everything is gone

everything is gone again.. the hope the effect n time.... just in few mins time.. y god hav to do this to mi?? am i not sincer enough??? or r u punishing mi??? i try n try my ways out in the relationship but in the end i gain nothing... no love n no trust from him at all??? i really treat him very good le just coz of a guy a friend of mine?? yes i can say i hav lots of guys friend too.. n u hav lots of ger friend too.. we both hav our friends.. i can trust u y cant u even hav a little trust on mi?? after all this day wad i done is just rubbish to u.. n hardwork n love my heart all been dump by u into the rubbish.. now my heart is totally hurt n nothing can heel le.. since the moment u left mi again i keep asking u to stay but u ignore... if since we cant talk things our wad for i keep on waiting?? since i totally mean nothing to u?? yes u r jealouse i can see..n u r angry but u just keep it.. i can feel the sour is 100% more den i hhav.. coz u can angry till leave mi alone n u dunno how to think at all.. nvm i give u times to think again.. acturelly i am tired le.. but i always believe in merical..i can swear to god mi n my friend n just normal friends.. u r just too sensertive little bit u r angry... yes ur temper is not good that i noe.. but not to this extrim right?? like that next time even we together n i am always the one who give in if one day u not happy den sure break up again de... i really dunno wad to say n exlain le.. u care for mi but u hide it.. u like mi but u hide it.. n all this i can feel it if not u wont say give mi another chance again.. i already give u freedom n all u wan.. now another problem how u wan mi to take it??? i yesterday walk over the road i wish i will just been bang by the car on the spot. n i wont feel so hurt n heart broken anymore... n i wont feel anything anymore... n maybe it would be the last time i see u.. but till now i still can say.. i love u lots. DARYLL