekend he gonna work.. haiz.. guess its gonan continue haiz.. life is misirable

wow finally i can log in using my bro de net... hahaha been very lnog never update n miss out quite alot of things... guess lots of ppl may noe wad going on wif my life now ok i shell start..

broke off wif kel in 19th oct... coz really cant go on this relationship le due to lots of things happened in us.. haiz.. but as i mention previously in my post i been going out wif a guy aboy... n i like him after few times we meet up.. just on the 20th he ask mi to wif wif him at 1st he say onli try try lor.. den i agreed too.. but the time been wif him i can forget bout kel the unhappiness but sometimes i feel theres something left out in our relationship.. but to his charector i wont ask for too much happy go lucky onli.. coz he dun like ppl to comment too much or ask too much coz he himself is those heck care heck care of charector lor... he can be really caring sometimes n i feel secure wif him even my mum also like him... at list he got a stable job income n a good family background den ok le.. coz my mum also wan mi to find a good one mah..

as for mi i also dun ask much as long he treat mi well care for mi love mi dote on mi n trust on mi i already very happy le... $$$ dun mean alot to mi but is the heart that show.. a gift from him i may also feel very happy if he does.. its 3 weeks le since we r together till now.. so far so good our relationship so far ok lah... he also open a acc for our savings.. but i ask him to join my name so both our names can draw the $$$ list a save way n the trust bah.. not i dun trust but that wad my mum told me to be save lor.. n he agreed to.. guess we already plan very far le... list he noe how to think bah...

sometimes i do feel the diff between him n kel coz two totally diff charector.. i noe i cant compare them but towards kel i feel happier coz he can really make mi speck out all my mind without hessitate lor.. but boy its diff i hav to think of him cant say wrong thing so i feel very xin ku bah... but wad to do thats love.. he dun like mi to drink coz i drink le it wont be mi again thats wad he told mi so i gonna quit drinking coz of him.. so gers i cant acc u all to drink liao... pai seh ar.. he once told mi he may not be by my side but he will always care for mi.. really touch lor... n he wont sweet talk de unless kel lor.. but its ok n fine wif mi coz i dun need sweet talk.. guess i am wif him my mind start to change n think more mature le... n lots of things i also start to heck care liao coz i am too tired to care or think so much liao.. after 1yr 3mth of relationship i really wanan hav a relax life le.. dunwan to struggle so much.. dun think so much let nature be. as lnog i am happy...

all my sis r also attached le n having their own life liao... all in love le.. but of coz sometimes we do still meet up lah... no more chiong days le... hahaha all worknig n earn money liao.. guess we really grown up le..after that we will hav our own family as well... n life goes on...

think gonan slp le.. worknig tomm morning.. n my dar went our for supper left mi alone so sad... but its ok lah... hahaha i give him freedom n he give mi freedom so wads there to ask for right..

good nite..