yesterday went to mu... haiz.. as usure.. mi, koni, joey ,joyce n tian tian also shi hui.. so its ladies nite.. but mu dun hav ladies nite lah... hahahah honam they all got go down also.. but daryll was there too i also dun dare be so clsoe wif honam le.. coz of the incident.. but daryll just very happy lor.. i really dun understand lor.. dun he hav feelings mah??? although i was there cant he even say hello??? i really very disappointed.. acturelyl lots of time i wanan go over de but i scared he will angry n shout at mi.... but i really dunno how to discribe.. but see him happy den ok le lor... i really nothing to say.. think slowly i will get used to it de bah...

i think throught le

after this days... i really did miss him really cant forget bout him lor... haiz.. but after today i noe wad i should do le.. no point keep finding him.. if its urs its urs not urs force also no used de... just let nature take its course bah... btw he also wont bother bout mi le... so i will just treat him as friend onli lor... btw i really wanan thankz my friends... n those who r always wif mi... hahaahah now think he should be more happy le bah... hope he wont ignore mi ba if i saw him.. later going mu.. so dunno if will talk anot..

everything is gone again

i think i am really stupid... last sat he meet mi at my house downstair... i was so suprise.. den we went somerset together we go walk walk awhile bah... den meet up wif joey... at nite we went to mu again...this time i was real happy lor... of coz we dance ours lah.. he was quite happy too.. his action show that he gonna give mi the chance again... but i saw a friend of mine in mu.. den he was drunk so i acc him go 7-11 when i was back .. daryll was quite angry de he ask mi who is he of coz i say friend but indeed he was my friend onli.. den he just go off like that again.. not onli once le.. but many times.. this time i chase him out.. i really dunno wad to say... all along he just dun trust mi... we r really finish this time.. he wont give mi any chance le.. no more n its totally finish.. y we r in love but yet cant be together dun tell mi wad i done is still not enougyh mah???? i do all things r for him n waiting for the day to com again... i really cant take it.. y things alwasy happened to mi?? he dun like mi just let mi go y still give mi the chance for??? i really hate..

yesterday nite i eat panadol n cut myself i though i would die.. but i did not.. i gonna leave this scare on my hand n remind mi that i cut this scare is for him... n will remain in my heart deeply... i will always remember him..

everything is gone

everything is gone again.. the hope the effect n time.... just in few mins time.. y god hav to do this to mi?? am i not sincer enough??? or r u punishing mi??? i try n try my ways out in the relationship but in the end i gain nothing... no love n no trust from him at all??? i really treat him very good le just coz of a guy a friend of mine?? yes i can say i hav lots of guys friend too.. n u hav lots of ger friend too.. we both hav our friends.. i can trust u y cant u even hav a little trust on mi?? after all this day wad i done is just rubbish to u.. n hardwork n love my heart all been dump by u into the rubbish.. now my heart is totally hurt n nothing can heel le.. since the moment u left mi again i keep asking u to stay but u ignore... if since we cant talk things our wad for i keep on waiting?? since i totally mean nothing to u?? yes u r jealouse i can see..n u r angry but u just keep it.. i can feel the sour is 100% more den i hhav.. coz u can angry till leave mi alone n u dunno how to think at all.. nvm i give u times to think again.. acturelly i am tired le.. but i always believe in merical..i can swear to god mi n my friend n just normal friends.. u r just too sensertive little bit u r angry... yes ur temper is not good that i noe.. but not to this extrim right?? like that next time even we together n i am always the one who give in if one day u not happy den sure break up again de... i really dunno wad to say n exlain le.. u care for mi but u hide it.. u like mi but u hide it.. n all this i can feel it if not u wont say give mi another chance again.. i already give u freedom n all u wan.. now another problem how u wan mi to take it??? i yesterday walk over the road i wish i will just been bang by the car on the spot. n i wont feel so hurt n heart broken anymore... n i wont feel anything anymore... n maybe it would be the last time i see u.. but till now i still can say.. i love u lots. DARYLL