haiz.. now feelinfg abit headach after work.. sian been sick for few days... guess gonna get fever le.. coz i feel hot n cold... how i wish my boy si wif mi... really miss him lots... yest never meet him... but he change le no longer the same as i 1st noe him.. of coz i dun expect him to be totally same... at list spend abti more time for mi... go out wif mi n i am happy le... of coz not everyday meet also lah... he will feel bored too... when i cry alone in my rom who noes... when i am lonely who noes??? wad i need is his care for mi... yest nite afetr reading through the msg he send to mi when we 1st together i really feel very sad n my tears just roll down from my eye... u noe the feeling its so hurt.... y do ppl change so easily... some more mi n him can talk till morning last time but now not even 15min lor... wads a big diff right... wad topic he also not interested in den how??? i am ur gf not ur friend leh... thought ppl say starting dun be so close so good but i already commit... y cant u just show mi more???? u say i change but i guess i change to good n not bad... i give him freedom all he wants... wad else i am just asknig him to give mi more times y cant is it very difficult??? does he noe my feeling??? he dun coz i never tell him befor coz i noe he dun like... his charector is very clear cut to mi lor... he dun love to talk but i do... unless he dun love mi if not y always leave mi alone in teh dark??? at 1st was so sweet i really hope that would last but y in all relationship either side will change n wont stay???? or the opposit change after ... haiz... got words also cant say to him n onli can write down my sadness n complain here.... really very xin ku lor.... y love a person its so hard n its hard to remain the relationship... i start to lose hope in this relationship.... but i will maintain it till teh end n one day i cant le i would give up...

now the problem is he dun even talk much bout his thing... how am i to noe wad his thinking.. n now i also hardly go his house le.. coz he say he wanna slp more.. when i hear it i totally sink lor... my heart was been stub by a knife lor... its really hurt... but of coz i understand it coz he work late de... haiz... i really dunno wad to say n do le.. just let it be..