just back meeting my boy.. today is a bad day for mi my mood n just very down now feeling very sad n lost...

1st meet up wif my boy at his work place i was sitting there alone soon after that raymond came n follow by shuan so decided to go bedok 85 eat.. but just when we turn out from his out place the floor was slippery i try to brake le but i too kan chiong go n throtter in the end bang letter box... luckly never kena my friend.. just coz of that been say by my bf at that moment i feel like crying out le... but list he ask how am i that make mi feel better... when reached bedok 85 he keep saying i almost cant control myself liao le... but i still hold on..

i really feel very left out n extra in the group le... when i was a pillion i still dun feel taht way onli when i ride i start to feel that... y does big bike always hiam small bike all also bike wad?? n who dun make mistake?? i already prepered for the worse le since the day i decide to ride so nothing scared mi... but is the feeling that u guys let mi feel so unbearable.. my wish com true le but i dun feel happy at all... wads the point??? why my bf dun understand my feeling?? i enjoy going out wif them i am happy when i hear them comments on my mistake but plz i may be a newbie but i still ur friends right??

really feelnig down dunno wad will i do when i ride while i am feelnig down maybe die on the road also dunno...