haiz... was real sad.. when i wake up i cry again... haiz went ktv wif my ex bf.. although i noe he still like mi but also cant turn back the time le.. coz he dunwan mi 1st.. now become ppl dunwan mi.. haiz this is wad i hav done last time maybe.. so i get back the same thing.. this morning i called him.. we did talk.. but of coz i talk nicely wif him.. at that moment how i was i can call him dear but i cant anymore.. coz another ger has replace mi in his heart... acturelly i never give up but out of sudden alex called mi up.. ask mi how i am.. he still care for mi as befor talk to mi.. but i noe how he feels coz he still like mi... darlyy is his tao a.. he hav to respect him too.. but he like mi too.. so he was like been stuck in the center.. if he can help mi n daryll get back together i promise he wan mi to do wad i also willing lor.. acturelly i keep telling myself i wont feel sad when i saw him but i guess i cant lor.. but i still hav to face him i hope he wont bring his gf along to club.. if not i really go crazy... btw after talking to alex.. i was quite happy de i thought i will hav chance again... but after thinking i also dunno..

today he ask mi to give up on him... i really dunno wad to say.. wad i can do now is to stay by his side to take care of him.. he may not be my bf anymore but i still care for him de.. now his happy none can control him le.. how can he noe that the ger his having wont control him?? i dunno taht all this is my fault.. i really wan him back lor... i dunno how to say..