moodY n saD..

just com bAck fRom perlin noT lOng ago.. vEry noT feelinG gOod tOdAY lOtS thingS hAppeneD.. haiz... btW sTiLL hav to tHaNz pAuL alOtS./.. sOrry fOR tHe tRoublE..

com bAck jUsT sAw thE frieNdSteR rEading throUgh his tEsTI.. n sAW that geR wRoTe hIm a tEsTi again... wAiteD hIM fOR sO lOnG buT iN tHe enD i geT nothing.. aM i too silLy??? buT i cant bArE tO sEe hIm aLone..bUT i jusT get jEalOuSe tOO eAsily.. n tHE gEr sHE jusT noE oNlI.. i aGrEed she iS morE pRetTy n sExy bUt sO wAd?? i duN gIve iT tO dAme.. sExy dance??? wHo dUnno.. kAO.. is tHe nIcE mEmOries goInG to eNd hErE?? i duN wIsH toO.. aLthOugh i wAn hE tO groWn mAture but not wanteD hIm tO noe dIff gErs... i rEalLy saD n hurT wHeN i saW thaT.. when i asK hiM did hE saW tHaT gEr buT hE cLamE tHaT he dUN... i Was sO sad Sad sAd :(... nO mOod tO dAncE.. n now mY moOs iS lOw.. maybE tHiS tImE i Am tHE one whO gOnna Mia BaH.. bTw aFtER sO lOnG hE sTiLl duN gEt mY fEeling?? mAybe i dUN hardLY sHow bah... hAiz.. i wish i cAN pRoTact hiM... iF i aM around i wOnT aLloW any gErs oR gUys to bUlly hiM dE.. anyoNe does i make sUre hE dIe... BuT if tHE gEr wAs hIs cHoice i got nOthing tO do buT to sit oNe cOrner n wIsh tHeM aLl the bEsT bAH... reLatIoNsHiP r lIkE tHaT... bUt i sTilL wisH hE cAn bE tHe oNE tHaT i lIkE lasT tImE bAh.. btW wHeN i rEciEvE tHaT msG froM him i was really upsaD... n feelinG bad lOR.. hOW caN hE sAy tHaT??? wHen i never sAy i am nOt gOinG??? n do u tHinK i wIll lEaVE hIM aLone??? hE jUsT dUN undeRstanD mI well... sInce wheN i lEave hIm alonE?? but eVerytImE i sAw hIM i fEel hAppy n gOt mOod... bUt cUrrEnTlY things start to changE.. i msg hIM nO reply lE.. all thanz to tHaT oncoMinG ger SelEnE~!~!

FuCK mEN... i reaLly fEeL sUX... n i feel sO lonelY nOW...y things alwAys hAPpEned oN mi??? hAiZ.. love hurts... i rUtheR chOose to bE love dEN tO lOve.. but tHiS tImE i canT as i aLrEady choOsen hIM le... i aDmIt tHaT i lIkE hiM.. bUt dEN i hAv no cOuragE tO tell hIM... think if hE sAw this blog hE wIll uNdersTaND dE.. aS my feelinG fOR hIM nevEr fAde bEfoR... n HiS tHe 1ST....