its a boring day today.. so sian at home rott.. sick sia... haiz.. nb i become more fatter le.. gonna slim down again liao... hahahahahahaha.... i wan pretty pretty... i wan wear many many nice nice de clothes.... this my wish for now... i believe i can do it.. xiao feng jia you k??? jian fei...

think something wrong wif mi.. no i guess not... coz i really think i am fat.. no u r not fat... just big size.. oh no big size consider fat le.. no no no big size is big size fat is fat ok...

em... oh izzit??? yap of coz.. u hav nothing better to do??? yeah i am bored to death.... anyone can help mi men... oh no none can help u onli u urself...

y am i always been trap in so many things... family?? friends?? relationship?? work.. money n so many things around mi omg.. yet some ppl just dun understand it... haiz..

oh really u hav so many things to worry about??? com on tell mi some of it...

lots of things inside mi but i dunno how to say it..

com on just say it men...

dunwan lah.. later say le more worse n make things worse...

oh well wads bothering u men.. friends?? boyfriend?? family??

1stly my family they just dun understand mi well enough... they just think i am a bad ger keep going out wif my bf.. but thats not i wan de..

den wad u wan?? em.. i also dunnon..

2nd my bf.. he simply just dun understand mi either.. my parents already dun understand mi even him... haiz i tell him my feelnigs he thinks its bull shit... always quarrel wif mi.. i really tired of it... hIZ..

MAYBE CAN TALK TO HIM MORE??? bout ur feelings??? ur thoughts??? n everythging.

no everytime i say le he will start quarrel wif mi.. but i noe his a godo guy but his attitude... i just cant stand it men... lousy attitude.. btw his birthday coming.. he wish for a wallet but should i get for him???

em.. its up to u for wad gife u wan for him.. as long its from u he will like de...

ok.. i shell go shop for it bah... thankz

3rd bout my friends around mi... somethings just happened between us... dun wish to say who.. but just read ching aiai blog n saw wad she write... i totally agreed wif her.. doesent us been good enough to her?? r we too bed n so worse to be her friend?? omg.. i really dun understand it..

haiz dun be sad ger... things may not be wad u think??

but the truth is there u can see it for urself.. hav u ever had a friend that say u n hurt u so deeply?? n its a sudden.. just like someone backstub u.. do u noe the kind of feelings???

oh sorry maybe i dunno but y not try talknig to her den???

oh as her attitude do u think she will listen?? maybe just just fucking care???

how u noe it ???

of coz i noe.. hahahaha.. coz the problem lies wif her... if nothing gonna com out from her den things will be like that... sister?? wad is sister?? i really dun understand this word anymore... n wads that for??

oh cool down cool down ger.. dun be so angry.. just relax n everything will be fine... simply heck care bout her??? maybe its just her lose for losing u all.. so dun get so work out..

haiz.. i dunno my mind now is blank.. i onli wan to work n earn lots of money...

ok den go straight to wad u wan n aim for it...

ok thankz buddy.. u r the best.. i will tell u all my feelnigs though i may not see u at all... hope u hav a good rest.. we shell talk again..

oh sure no problem i shell talk to u again.. any problem just look mi up.. cheer up ger... dun think so much dun worry be happy ok...

ok sure u too.. bye bye nite

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