Finally i can used back my blog le.. goodness.. hahahah em... this week been staying at my boy house... but abit pai seh leh... haiz... actually sometimes i feel happy n sad... dunno y... the feeling is so unexplainable... haiz... when we meet up we can talk n play around didturbe each other.. but during working hours i find we like stranger he no longer like last time sms mi or call mi le.. dunno y... hate this kind of feelings... but of coz i wont show out infront of him coz we just started this relstionship... n 5 more days will be our 1mth annivessary... guess to him its nothing ba coz he dun care n dun even bother.. but for mi its diff... i care alto n it means alot to mi... i believe everyone would like to spend the day wif ur love ones on that day.. even a simple dinner also would make u feel happy right of coz i dun expect any thing from him... haiz..

but i understand he gonna work but i believe its not a excuss n i try not to think so much le... wad ever bad things i can think off i just put aside n keep it to myself coz i wanna avoid quarrel but indeed he dun understand mi well now.. hope in future he will.. after all compare wif kel he is good lah.. but the joy the time everything he cant give mi... but i hav to accept everything coz i really love him... he dote on mi.. also bring a new mi again n leave the past.. i dun wish to read his mine coz i noe i may end up a bad ending by guessing wrong... he say as long we r happy den ok lor... dunno how he thinks till now.. coz we really dun hav much time spend together... even weekend he gonna work.. haiz.. guess its gonan continue haiz.. life is misirable