Its been awhile since we last saperate... its been hard for me to not think anything bout him & the time we spend together... at times tears will just drop down from my eye... its really painful. been trying to forget but when i am alone his image start to appear.. my love for him is still the same... although i do lie to him befor but... i just dunwant to lost contact with my friends... two things for me to choose but i can only choose one... its been very cruel..if times can turn back.. i would not let that photos show in my com... its all my mistake... i hope he could forget me... now although his not by my side but my heart will still love me only until the day i don't love him then i will forget bout him & start a new life..

love a person is really terrible...

Went in JB today with him... although we dint talk as much as befro but den the feel is still strongly in my heart 1st thing when i say him tears drop down in the car... of coz i try to control myself but i cant. coz thats my feeling... 1yr 3mth relationship just ended for nothing.. actually we are very happy for the past 1 yr just recently he become so different.. actually i think alot of things that could make him this way but i try to convince myself not to believe..

went to his cousin shop... after that he bring me to eat porridge near by very nice... this kind of feeling can only find in him.. coz he really treat me the best of all... i think onli i still got feel for him ba.. coz i a very devoted person & get hurt easily especially my love one...

i think is because of our mindset is different bah... but i really reaLLy love him... but wad can i do now?? cry everyday??? sad everyday?? it just make my life meseriable i dunwan... but can i forget everything or treat everything never happened befor??? i cant right.. the picture will keep appearing in my mind everytime.... i dunno if i will go crazy not...

Haiz... he ask me to forget bout him... of coz i also noe but say is so easy... everyone can say.. not say forget den forget right... if i am those play play type of coz i will but i am not... Love Hurts...

Today had a busy day in office... dun have time to rest at all.. mind was been occupied. haiz... 4th day missing him... keep thinking... after at home.. how... cant control myself... haiz..

today is the 3rd day without him... been thking of him... but haiz... wanted to msg him but den i dun dare to as i think no used & no point also.. think i really need times to heel myself lor... tomm going powerhouse.. but seriously i think back i dunno y he must restrict me so much not say i will do anything unfaithfull to him wad... haiz.. y cant he just trust me & believe me afetr so long den he tell me he dun trust me i really feel hurt & sad... haiz... tomm is friday.. dunno how am i got to spend my 1st weekend without him... coz its been so long that my weekend was with him & now its like totally gone le. got to be alone... miss those happy days...

Today is my 2nd day without him with me... feeling so different.. but nowi can onli used work to filled up my life without him... dunno how will the days be without him for another week...

Today is a sad day for me... coz its my official break off with my bf... its been 1yr 3month. although i cant bare to let go but still we need a ending. he also think throught it that this relationship cant go on.. as he is those conservative kind of perosn while i hate to been control by him. think this the best decision for both of us... so now i regain my single life le...

so now i can do wad i want... for time been i want to be wad i am & not control by guys le... so gers free ask mi out wo... i dunno i will take how long to forget this relationship but i noe i wont cry for him anymore.... to maintain a relationship its not easy. but if he dun suits you better let go if not both will hurt more.... just like me... as i noe this relationship wont last but i keep on insisted. in the end both are hurt... haiz...

Yesterday is Valantine days... had a meal with my dear at warAKU east coast park. luckly we went earlier if not many ppl lor... my bf lost his job and now his very depress i dun do anything but onli can help him with wad i can.. last nite at his house lying on his bed he told mi that actually he wanted a break up with mi after today coz he dunwan mi to lead a unhappy life with him he dunwan mi to suffer... but when i hear that my tears roll down from my eye. to mi so long we r together happy and thats it.. money wise we can earn ma... so long our heart is together i believed we will lead a good life... i not those who onli go for $$$ wad i wan is a guy that truely love mi treasure mi & spend my whole life together...

after the talk he change his mind and keep back his words i believe wad i done did touched his heart ba... thanz my dear...

yeah next month march will be going to dragon fly with my good friends for a chill long time never go le... he must enjoy ourself k... yeah..