A tired day for me, feeling so sleep since i wake up this morning eye keep wanting to close.. this few days gonna wear slipper le as my toe nail drop off.. sad... actually feeling moody & down after msg with him.. guess i have given him a very bad impression although i should not have such reaction but i cant help it.. automatic will come into my mind.. we should keep a distance from now.. just stay as normal friend bah... as we wont have any starting point at all.. just feel that he is just curious and solving puzzel on me.. does not really think i am his friend bah.. maybe even worse den friend. he can do wadever thing he like but i hope he really wont play me off.. i know he have lots of friend but i can be his close friend too talk bout anything.. i dun ask for much just simple friendship, if we cant be together den forget it just leave it. but i dun feel we are even friend anymore.. feeling abit stupid.. but wad to do.. be neutral lor.. haiz.. gonna slp soon very tired..

Its sunday gonna work tomorrow again, Last friday was gary bday celebration at pub 88. it was fun & pack with ppl, jeremy & his good buddy came to our pub too but sky dint able to make it as he have company event to attend. They open one btl of martell & stay throughout, jeremy was quite high i guess also because of his gf ba, so one of his good buddy call sky to come & take care of him but seriously i dun see there is a need also. but of coz i am happy but den also some sort disappointed too. hahah so they went back after that while me, jace & alfred go to malaysia eat & petrol. wad a tired day.

Few month Never EnTer my blog... hahah lots of things happend. broke off my with bf 1 month ago. been dragging & dragging so finally we still break off. 1 yr 7mth of relation just 1 day everything is gone.. can see how much time we spend & efford put in just 1 day it become ash... its really cruel.. But nvm since we dun suits must well just let each other go if you really love him/her.

Recently get to noe a new guy em... i shell not mention his name. but he just give me a very good feeling bah.. maybe very close friend? thought we only know each other for like less than a month, dint even meet up offen. but his liking is same as mine too... Clubbing, Sporting, everything can talk about. but he got many things to do have to take care of his family & friends cum study and work.. can see how hard working he is, a family minded guy is good as he will take care of his family. but Cooking still not sure.. lol.. after all his a cheerful guy i guess but reply things super slow & lag... He dint want to get into a relationship its understandable as i mention aboved his too busy to get into a relationship. Be his gf must really be prepared to get less accompany from him until his study finish. lol..

Let stop talking bout him coz we only ment to be good friend lol...
Lets talk bout myself, currently having 2 jobs a full time day job & a part time nite job with my sister working ay pub888.. the ppl there are friendly & pay is good. to earn more i got to work more... cant be lazy... hahahah very busy with work, everytime got to rush for submission make me feel stress at time. Never had a good rest... Feeling tired everyday after work.. need more rest each day... BTW planning for my crab outing.. hahahaha

Its been awhile since we last saperate... its been hard for me to not think anything bout him & the time we spend together... at times tears will just drop down from my eye... its really painful. been trying to forget but when i am alone his image start to appear.. my love for him is still the same... although i do lie to him befor but... i just dunwant to lost contact with my friends... two things for me to choose but i can only choose one... its been very cruel..if times can turn back.. i would not let that photos show in my com... its all my mistake... i hope he could forget me... now although his not by my side but my heart will still love me only until the day i don't love him then i will forget bout him & start a new life..

love a person is really terrible...

Went in JB today with him... although we dint talk as much as befro but den the feel is still strongly in my heart 1st thing when i say him tears drop down in the car... of coz i try to control myself but i cant. coz thats my feeling... 1yr 3mth relationship just ended for nothing.. actually we are very happy for the past 1 yr just recently he become so different.. actually i think alot of things that could make him this way but i try to convince myself not to believe..

went to his cousin shop... after that he bring me to eat porridge near by very nice... this kind of feeling can only find in him.. coz he really treat me the best of all... i think onli i still got feel for him ba.. coz i a very devoted person & get hurt easily especially my love one...

i think is because of our mindset is different bah... but i really reaLLy love him... but wad can i do now?? cry everyday??? sad everyday?? it just make my life meseriable i dunwan... but can i forget everything or treat everything never happened befor??? i cant right.. the picture will keep appearing in my mind everytime.... i dunno if i will go crazy not...

Haiz... he ask me to forget bout him... of coz i also noe but say is so easy... everyone can say.. not say forget den forget right... if i am those play play type of coz i will but i am not... Love Hurts...

Today had a busy day in office... dun have time to rest at all.. mind was been occupied. haiz... 4th day missing him... keep thinking... after at home.. how... cant control myself... haiz..

today is the 3rd day without him... been thking of him... but haiz... wanted to msg him but den i dun dare to as i think no used & no point also.. think i really need times to heel myself lor... tomm going powerhouse.. but seriously i think back i dunno y he must restrict me so much not say i will do anything unfaithfull to him wad... haiz.. y cant he just trust me & believe me afetr so long den he tell me he dun trust me i really feel hurt & sad... haiz... tomm is friday.. dunno how am i got to spend my 1st weekend without him... coz its been so long that my weekend was with him & now its like totally gone le. got to be alone... miss those happy days...