this the front view can see my pig anot??? shining one. hahaha

this is my newly baby wif two litter cute pig infront... hahaha it looks cute when my bf pillion mi lor..

today is my 1st day riding my bike coz dar worknig liao le so i took the bike over lor... was abit scared on teh road at 1st but i too brave liao lah... so just chiong ar... but not bad lah... it feels godo to ride on own bike n on my own... now i can go anywhere wif my litter baby.. too happy liao le...

wow its been a week le... hahah never post le... was busy for the past few daYS accmy bf lor... coz he meat an car accident on christmas eve so suay... visited him in the hospital but luckly nothing serious happened.. now he can walk le happy for him... but his bike gone case although i never saw it but the way they discript it really cmi liao..

today was a happy day for mi.. coz dar help mi brought a bike... list i hav my own transport now le happy leh... hahaha next time can stay late out liao.. but still must ride carefully if not lots of ppl will nag mi de lor.. hahahah so anxious to see my little baby leh... waiting for dar to com back hahaha

been few days never update my blog le.. guess u guys must be anxious to read my blog bah.. hahaha

this few days was wif dar he came to my house acc mi lor... continue for 4 days we be meeting each other... so good... yest dar came my house acc mi lor... he was supposed to go jb but jam de so he never go... so nice feel the love from him again.. but scared it will end very fast but i will treasure every moment wif him de... he gonan change job next year le he say... dunno its good or bad.. one thing he quite respect my mum de.. thats wad my mum like bout him ba i guess.. coz his the 1st guy my mum allow him to stay at my house wan... haha. now his worknig gonan miss him le.. dunno tonight he meeting mi anot... wanan watch movie wif him also but den guess he wont be free also bah...

dunno wanan go where later leh... be having dinner on christmas eve... invited some friend but no reply yet..

HaTe it.... i hate the feeling now... i hate it when i talk to him he give mi attitute.. i find that our relationship wont last le... coz i dun think he love mi anymore... he give mi attitute now le... slowly i will lost everything... just chatted wif him on the phone... his friend asking him to go kulai today i just onli say go again??? wad he ans mi was u always like that de.. dun go dun go lah... i go home.. dun u think the attitute very bad how can he say like that n the tone is not very good... i expect him to say he will bring mi go lor... or maybe i dun go i com find u. but the ans he give hurts mi alots... I dUnnO hOw lOnG cAN wE last lE. i Feel hurt everytime... y am i the one????

actually i hav two choices now... one is kelvin n one is him... i gonna give kel a ans by 22nd dec. actually i love both but think back i wif kel i am more xin fu.. wif my boy i will hav better future... so i can onli choose one... gers if u were mi which one will u choose???? sorry my tag board got problem cant reply msg...

i Respect n give in to my bf does not mean i can tolorate their attitute towards mi... if i respect n i hope to get respect too... y my boy cant be more caring n think more for mi?????

Y am i so Stupid to give in to him everytime?? should i voice out my toughts??? meeting kel in the afternoon going for willian baby ger de one month celebration...

was back from my dar house... yest went movie wif dar... actually wanan go cine watch de but in the end dun hav the show he wanted so went to plaza sing but was full house also den went to teh cathay but also the same taht tiem was bout to raining le.. but i wanted to watch show no matter wad.. den bo bian he say go vivo watch lor the last place... so we went there luckly we catch a 12.30 show overthere watch "the golden campass' not bad a advanture show... heng he never fall asleep... haha after so lnog finally we got the chance to watch movie together again... coz everytime onli at home so bored... was happy when he acc mi yest.

after that went to his house bout 2 plus le... sleep at 3 plus... n he gonna work early today so bo bian lor... haiz.. wtd..

yest had a hcat wif hui xian also... lots bout our things my relationship my problems... for us gers we dun ask for much as lnog as ur boy love u n always care for u its already very xin fu le right... even a small action will make us happy... such a simply logic they also dunno mah??? haiz... i am always good to the one i love but y dun they appreciate it??? unless they dun like mi lor... if not i see no point y they ignore us sometimes... n actually i suspect my boy hav chat wif another ger recently.. but i cant confirm it.. coz taht time i look at his phone since he cant reply that ger y not he reply mi den??? am i very bored???? he think i always keep quite n give in to him nothing will happened mah.. after all i am his gf lor... how can i let this kind of things happened right??? its redicurious.. i msn him dun reply sms him dun reply also wad am i in his heart???

i think this few days i onli noe how to complain ppl always say we gers dun understand guys but plz turn around does u guys think bout us too??? gers is the one taht always lose out lor... so wad u guys gonan say??? afetr fuck already can just throw teh ger aside n treat it nothing happened mah??????? i wish i am guy lor....

guess my boy dun really love mi that much... from the way he treat mi the action does... wE from onE WeEk mEet 5-6 dAys become NoW 1 day or 2 day i find it unacceptable. wad i need is ur company not ur 1- 2 hour just to see mi for nothing.

finding myself getting more n more lonely each day le... i am not as cheerfull as last time anymore... all friends working till late... all got bf also le all got their own thnigs no longer active like last time le... i got bf like no bf de... he work everyday even when his free he also cant acc mi... today he go to sec link wif his friend ya he can enjoy yet i at home alone u noe the feelnig really very sux n painfull... think le tears also drop... he say i was sick so cannot go out.. but i still go out wad its not a good excuss lor.. he can still bring mi out de lor. i am ur gf leh.. bring mi out also so difficult meh??? so wad ppl got big bikes... just now i really wanna ask mi friend fetch mi lor instead of him... list my friend willing to lor... not liek him.. i am already very bored n lonely le cant just think of mi mah?????????

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my ger friend ask mi go sec link i can just go without him de... y am i making myself so miserable
n so fuck up??????????????? i really hate myself now....... i hate the way i am now....... i really really very xin ku lor................. really...........

sick le... never go work today.. went to see doctor in teh morning he say i am quite serious de... so he give mi 3days mc lor... haiz.. gonan hav a long weekend le... but bored leh staying at home onli slp lor.. nothing to do cant go out.. luckyl dar got com find mi yest n today very happy le.. although he cant acc mi but nvm lah... list he make the effect the com down my house n find mi lor.. very touch liao.. but i scared my boss wont be very happy bout it lor... haiz... coz i wanan take another leave at teh end of dec lor but dunno ok anot lor... haiz... due to now 3days mc this money i onli work less den 20 days... haiz... but will pass quite fast coz they going for holiday for bout a week lor...

tomm its thursday le... dunno guess gonna go buy soem vcd n stay home to watch bah... still not feelnig very good my tummy make mi gi crazy... guess gonan loss few kg le... no appitite to eat also.. just now my mummy just cook some porridge for mi coz i need to take my medicine... hahahah sian guess gonna rest again... tired

haiz.. now feelinfg abit headach after work.. sian been sick for few days... guess gonna get fever le.. coz i feel hot n cold... how i wish my boy si wif mi... really miss him lots... yest never meet him... but he change le no longer the same as i 1st noe him.. of coz i dun expect him to be totally same... at list spend abti more time for mi... go out wif mi n i am happy le... of coz not everyday meet also lah... he will feel bored too... when i cry alone in my rom who noes... when i am lonely who noes??? wad i need is his care for mi... yest nite afetr reading through the msg he send to mi when we 1st together i really feel very sad n my tears just roll down from my eye... u noe the feeling its so hurt.... y do ppl change so easily... some more mi n him can talk till morning last time but now not even 15min lor... wads a big diff right... wad topic he also not interested in den how??? i am ur gf not ur friend leh... thought ppl say starting dun be so close so good but i already commit... y cant u just show mi more???? u say i change but i guess i change to good n not bad... i give him freedom all he wants... wad else i am just asknig him to give mi more times y cant is it very difficult??? does he noe my feeling??? he dun coz i never tell him befor coz i noe he dun like... his charector is very clear cut to mi lor... he dun love to talk but i do... unless he dun love mi if not y always leave mi alone in teh dark??? at 1st was so sweet i really hope that would last but y in all relationship either side will change n wont stay???? or the opposit change after ... haiz... got words also cant say to him n onli can write down my sadness n complain here.... really very xin ku lor.... y love a person its so hard n its hard to remain the relationship... i start to lose hope in this relationship.... but i will maintain it till teh end n one day i cant le i would give up...

now the problem is he dun even talk much bout his thing... how am i to noe wad his thinking.. n now i also hardly go his house le.. coz he say he wanna slp more.. when i hear it i totally sink lor... my heart was been stub by a knife lor... its really hurt... but of coz i understand it coz he work late de... haiz... i really dunno wad to say n do le.. just let it be..

wow very full now... ate my dinner not lnog ago.. found myself slim abit le coz my jeans lossen liao le... hahah em... thats a great start for mi... again my target of sliming 10kg should very ok bah... hahaha now not onli slim for myself but also to look good n hav good health... hahaha like taht my dar also will dote mi lots lots... hahaha

yest went to meet jace at suntec... was supposed to go ecp wif ching n hui xian but abit lazy also... hahaha n no $$ coz rent bike need $$ but tomm i getting my pay le so i anytime le... thnig also.. hahaha the feeling of money is so shock... without money can die ar... hahaah

after meeting jace.. dar n law com to my house find mi lor... den stay at my house for awhile den decided to go out for a drink... shawn came quite late we went to upp east coast road near my work place there de hong kong caffe chat chat drink drink lor... their topic is always bike luckly i noe abti n also interested in the topic so i do comman abit list thats the way wad... hahaha wont feel left out.. i told my boy if can i geeting my bike after geeting my pay bout jan lor... wave lor.. cheap ma n onli for transport.. btw if go futher place he fetch mi lor.. right... hahah in singapore nvm lah... hahaha he even ask mi put his name... hahah of coz lah... ar bo whos name??? den shawn came den we headed to another palce also near by coz dar wan eat chicken wing... guess 3 of them getting fater n fater liao.. especially my boy lah... still dun diet... hahaha but nvm lah i like the way he is can le.. hahahah hope same to him...

wow just wake up... 1st time slp till so late sia... so tired... just had my dinner...

yest dar meet his friend again.. haiz i wanted to meet him de but haiz nvm lor.. den i go fly wif my friend lor... meet up wif stacy n tracy earlier on at ps.. had our dinner there.. after that meet koni but my phone was stupid lor low batt... the whole nite uable to contact ppl but luckly still manage to find my friend coz his phone low batt too... so suey.. den koni came later was waiting for her outside heng she noe how to walk there if not think die liao le lor... hahaha den later alan came too wif his friend lor... den i went home...

dar call mi earlier but was too noisy to listen to the phone so i msg him i reached home call him lor... when i call him le he dun seem to be very happy lor.. i think i am not in the wrong in the 1st place i already inform him le my phone cant call out n i am using my friend de phone liao.. i rushed home after that lor.. i also abit not happy wif his words so i say him lor... sometiems i just wanan hav more time wif him nothing wrong wad.. since he meet his friend den i meet my friend lor nothing wrong wad right... den he call mi i mai ans but in the end i still call back lah... haha but in teh end he ask mi go coffee shop as he wanan go eat.. kns i though he come n see mi lor... but he say i attitude lor.. of coz lah his words hurt mi leh... kns.. he should please mi wad.. hahaha btw now going down to bugis soon liao le.. haha going to bank in teh money for him...

wow today wake up late wtf.. luckly i am able to catch the bus n reached in time.. hahaha haiz today dar whole day never call mi le... miss him lots... haiz... dunno maybe he onli play game forget bout mi liao le lor.. haiz.. sad ar...

after work went to a fitness center nearby my work place... seems not bad leh.. one ween $20 dollar n i can go anytime to used there machines all that n some trainee to teached n guid u along look good.. decided to take up the package... they got two package both r good but one more ex but got nutrition guaidian lor.. but i be onli taking the cheaper one... hahaha good like that my dream will com true fast.. btw sicne dar no tiem for mi must well i go find something do do n sicne he say i need to slim down den i go for this may help... btw i lnog time never exercise also le lor... its a good chance too... every tiem 1/2 an hour of exercise keep mi fit.. y not...

gonan tell my dar bout teh good new... but haiz he haven even bother to call mi.. yest also lor.. now he everyday game game onli.. how about mi?????????? i am so lonely now..... got bf but his not around for mi.. haiz..

after reading koni blog again.. i noe my ans too... i still wan my boy... coz i noe he love mi too.. althought i still hav feel for kel but i cant turn back the time n go back to him le... coz its the past n i am leading a new life since my boy treat mi good so y not...i cant let my boy down.. but sometimes i do miss kel lor... even if i am wif him back i believe someday same things will happened again so must well stay the way we r bah... onli until the day he noe how to think he will realise last time i treat him the best le... afetr all i still treat him as good friend lor.. now i am very clear le... i love my boy more.. hahahah

wow just came back from my boy de house.. wad a unlucky day i hav today... never go work...early morning my menses stain on my pants... haiz hav to ma fan my boy send mi home... btw he gonig to work also so its ok lah.. y he never off today so sad... haiz.. he was suppose to off today de lor... yest he took half day le but he gonna buy something thats y... wow he brought he dream psp i guess also noe he will buy it.. too rich liao... hahaha

my wish for my christmas is my boy can take off pei mi den go out eat walk walk..
bless my wish com true.. die now stomach cramp again wtf..

after reading koni de blog.. actually i got the same feeling too.. things just happened in us... haiz y??? all kind of shit... sux...

just had a chat wif him again... haiz the feelnig is back... i cry the whole nite this morning wake up also.. haiz.. feel very bad towards my boy now... but cant help it... its so xin ku...

he cant give mi that kind of feeling n the time.. he work everyday sometimes i really tell myself is he the right one... i really dunno.. the way he treat mi really make our relationship very bad... i believe i give him wad he wants but he never give mi wad i wan... y????????? just like yest nite... icall him at 12 plus he was in malaysia bout 2 plus i call him again he was in sing already but he dun bother to returned my call at all... in thew end i fall asleep le... bout 3 plus he call mi again... guess he noe i be at home bah... when i listen to the phone he say he was outside of my house i though he tease mi onli.. but in the end its true lor his outing... dunno y suddenly he will appeared lor... i was really suprise i though he dun care bout mi le... noe wad he say.. "although i never returned ur call but i appeared outside ur house" wow this word make mi feel touch lor... but den... haiz he onli accompany mi awhile lor how i wish he can acc mi lor... haiz... so sad...

in teh afternoon he call mi once nia after that no more liao.. hope he meet mi tonight lor... actually wish to hav sometime spend wif him lor... coz that the onli way we can talk lor.. haiz..

today slp till 11 wake my boy up... i also wake up le cant get to slp liao le...

meeting koni n his bf tonight den go find jace... she still very confuse bout her relationship now but we cant help her much onli can advice her the decision is hers... went to look for jace at suntec... after that we went bugis of of the restaurant for our dinner the food ok lah.. so so lor...

headed to bugis junction coz she meet her friend there after that mi her n her bg went to m1 shop coz his bf buying hp lor.. so good sia i also wanna hav a hp lor.. haiz guess this christmas i gonna be lonely again haiz... we went back to suntec to look for jace again coz she off work mah... my friend call mi up n tell mi she saw my boy... but i also noe his going lah so its ok.. but abti angry coz he told mi that onli him n fabian in the end my friend told mi got fabian wife n shawn lor... haiz... but guess not gonan ask much bah... feelnig abit sad lor coz y the fabian bring hsi gf yet he dun bring mi leh??? am i a disgrace to him??? or he scared i will be left out haiz... i wanan go lor i really really wanan go lor.. haiz... he enjoy yet mi leh... left alone he never think for mi lor.. wtf... super no mood now... the way he treat mi make mi think more bout my ex lor... haiz... sux man... fuck lah...

cant he treat mi abit more better think abit more for mi ma.. whole day onli a call from him nia... dunno wad time he gonna be back from jb lor.. haiz... yest never meet le today also never meet.. haiz now our time for each other is getting lesser n lesser le... haiz really very xin ku... i onli can cry inside my heart n yet i cant do anything... if i ask much he will find mi fun wu li qu nao.. guys r always like that they though they love us but to us we cant feel it at all... coz the action... haiz.. how am i gonna do... how i wish i am alone now.. n dun fall for anyone... it hurt really its more hurtfull den u had a fall lor... haiz...

took a photo of my bday present last year de... long time never wear le... think wear 2-3 times nia lor... hahaha too fat to wear nice clothes..

this my new ipod touch cool man... i mention in previous post

a close up look of the tree

TOok at vivo city de christmas tree... nice wo.. a huge tree..

few days never update liao... hahaha few days never meet my boy le... i mean miss him lots...

yest meet up wif stacy at ps... she bring mi go see her ger.. kns den had dinner together lor... long time never meet up liao le.. lol.. walk walk till 10 like that boy say never meet mi den ok lor.. so i decided to go dragon meet one of the friend but he say never go so bo bian...

ask koni n jace out, meet at clark quey coz we going to luner... saw suki sing wow so good now his famous last tiem he is just like us now one blink become singer n appeared on tv lor.. so gd.. after all his great but too bad never talk to him... btw luner also bored all uncle auntie really cmi.. we onli see suki they all sing nia... hahaha after that go off le... so we dunno where to go n its 12 plus 1 like that still early.. in the end msg my friend again.. he say he just reached dragon fly abit drunk liao... so we decide to went down... hahaha

very funny lor its ladies nite i mean our ladies nite... his quite ok lah friendly n sociable lor... dunno is it he drink abit too much lor.. hahaha at 1st he also never talk much to mi... saw alan also koni de ex... but guess she still cant forget bout him... but i can understand if it happened to mi i will be the same... hahah

my friend call us to go to the sofa sit we ( PAO TAI) hahaah abit nan ting leh.. especially us in gers.... lol after all his friend ok lah too friendly le one or two nia.. one of the guy guess drunk liao keep wanan touch us lor wow liao so hankie panky.. kns i still prefere my friend.. hahah coz he more si wen but he busy smoking onli.. hahah run here n there leave us behind but he very suai also lah got entertain us awhile lor... bout 4 plus den we leave lor... reached home slp..

back from work wow so tired... hahaha em... very full now just eaten my dinner...

yest went dar house slp he com n find mi... nothing much to undate coz was at home yest...

had abit of chatting wif dar but not much... get to noe some of the question that is keep in my mind... now i understand how he was like... hahaha coz he treat his ex the same way too... so i must accept it... i must cheer him up n not feel bored when i am wif him.. always stay cheerful n happy... thats the way... n thats wad i am.. i gonna be myself again.. slowly i will get to his life i be part of him n he will be part of mi... hahaha

now started to save morning for my 21st bday n gonig for holiday wif dar... but haven plan yet.. hahahah but guess would be quite soon de lah.. i wanan go shop shop... cancer my leave this week i was suppose to be in malaysia but due to somethings happened so bo bian... but nvm i still got leave so anytiem i can still take... dar say planning to thailand next month but haven confirm.. think very hard lah.. hahah no one organise mah... sian..

yest went out wif dar... befor that meet my friend apple bike kaki.. went central at clark quey de.. we went to eat the cake that show on tv befor those mini patten de.. so cute lor.. was thinking of having it for my 21st bday wo... hahah

den 1 of our friend came to join us but when he saw teh cake he was keep laughing n say look like those toy lor... hahaha but really look like lah but not bad lah... worth it.. maybe later o ni may show the picture.. taste not bad also..

after that 10 plus dar meet us after his work going in to jb eat tim sum... haha reached there was quite late coz JAM.. wth lor... bo bian cant get out le so guai guai get into the que lor... wad to do... onli that moment i feel the love... hahah dunno y... 7 of us go eat together... n guess wad the price is onli 134.6 ringgate lor... so cheap cheap n we eat quite alot also lor... hahaha eat person 10 nia... after we exit to singapore custom dar was been caught for the ciggrate coz he forgot to take out 1 stick coz i took 2 pack out one each coz i dun smoke so take for him.. so suey lor.. the police man question us.. " u noe one packet $200 fine u wanna pay mah??" wad a stupid question of coz who will ans no wad... he even ask mi i got smoke de meh?? my lips so pink i feel like scolding him.. but i never lah... in the end he give 2 choices either pay the fine or throw away one box.. wad a stupid question again of coz throw away lah.. worse he ask mi throw lor.. fuck right.. kns..

but dun worry coz we still got another 4 pack how can dar finish all i also dunno lor... coz all our friend dun smoke de lor.. all take for him nia hahahah.. went to dam meet another friend guess taht time was quite late le bout 4 plus already wow i was tired le feel like sleeping liao... n dar was tired too.. i really appreciate it that he still make the effect to send mi to my door step.. but of coz lah guy mah... n some more my bf hahahah... sometimes i maybe really think too much liao le... afetr all he do treat mi good... haha i will treasure him but think we still need to spend time together n hav a good chat bah... regarding our relationship.. comments n so on.. i dun wish later in teh end break off without even noeing wad happed n reason lor... i hate that.. list we say now maybe still can save lor.. if wait till he no feeling den thats it liao.. wad also dun need to say le.. haiz..

today is sat lor.. now at home haiz.. just got my new ipod touch 8gb de.. yeah not bad sia. got wi-fi de after all i like it.. maybe tonight meet dar go out bah.. will undate again..

just com back from supper... went katong wif my bike kaki lawrence.. he fetch mi there.. went to the coffee shop opp katong mall the wanton noodles very nice lor... den dar com after that coz he working.. haiz.. but suddenly felt that we like stranger or maybe friends onli.. coz teh feel he give mi totally change le.. we dun seem to be that close le... coz the usure things he do does not exist anymore... is it that theres something happened between us??? or there is a 3rd party i really dunno.. i totally felt very lost now.. but i onli can say out my toughts over here... feel like crying now the feeling sux... its painfull inside mi. aftert that he fetch mi home... guess wad he say i stay home coz he very tired n wanan slp till 1pm wad a excuss lor.. actually i really dunno maybe i think too much... so lost so lost now... no one can help mi... so moody n sad...

Finally i can used back my blog le.. goodness.. hahahah em... this week been staying at my boy house... but abit pai seh leh... haiz... actually sometimes i feel happy n sad... dunno y... the feeling is so unexplainable... haiz... when we meet up we can talk n play around didturbe each other.. but during working hours i find we like stranger he no longer like last time sms mi or call mi le.. dunno y... hate this kind of feelings... but of coz i wont show out infront of him coz we just started this relstionship... n 5 more days will be our 1mth annivessary... guess to him its nothing ba coz he dun care n dun even bother.. but for mi its diff... i care alto n it means alot to mi... i believe everyone would like to spend the day wif ur love ones on that day.. even a simple dinner also would make u feel happy right of coz i dun expect any thing from him... haiz..

but i understand he gonna work but i believe its not a excuss n i try not to think so much le... wad ever bad things i can think off i just put aside n keep it to myself coz i wanna avoid quarrel but indeed he dun understand mi well now.. hope in future he will.. after all compare wif kel he is good lah.. but the joy the time everything he cant give mi... but i hav to accept everything coz i really love him... he dote on mi.. also bring a new mi again n leave the past.. i dun wish to read his mine coz i noe i may end up a bad ending by guessing wrong... he say as long we r happy den ok lor... dunno how he thinks till now.. coz we really dun hav much time spend together... even weekend he gonna work.. haiz.. guess its gonan continue haiz.. life is misirable

wow finally i can log in using my bro de net... hahaha been very lnog never update n miss out quite alot of things... guess lots of ppl may noe wad going on wif my life now ok i shell start..

broke off wif kel in 19th oct... coz really cant go on this relationship le due to lots of things happened in us.. haiz.. but as i mention previously in my post i been going out wif a guy aboy... n i like him after few times we meet up.. just on the 20th he ask mi to wif wif him at 1st he say onli try try lor.. den i agreed too.. but the time been wif him i can forget bout kel the unhappiness but sometimes i feel theres something left out in our relationship.. but to his charector i wont ask for too much happy go lucky onli.. coz he dun like ppl to comment too much or ask too much coz he himself is those heck care heck care of charector lor... he can be really caring sometimes n i feel secure wif him even my mum also like him... at list he got a stable job income n a good family background den ok le.. coz my mum also wan mi to find a good one mah..

as for mi i also dun ask much as long he treat mi well care for mi love mi dote on mi n trust on mi i already very happy le... $$$ dun mean alot to mi but is the heart that show.. a gift from him i may also feel very happy if he does.. its 3 weeks le since we r together till now.. so far so good our relationship so far ok lah... he also open a acc for our savings.. but i ask him to join my name so both our names can draw the $$$ list a save way n the trust bah.. not i dun trust but that wad my mum told me to be save lor.. n he agreed to.. guess we already plan very far le... list he noe how to think bah...

sometimes i do feel the diff between him n kel coz two totally diff charector.. i noe i cant compare them but towards kel i feel happier coz he can really make mi speck out all my mind without hessitate lor.. but boy its diff i hav to think of him cant say wrong thing so i feel very xin ku bah... but wad to do thats love.. he dun like mi to drink coz i drink le it wont be mi again thats wad he told mi so i gonna quit drinking coz of him.. so gers i cant acc u all to drink liao... pai seh ar.. he once told mi he may not be by my side but he will always care for mi.. really touch lor... n he wont sweet talk de unless kel lor.. but its ok n fine wif mi coz i dun need sweet talk.. guess i am wif him my mind start to change n think more mature le... n lots of things i also start to heck care liao coz i am too tired to care or think so much liao.. after 1yr 3mth of relationship i really wanan hav a relax life le.. dunwan to struggle so much.. dun think so much let nature be. as lnog i am happy...

all my sis r also attached le n having their own life liao... all in love le.. but of coz sometimes we do still meet up lah... no more chiong days le... hahaha all worknig n earn money liao.. guess we really grown up le..after that we will hav our own family as well... n life goes on...

think gonan slp le.. worknig tomm morning.. n my dar went our for supper left mi alone so sad... but its ok lah... hahaha i give him freedom n he give mi freedom so wads there to ask for right..

good nite..

posting agin.. today was sick taking mc... at 1st though jia jai sick but in the end really sick lor.. haiz... tired of working liao... but no choice no money... dun talk bout my sad things le...

so tired now... nowadays chat wif ah boy lor.. after listening to wad hui xian words.. wow really change le... he call mi almost everyday lor... for nothing keep say miss mi.. thsi n that dunno is it his wire lose or wad.. must fix for him le... must be something wrong tahts y he say that de.. coz i noe we r onli friends no more den taht mah... so abit weired after listening wad he say... his ego com out le.. hahaha gd that is my 1st step of revange...

slowly bah... haha meet him this morning for breakfast.. 1st time leh.. but ok lah... list better coz i find taht we r closer n closer le.. but good n bad also hav lah.. dunwan to say more.. we shell see wad happened bah... hahaha

btw meet up wif ching aiai last sunday wow long time never see her le so happy when saw her.. took some picture to.. believe she already post on her blog le bah... nice pic taking by her digi cam.. hahaha but hui xian did not com miss it lor...

joey birthday coming also.. brought her a present my friend will noe i wont keep things to heart de... no matter wad still friend bo still live a road for them... so gonan attent her birthday chalet lor... on the 13th... but hope nite time be meeting boy they all ba.. hahaha sian..

went drinking alone yest at boat quey... feeling so moody n troubled... went to the usure pub lor.. the boss still recgonise mi lor.. hahaha den order a jug of beer... thats the onli drink i can drink bah... the rest ex leh.. hahaha thanz to those who wanan acc mi de... but i am fine lah... haha

after that msg kel ask him to com down but he went dragon fly lor den bo bian lor... went down to find him lor.. his friend bring mi in lor.. haiz... i was abit drunk by den... sian going out le very busy now.. hahaha

meeting ching le... com back den talk

haiz... dun feel very good now.. mood sucks... y all guys r the same... y am i the one that always fall for them??? i was not like a fool lor been play like a parpet... fuck man... been hurt so deeply befor n yet now another one but this time i am not that stupid de.. u wanan play wif mi i will play wif u too... dun think u r that gd lor... u r nothing but shit to mi now... wad a big lier... so li hai dun talk behind my back talk infront of mi lah... gt gf still wanna flirt around.. who u think u r?? wait till i slim down 1st i dun believe no guys wan mi lor... fucker.. btw i am still young so who cares...

u fool around wif mi i also can fool around wif u de... dun step on to my shoes or u will die very jia lat jia lat de...

btw i also need to wake up n keep an eye on this kind of guys.. treat u like very gd but at the back say bad bout u... n take advantage of u lor... wad is the big deal u hav a bike??? who fucking cares... wif this kind of charector how gd u r to the others also no used coz infront of mi u already show ur true colours.. dun think i noe nothing at all but i just keep quiet... when the day i cant take it n its my revange time le.. u shell wait... i hav time so no hurry..

warning to gers never trust guys easily le... just like mi i was too soft hearted my friend will noe that.. thats y i am always the loser but i gonna end everything... i wanan be the winner n not the loser out of all the games.... i gonna stand up...

went out till 4 am yest morning again... wow so tired... not enough slp... chat wif boy till 5am so tired leh... but nvm lah worth it... went to 10floor to eat den went to bugis... he drive car n fetch mi... feel so xin fu wo... but too bad we need times for each other.. but was really happy been wif him even we r friends but its enough liao...

went marina south to play game... den to play bowling.. so nice... hahaha he keep di siao mi.. bth.. went down bugis to eat ba chor mee... but i never eat lah... den he send mi home le... btw i believe if the days come n we really be together i believe i be more xin fu de.... hahaha

ended my relationship on 23 sept... been a week le... but i cant do anything to this relationship anymore so i decided to give up.. i cant go on like this 4ever... now i wanan start my new life again by choosing my new prince... hahahah

been gonig out wif my biker friends this few weeks was happening coz its liek been very long never go out liao... but in this group of friend i fall for a guy that pillion mi de... but so far i find him ok.. but my friend ask mi dun go for him.. but i was confuses.. haiz dunno see how bah...

went out wif them onli... just came back home... tired never slp well also sprain my neck somemore lor.. haiz.. so sad....

yesterday was a wounderfull nite for mi... coz i manage to meet up my bro n sister le...together we celebrate birthday together again liao...

went steamboat at bugis there... got mi, dear dear, koni, koni friend, hui xian,jace n alex... hahaha although someone did not com but nvm le... but i also very happy le.. list this few ppl make their effect to com liao... hav a wounderfull dinner wif them.. n took some photos... after eating went to bugis de arcade dear n alex both play the car together but koni side hav to wait.. in the end onli my dear n alex manage to play nia... hahaha

play game liao we go eat ice cream.. nice nice leh... coz koni hav to work tomm so she cant join mi le.. so sad... head down to just d place to meet up my bro... was my sister celebration too wo... quite a num of ppl de.. i was drink drank drunk le... hahahah coz too happy... hav a cake this yr dear buy for mi de...nice nice leh... thanz dear muacks.. after that went down orchard plaza wif his friend lor... unable to join jace they all... so meet them up at geylang lor 15 to eat... that time i already seh seh liao le... hahahahha long time never like that liao.. happy leh.. btw thanz those who came down... :) n wish myself a very happy birthday

em... feel like blogging now.. yesh will be getting my bike soon le.. hahahah happy.. but no pillion for now yet... gonna get used to it 1st... gonig to see bike coming sat wif dear... but sad is his bike gonna returned back liao... no money to pay... acturelly was disappointed wif him le... coz wad he done to mi lor... wad i say he dun listen in the end he suffer like taht no one can help him le...

btw celebrating my birthday coming sat be going to steamboat 1st befor heading down to lot 1 de just d place... nice place after mu.. coz techno n life band... n i can gather all the mu ppl again over there... all my belove sis n bro.. wee u wee leh.. cant wait till that day..1 more days to go...

tomm maybe going for ktv session wif apple... yeah my friend will gather again./... how i wish i am freedom again.. so i can go jb wif my friends.. haiz.. n my bikers day...

em... lately things happened between mi n him dunno is it my problem or his... coz i find both of us more n more hard to communicate le... just dun feel good as i am the one working n he dun.. n i persuade him lots of time to look for job but he insisted not too i even help him to look for jobs... i was farstrusted bout this as he gt no more $$ to spend but yet wanan go out wif his friends n leave mi alone .. cant io hav freedom.. no friends to go out wif le.. btw birthdaY COMING so dun think i get anything from him too... btw also nt sure r we still together... heart breaks lots of time.. tears drop lots of time for him he dun seem be care.. been so useless i wish my heart can be as hard as a stone lor.. like that i wont get hurt anymore... haiz.. i believe those guys after him de will sure suffer lots from mi...

y those that like mi de but i just dun like them haiz.. liek that i be more xin fu.. as i will be love.. haiz... life r so unpridictorble.. think weekends gonna stay home liao...

yest is my boy birthday went marina steamboat to eat.. give him the watch n also brought a ice cream cake for him.. guess he spend alot yest... btw he is happy this yr coz more ppl to celebrate for him... thanz to those who take out the time to celebrate for him.. thanz.. :)

he love the watch i give him.. haha after steamboat went to boat quey to drink go rab bar there.. was nice... drink quite alots of beer... but still ok lah... guess gonan be fat liao.. bloated wif beer... after that went tpy to eat lor... but i very full so never eat le... hahahah was very tired super tired till i cannot take it den ask dear send mi home liao le... hahaha

later meeting boy boy again... hahah

life is so boring... btw its august now... yest went for movie 881..wif my dear meet up wif william n his wife at cine coz they watch rush hour 3.. both r nice show worth watching..hahah next wed is my darling birthday le.. old liao wo... got him a present of $100+ hope he will like it lor... n i specially go n wrap up for him wo... nice.. think getting a cake for him too wo... give him surprise... maybe going to marina for steamboat.. he call his bro to go too wo.. hope it wont be like last yr bah...

after that will be my bday at sept le..so happy.. haven think of where to go yet leh... so sian..feel like going somewhere special n not common... hahahaha saving up money for my bike le.. think sooner i getting my own bike le... hahahah nice nice.. but after that sure headach liao... haiz... later meeting my dear go out liao.. shop shop..

so lnog never post le abit lazy leh.... btw lots of unhappy things happened but dun wish to mention here.. finally my bf found a day job... happy for him ..but its one month onli.. haiz... but better den nothing..

its sat today going out to watch movie but not sure wad show yet... jio mostl of the ppl go but think in the end just mi n koni n our bf go nia... coz the other gers watch themself... so seprate ways...

my bf n joey de bf bei gam thats y we also never go out le... but now my bf ok wif that but her side dunwan.. aiyo.. we gers meet up also difficult bo bian who ask her bf so quite... those ppl noe my bf will noe his charector too he love to talk... n he hates ppl that is quite n dun talk de... so things happened... after all her bf also not our type of friend bah... bo bian he still young leh... army guy mah..


working life is just so sian but i find my working life enjoyable coz i found a job i really like n we hav diff projects to do... so its not boring to do.. i find it sian onli if theres nothing to do lor... list i can learn more if i do more... hahah last month i got my 1 month bonus n this month my pay gonna rise but not sure how much yet... really very happy leh after a yr in the company finally i see some improvement in myself too.. n the boss treat us good...

wanna find a part time job also diff coz my bf ask him acc him work at nite leh... haiz... so sad no $$ wanna buy my bike n coming oct bah... i must get it.. i pass my bike long ago le but no bike very sian de... hahahaah looking up for my bike bah..

i miss my sister lots but all attached liao now... good.. but also bad... coz hardly meet up le.. but for mi i still ok de... coz i am freedom de.. anywhere i can go.. hahahah

so late le... just finish talking wif joey bout an hour ago... hahaha now listening to some nice song.. hahaha btw father day coming le... n its the same day on william wedding dinner that day lor.. sad.. now no money waiting for my money to com in lor.. si bei sian.. no where to go...

dear dear also no money liao le wo... both jia sai liao.. hahah bored no where to go also.. think he slp le bah.. today is sat n i got no place to go.. mirical lor.. coz i used to chiong or go out on fri,sat de... sometimes even public holiday.. now hardly chiong le.. so lifestyle change le... hahaha not much to blog coz its the same old boring day..

back at home le... meet up wif kel usure went for dinner... few days befor was having some quarrell.. acturelly after reading koni de blog i feel the storey happened between mi n kel had also become theirs.. n its totally same..

but slowly i realise to love a person is not that easy.. if he can put in all his trust in u y should u do something to make him dun trust u.. for once already alot le.. n he started to feel that u lie to him once there will be another one.. n so on.. so never lie to him again or the thing will onli be breaking up. u r not hurting him but urself too.. because of our playfullness n we give up this r/s do u think is worth it?? time is not a matter most important is the time u guys spend together n so on.. if u lose a good one u wont noe when there will be someone to replace him.

i do love kel i can say but just because of taht time i lie to him n he totally change to a diff n he dun dare to put his 100% in mi le.. so until now i dun feel that kel is loving mi more den i do. so i always get to quarrel wif him. yes he do love mi but not like befor le. the tone action everything change. so its really serious once u make him dun trust u le u may just lose him 4ever.

so koni he love u thats y he give u so many chance but did u ever treasure him u hav to ask him the question. if u r really playfull n dunwan to settle down den u got to let him go.as from wad he told u le wad he wan... maybe coz of the lie u made make him more strict on u ba. but u also cant blame him.. coz kel is doing the same thing on mi. so i also never club le. sometime onli go out wif friend talk talk onli.. hahahah so u really must think carefully coz u cant hav both at the same time.. onli can choose play or love... this is just wad i think n giving u some tips. after all u all onli 3 mth.. but mi going to a yr le.. so its hard for mi to give up. so thats all i can advice le. good luck.

hahahahah.. i am here again.. miss lots of update. today is sat le... so sad my blog no song.. my blog editer do half way run away liao lor.. kns hahahahaha

yest was a happy night for myself.. coz some reason but wont say it here.

meet up wif my boy boy yesterday again... we r fine le after wad happened the day befor... hahaha

my life now really got no freedom.. haiz so sad cant go out wif my usure friends..so i securifly lot le.. my friend my family n more.. thats how life goes.. if u love a person u hav to give in ur time de. btw our 1yr annivessary coming up very soon on the 9JUNE hahahahah thats the date.. hahahaha hapyp dunno wad to get for my dear dear...

tonight gonna meet up again wif my dear but no where to go coz no $$ so sian..

i wanted to go out wif my biker friend coz they ask mi out but how am i suppose to do so?? but i did hav the urge to go out wfi them long time never meet le.. my apple they all miss them lots lots... also miss my bball friend my sec sch friend n more... haiz..

guess when i hav my freedom back i will be that lifely n cheerful mi again.. wait till taht day ba

long time never blog le... currently mood is very bad... feeling down.. meet my dear bout 9 plus.. after saw him at 1st mood was ok but after that after some talking my mood totally went down.. dun feel like talking n i try to hide my tears from him... wanted to go to east cost to cool down my mood but who noes on the way to east cost his friend call him say wad bring him go to woodland lor.. he say will send mi home 1st... wow at that point of mood my tears started to drop down untile it reached my block i cant control anymore.. n he saw mi cry but i just walk n walk away back home... acturelly i think of lots of things.. expecially when i try to put in the effect but he dun seem to appreciate it... i can say i change quite alot for him but.. n wad i wan back is just a happiness n his caring for mi... dun little things quarrel lor.. n for him to understand mi well... thast all.. sometimes we may also quarrel over money but i mostly give in le.. now i really dunno wad i get from him lor.. after so long of relationship i really dun understand him any more he can change any time he like lor... but i cant.. coz i already fall for him le.. theres no turning back.. if i am last time de mi.. i believe i can do that but not now.. now my life is full of tears instead of happiness.. friends may though i am the xin fu one.. but i can say its a torture to mi.. maybe i can say now i am the one that hurts the most... to him its nothing... even i am not wif bhim any more also like that... life has become meaningless to mi le. i am just like a dog to him.. he say wad i must listen... haiz.. i find myself useless.. totally useless.. even if i cry also like that.. pain also myself choose de... hope we will end somedays.. maybe till the day my heart is really dead bah... haiz...

its CNY~!~! think everyone should be having lots of ang bao now coz for mi i really get alot more den any other years... all thanz to my dear dear coz he bring mi to diff places to bai nian wo... hahaha lets talk about nian 30 wan...

went to dear de sister house at yishun after my dinner at home... too a train there den dear fetch mi to her sis house.. stay there for awhile her mum n her sis both give mi ang bao.. hahaha after that we went to william gf house to play poker... together wif zhi wei n ning lor... till the morning 6 am loss quite alot of money but nvm lah... 1 yr one time onli... den dear was quite tired also le... same goes to mi.. went home den fall asleep liao...

nian chu yi....

wake up early bian nian tyo my mum 1st den meet up wif dear dear and go to his mum house for lunched but he wake up late... den we go bai nian wif his mum n uncle.. together wif boy boy.. his sis son... em... 1st we went to boy boy den father house at hougang den headed to his gu ma house at telok blangar... wow his gu ma also cook quite alot of food... at 1st we reached his gu ma house not much ppl after that slowly all the ppl came.. n all of them got give us ang bao... good sia total we took 6 ang bao from there... hahahahah soon after the visit we went back to yishun. coz dear meeting his friend andy at chun dao he pan... reached there 10 plus we hav a walk over there but it seem so boring nothing to see nor play de... so they went lao pa sa to eat.... after that home sweet home..

nian chu er...

also wake up early... was raining so meet up wif dear abit late... while on the way to william gf house was raining cats n dogs on the high way sia... when we reached yishun dear was already wet... but nvm dear went up to her house n dry up the clothes... also they invited wu shi to there house... n the person that wu shi tou one is ah boy... their cousin... hahaha so qiao sia... after that went to find her mum at joo seng there... went up to dear mum de friend house they give us ang bao too... but we stay for awhile onli den headed to bishan his good bro house to bai nian... hahah his friend also give us ang bao sia... so good... we went for dinner together wif his wife... chit chat abit den headed to ming de house play poker again.. she live just beside my block... so near onli... hahahahahah at 1st win but in the end lose money sian lor... haiz... but they also got lose lah... play till 2 plus den go home le.. n now i am home to blog.. sian left one more day n i going back to work liao le... haiz...

tomm going eat steamboat at friend house... hahahahah see wad i will post next after tomm bah... continue later..

wow really been some time since i last blog wo... today is valentine day here i wish all the couple happy valentine day.. today went out wif joey go shop for her valentine day present for her boy... so brought a pierre cardin wallet for him while i get a shirt for my dear.. after that she went back home while i still hang around at far east plaza... sooner dear reached le.. he fetch mi to his house n i pass him the present... n yet he give me a suprise too cos i never though he will get a present for mi.. n its my favour pigglet wo.. i really appreciate that wo... thanz darling..

going joey house for steamboat on chu san of the new yr.. coz her parents invited us so we going lor... also my nite job i quited already.. coz of some reason n dear dunwan mi to work also... n thats lots of thing happened also recently... bad n good all kind leh.... nowi really feel very xin fu le.. coz i noe my feelings well now..

New yr is round the corner too here i wish all people Happy Chinese New Year too get many ang bao n dun forget mine also wo...

above is me n my darling de photo... its been 8 month le... its last year de on my birthday time... so sweet right... so far i haven update any photo.. maybe next time round bah... hahaha i miss all my friends... hahaha btw clubbing i also wanna cut down le.. earn money 1st... hahahahah

next week also going for my bike pract le... gonan be fast this time round...
:)

hahaha.. lets talk bout yest... its really a long storey to say here wo... yest meet up wif sis joey she came to my house.. den we went for a dinner after that at cine leisure... saw xiao fei n his gf also.. n the ke ai xiao bu dian.. hahaha cute sia... after eating we go walk walk lor coz still early mah... go n find xiao xuan again at heeren ... i tell her our last time de photo very funny lor.. totally change alot sia... she become more lian n chio le wo.. envy her leh.. den we head down to mu n meet charles there lor.. happened to saw li juan , stacy, li ping n li ting over there... ah boy also.. much more fun yest.. lots of ppl was there sia... dear dear n joey bf daven also got com find us sia... hahahah good good leh.. as usure we dance on the dance floor... jace com n find us too after that..

while i was talking wif my friend upstair.. suddenly was li ting n li ping upstair i though wad was happening sia.. in the end is that group of siao char bo finding trouble again... the jeremy de ex bian tai one... dunno y they just love to find trouble.. haha but the end end also say sorry to li ting lor.. so?? u r the one finding trouble in the end say lan jiao wei.. kns..

was really busy the whole nite coz val also got go down to mu n things happened again after she was drunk.. guess wad he n that bastard daryll almost fight sia.. of coz i run to tell kelvin quickly lah... coz is a chance i see PUA CHU TENG like that mah.. hahah after that val de so call bf wanan beat him lor.. but bouncer hold him down.. the bouncer also chee bye de bo dai bo ji go n pull ppl shirt for fuck sia.. kel already clam him down le le still go n pull for wad sia.. aftert hat kel they all sit outside phonix hotel... that time william also reached le... haha thought got show see in the end wasted... coz dear call ah boy ask bastard daryll go up n talk sia.. in the end also still hav to say sorry to val again.. if not i think val de so call bf gonna hit him very hard lor.. haah coz kel also bei song him le.. since last time.. think he still got face at mu meh??? kns.. with that bitch wawa together no used de... u guys better stop staring at us ok.. or else it wont be so easy lor.. see see see dig out ur eye den u guys noe.. NB~!~!

after mu went to prata shop for some bit.. saw that bastard n bitch again so suey sia... just imagine last time n now?? so much diff we used to be in a group now onli him n her?? hahah so funny sia... kel also saw him.. he accidently used helmet bang into him de lor.. i thought bastard is always so fierce de??? n this time so quiet leh?? though he say reason de??? xia suey his di tao lor... no used de... luckly i leave him early... if not i think i already bank up liao le... tu tou bei bei u also hav ur retribution ar... hahaahah simply just fuck off from mi n my friend lor.. in my eye u r just a piece of shit.. now den i noe wad my friend say r right my eye really ta stamp n its those very BIG de stamp lor... hahahahaha... go back home train few more yrs lah .. wan to com out play dun play till xia suey ur di tao lah.. plz... fuck man... at list i am happy coz he tio one heng is xiao val onli.,.. id his bf alex com out do u think he will bf let off so easy mah??? think alex used bottle n smash him liao lah.. hahahahahahah... btw just feel angry n happy n song.. hahahaha

realyl very long never blog le.. guess u guys should wanna noe wad am i doing nowadays~!~! hahaha currently i am busy wif my part n full time jobs that means i am having 2 jobs... my nite jobs is onli weekdays.. n its a pub at concourse... its a nice place.. n the cust over there r very friendly n treat mi well.. $7/hr.. hahaha em... i work tehre for 3 days n i been earning $180+ over.. its really a good money earning place.. n its just for a short worknig hour... hahahaha i gain wad i wan n i work for wad i wan... n its $$$$..

i also fullfill my other wish is to pass my pract 5 n i did it.. finally i can go for road riding le... n after that my TP~!~! n i will get my licence... wee u wee... think i be having a bike really soon... slowly i wont hav time to club le.. onli working n $$ also my BF plus sister in my life no one eals... n my boy is getting his licence for 2A. will be changing his bike in few monthes time too.. yeah.. its seems everythings is going good in my life now~!~! but one bad thing i am still fat.. but nvm...

tomm is sat... dunno where to go.. coz its my off days... i just came back for a movie wif heng joey my dear n mi... watch the show dunno wad name.. mi n my dear fall aslppe in the cinema.. coz its really too tired.. both of us r having 2 jobs each thats y... very soon joey will join mi le... thats good ar... its really worth working in concourse pub den in other pubs... no fight n ti ko pek~!~! but more drinks n friends around there... the boss treat us good too... n transport back home... i treasure this job... really~!~! jia you..

guys wait for my bike to be out hahahah