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2010-04-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

A tired day for me, feeling so sleep since i wake up this morning eye keep wanting to close.. this few days gonna wear slipper le as my toe nail drop off.. sad... actually feeling moody & down after msg with him.. guess i have given him a very bad impression although i should not have such reaction but i cant help it.. automatic will come into my mind.. we should keep a distance from now.. just stay as normal friend bah... as we wont have any starting point at all.. just feel that he is just curious and solving puzzel on me.. does not really think i am his friend bah.. maybe even worse den friend. he can do wadever thing he like but i hope he really wont play me off.. i know he have lots of friend but i can be his close friend too talk bout anything.. i dun ask for much just simple friendship, if we cant be together den forget it just leave it. but i dun feel we are even friend anymore.. feeling abit stupid.. but wad to do.. be neutral lor.. haiz.. gonna slp soon very tired..

2010-04-04T19:48:00.000+08:00

Its sunday gonna work tomorrow again, Last friday was gary bday celebration at pub 88. it was fun & pack with ppl, jeremy & his good buddy came to our pub too but sky dint able to make it as he have company event to attend. They open one btl of martell & stay throughout, jeremy was quite high i guess also because of his gf ba, so one of his good buddy call sky to come & take care of him but seriously i dun see there is a need also. but of coz i am happy but den also some sort disappointed too. hahah so they went back after that while me, jace & alfred go to malaysia eat & petrol. wad a tired day.

2010-03-29T21:48:00.001+08:00

2010-03-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

2010-03-29T21:16:00.003+08:00

Few month Never EnTer my blog... hahah lots of things happend. broke off my with bf 1 month ago. been dragging & dragging so finally we still break off. 1 yr 7mth of relation just 1 day everything is gone.. can see how much time we spend & efford put in just 1 day it become ash... its really cruel.. But nvm since we dun suits must well just let each other go if you really love him/her.

Recently get to noe a new guy em... i shell not mention his name. but he just give me a very good feeling bah.. maybe very close friend? thought we only know each other for like less than a month, dint even meet up offen. but his liking is same as mine too... Clubbing, Sporting, everything can talk about. but he got many things to do have to take care of his family & friends cum study and work.. can see how hard working he is, a family minded guy is good as he will take care of his family. but Cooking still not sure.. lol.. after all his a cheerful guy i guess but reply things super slow & lag... He dint want to get into a relationship its understandable as i mention aboved his too busy to get into a relationship. Be his gf must really be prepared to get less accompany from him until his study finish. lol..

Let stop talking bout him coz we only ment to be good friend lol...
Lets talk bout myself, currently having 2 jobs a full time day job & a part time nite job with my sister working ay pub888.. the ppl there are friendly & pay is good. to earn more i got to work more... cant be lazy... hahahah very busy with work, everytime got to rush for submission make me feel stress at time. Never had a good rest... Feeling tired everyday after work.. need more rest each day... BTW planning for my crab outing.. hahahaha

2009-10-31T15:25:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile since we last saperate... its been hard for me to not think anything bout him & the time we spend together... at times tears will just drop down from my eye... its really painful. been trying to forget but when i am alone his image start to appear.. my love for him is still the same... although i do lie to him befor but... i just dunwant to lost contact with my friends... two things for me to choose but i can only choose one... its been very cruel..if times can turn back.. i would not let that photos show in my com... its all my mistake... i hope he could forget me... now although his not by my side but my heart will still love me only until the day i don't love him then i will forget bout him & start a new life..

love a person is really terrible...

2009-09-26T21:22:00.002+08:00

Went in JB today with him... although we dint talk as much as befro but den the feel is still strongly in my heart 1st thing when i say him tears drop down in the car... of coz i try to control myself but i cant. coz thats my feeling... 1yr 3mth relationship just ended for nothing.. actually we are very happy for the past 1 yr just recently he become so different.. actually i think alot of things that could make him this way but i try to convince myself not to believe..

went to his cousin shop... after that he bring me to eat porridge near by very nice... this kind of feeling can only find in him.. coz he really treat me the best of all... i think onli i still got feel for him ba.. coz i a very devoted person & get hurt easily especially my love one...

i think is because of our mindset is different bah... but i really reaLLy love him... but wad can i do now?? cry everyday??? sad everyday?? it just make my life meseriable i dunwan... but can i forget everything or treat everything never happened befor??? i cant right.. the picture will keep appearing in my mind everytime.... i dunno if i will go crazy not...

Haiz... he ask me to forget bout him... of coz i also noe but say is so easy... everyone can say.. not say forget den forget right... if i am those play play type of coz i will but i am not... Love Hurts...

2009-09-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

Today had a busy day in office... dun have time to rest at all.. mind was been occupied. haiz... 4th day missing him... keep thinking... after at home.. how... cant control myself... haiz..

2009-09-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

today is the 3rd day without him... been thking of him... but haiz... wanted to msg him but den i dun dare to as i think no used & no point also.. think i really need times to heel myself lor... tomm going powerhouse.. but seriously i think back i dunno y he must restrict me so much not say i will do anything unfaithfull to him wad... haiz.. y cant he just trust me & believe me afetr so long den he tell me he dun trust me i really feel hurt & sad... haiz... tomm is friday.. dunno how am i got to spend my 1st weekend without him... coz its been so long that my weekend was with him & now its like totally gone le. got to be alone... miss those happy days...

2009-09-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

Today is my 2nd day without him with me... feeling so different.. but nowi can onli used work to filled up my life without him... dunno how will the days be without him for another week...

2009-09-21T20:05:00.003+08:00

Today is a sad day for me... coz its my official break off with my bf... its been 1yr 3month. although i cant bare to let go but still we need a ending. he also think throught it that this relationship cant go on.. as he is those conservative kind of perosn while i hate to been control by him. think this the best decision for both of us... so now i regain my single life le...

so now i can do wad i want... for time been i want to be wad i am & not control by guys le... so gers free ask mi out wo... i dunno i will take how long to forget this relationship but i noe i wont cry for him anymore.... to maintain a relationship its not easy. but if he dun suits you better let go if not both will hurt more.... just like me... as i noe this relationship wont last but i keep on insisted. in the end both are hurt... haiz...

2009-02-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is Valantine days... had a meal with my dear at warAKU east coast park. luckly we went earlier if not many ppl lor... my bf lost his job and now his very depress i dun do anything but onli can help him with wad i can.. last nite at his house lying on his bed he told mi that actually he wanted a break up with mi after today coz he dunwan mi to lead a unhappy life with him he dunwan mi to suffer... but when i hear that my tears roll down from my eye. to mi so long we r together happy and thats it.. money wise we can earn ma... so long our heart is together i believed we will lead a good life... i not those who onli go for $$$ wad i wan is a guy that truely love mi treasure mi & spend my whole life together...

after the talk he change his mind and keep back his words i believe wad i done did touched his heart ba... thanz my dear...

yeah next month march will be going to dragon fly with my good friends for a chill long time never go le... he must enjoy ourself k... yeah..

2008-11-25T23:22:00.002+08:00

Its timE fOr me tO bLoG bOut mY life nOW... its been so long since i last blog... too busy wif my love life liao... hahaha i think he the right guy i wan... but my mum dun seen to like much when we stick together... now he is sick & sleeping at home.. i just finished playing bball wif my old friends that i used to played with now i am really happy.. although they may not be my close friend but when they tell me to play wif them & join them more offen u noe wad appeared in my mind??? they r the onli guys i noe that when things happened they wont run away & leave mi behind they say that they really miss mi cos few yrs dident play bball wif them i bring back the joy & laughter to them.. wad we used to be on the court.. until now we r still good friends..

but yet the closest friend of mine used to be "sister" just done things that really make mi go angry bout it.. ya it may be a small matter but it just show wad kind of friend she is . she may not be bad but just cant imagine she can do that to mi. a 3-4 yrs friend that used to go club together noe guys together do wadever together but dun think negetive please... dunno when she will really grown up & be an mature adults.. i may be good to u be nice to u but just dun take advantage of mi.. for mi i treasure everyone in my life but once i think u r not worth a friend to me den u r not worth any... chances can be given but there is limit to it dun over do it... same to relationship its the way u handle ur own relationship... u do nasty things to ur partner just dun blame them for doing back the same thing.. sometimes human being noe wad they r doing but yet they still do it & noe its wrong when things happened they will start to regrate and its just too late for it.. since u decided to do it in the 1st place dun do it & accept the outcome...

to me now my life is ok althought it may not be as happening as befor but now i am adults i must bare for things i have done... working & earn $$ is important to mi... of coz i found a love one that treats me well & dot on mi.. (but still on probetion) maybe if stable down few years later get married lor... thats wad i wan now... but of coz not forgetting my friend.. when my freetime we will still gather around have dinner shop & talk talk its good enough.. we hav our own life cant be like befor anymore. not say got bf totally forget bout friends its not the way.. i really envy my bf until now he still contact his sch times friend & they r still so good.. how i wish mi too (SO FRIEND OF MINE DO MEET UP OFFEN YA) hahaha now i just wanted to study get a cert & work towards it...

MY LOVE LIFE

Noe my bf for 4mth plus already... in this relationship i learn alot too.. especially when we quarrel how r we going to solve problems.. talk things out nicely dun raise our voice at each other... of coz respect each others... my bf sometimes maybe xiao qi(small gas) but so far he treat me really good.. make mi feel like heaven coz he fetch mi to work off work.. dinner... when i am out wif friends he make the effect to fetch mi home.. once he told me ( i just want to spend more time with you) this words makes mi feel so happy & an xin... his friend say his a good guy.
he likes to stay at home den go out so sometimes i do feel bored but nvm lar after all our hobby is different... but sometimes he wont allow mi go out late de... so sad.. dun allow to meet guys.. so meet him almost everyday... but its not bored at all coz his cute & funny not those boring type both of us like to joke alot.. of coz we noe when to give & take also lar... i think thats the way a relationship should work... u need to set freedom to them & they will never leave u if they really love u... especially guys they will wan more freedom. but my guy different lar dun compare coz he like to stick to mi de... hahah i noe abit ro ma lar... but bo bian its true lar... his parents side relative also see befor le... i am the 1st ger he brought mi to see lor.. i am so happy... hahahah abit tired le... going to slp nite yawns

2008-10-25T22:59:00.010+08:00

hi here to blog again... wow was so tired was supposed to meet dear de but i think he fall asleep already.. today went out wif koni was supposed to meet jace earlier de but she got thing so mi & koni go shop... brought somethings today..

this the present from jace.. love it. althought its late but still thanks

brought some staff with koni at body shop, purchase $85 and above we will get this free... i got this bag coz she hav it already..

this wad wad i brought from the body shop its nice & limited edition

i simply like this cup alotssss being aiming this for lor.. & i like the cute little mouse cover nice right?

actualyl wanted another design but that design left last peices so in the end take a similer one... worth it coz i like it.. for $49 brought it from the taka sales...

& thats all for the day went PS meet jace for dinner at cafe cartal... but a nice meal we order lots of food but cant manage to finished it wad a waste... was wated to go og but dident coz was abit too late already.. so walk walk at ps went Best to see laptop i wanted to buy vieo laptop i just like it... luckly can pay installement with 0% interest wad a nice deal was think to get it or not... haiz... now home sweet home was supposed to go pub de but haiz..

2008-10-25T13:24:00.002+08:00

was happy this few days coz finally dear meet mi le... went for dinner wif his parents that nite can see that dear treasure this relationship when i ask him y this few days he ignore mi he replied " thinking of how not to hurt my feeling & think how to treat mi better" i hear le i really touch lor... yet i keep give him attitude... haiz.. think i should control my attitude too..

he wanted to buy a flat at fernview near jy house $220.000+ & its 22nd floor but the place to mi is very far & wulu lor... to mi i wont choose that place near sengkang area i go town go work go where also not convenien lor... haiz... travel time already can kill mi leh.. i rather pay more to live in town den those wulu place but his mind is set i cant do anything... luckly not my name ar... hahaha his mum also ask us go register married lor omg i dunwan lar... so fast not stable yet.. haiz...

later meeting koni & jace le.. hahah go shop shop

2008-10-21T20:08:00.002+08:00

Today dun have much mood... last nite had a quarrel wif dear again... feeling down totally no mood to eat.. today whole day he never msg mi lor.. haiz... partyly my fault also.. i too childish sometime also.. haiz... :(

Busy WeekEnd

2008-10-20T19:33:00.002+08:00

Friday 17th Oct 08

Had a Busy week end last week... friday celebrate koni bday went sushi tei to eat.. thanz for the treat ar... was nice... too bad onli me ended up celebrating wif here where r the rest of them??? its been so disappointed but after all we enjoy still. went for a movie at cine. its been so long since i last watch movies. after the show i go home le while koni & alan go for their own programmed.. was sad that dear couldent join mi coz he sleeping & go play bowling in the end make mi more sad.. coz 2am he gonna reached his friend house. he become his bro.. so no choice got the acc the groom all the way till morning 7am.. exactly morning 7 plus dear msg mi le...

Sat 18th Oct 08

he come & find mi lor... he had a sleep at my house.. while i wake up at 9am do house work & so on. coz later someone is coming to view my bike coz i am selling it away.. & finally few ppl came last i sold to a uncle he give mi deposit so i went to the biek shop wif him to transfere the name lor.. den went back home.. dear wake up liao le... nite got wedding dinner he good friend fei zai wedding finally see another couple married happy for them.. i believe dear also wish the day faster come ba... but too bad still need few years to go.. haha.. need planing de.. cannot rush. after the dinner went dear house slp lor.. was tired ..

Sun 19th Oct 08

Wake up at 11 plus dear friend msg him ask him to go down his place coz all his friend arrived so i faster go bath n prepared. dear drove mi, the place at fernview near sengkang area.. lots of baby today coz my friend wife give birth 1month celebration mah.. many ppl was there. although lots of them i dunno but after all still enjoy.. after all the celebration we headed to gary house at pasir ris play mahjong. but too bad i dunno really good in it so i see dear play onli... today got free lunched & dinner coz gary uncle tio 4D $4000 so he treated us dinner got KFC & Pizza hut lor.. very full leh... but nice... look at the time its bout 10plus pm so all of us go off already. went dear house slp again... coz acc him lor den morning he send mi to work... wad a tired day...

2008-10-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

long time never blog le... super long.. was really busy wif my bf... was happy to be wif him... coz he really bring mi lots of job & happiness his my ideal husband but things still have to see 1st dun so fast make a decision... coz i dunwan to regrate... this month is a busy month for mi... friends bday friends wedding friends baby 1st month... wow busy busy...

after reading koni blog i find that true friend we dun need alot but good one few is good enough.. i wont treasure ppl who dun treasure me... its a waste of my time... now wad i thinking was onli working... earn lots of $$$ if can will go study & ungrade myself... but now is i dunno wad to study haiz headach... life is boring.. now got my bf i am happy & few of my good friends that acc all along.. thanz gers.. hope we stay in contact & go out if free,,

2008-06-22T17:00:00.002+08:00

Date: 21/06/08 Me & jOey SiS at Luner... BeBe Birthday...

SexY gEr sIA... haha

This iS beNgUa.... LokkS cUtE aR bOth oF us... Miss ThosE Mu DaYS... Had a GreaT nItE yEsT... HappE nInG.. feEl like oLD dayS lOR... wisH thE timE cAn turN back..

2008-06-17T22:54:00.003+08:00

Its Been Sad for mi this few days broke up wif my boy already... actually i dun feel happy at all.. coz i noe i still love him but just dun like the way his treating mi so i choose to leave... yet he did not even say a word at all... its my single life now... theres good n bad after all i never been single for 2 yr plus already suddenly feel so weird. nvm lah.. guess i will find i better one just that times not up onli.... guess i be feeling moody for time been bah... after all need time to heel up... its hard to put down a long relationship... its a though decision.... haiz... i though i would feel better afetr the break up lor.. but how i noe he really so heartless to mi... cant he just give in to me??? n make things better??? guys r so stubbon n dunwan to lose face de.... haiz.. dunno wad they thinking lor... hope i would forget the past n go forward if not i be living mi miserable life....

been going to pub 33 recently lor.. drink n drink lor... i dunno wad to do le.. maybe i feel better after that coz there hav my friends n i wont think so much bah... but when i am home things change i start to be moody n wanan stay alone... wad i need now is someone to talk to mi n cheer mi up lor... haiz...

2008-05-03T16:42:00.005+08:00

took it yest at punggol marina country club... went for ktv session... so long never sing le feel so shiok... dar de hair super funny due to his reservist so he gonna cut shorter... but nice to touch..

this my new phone which was born on 27th april... samsung i450 a gift from dar... love this phone alots... thanz dar for the suprise...

too blur cant see it clearly... this a present from mi to my dar... titus watch... befor that i choose de he dun like so he go choose again lor... he like this alot too... of coz lah a birthday gift from mi.. this watch was born on 29th april...

com with box...

2008-04-01T15:56:00.002+08:00

April fool today... been fool by aiai just now... hahah feelnig so tired today after morning site visit.. been sweating all the way... somemore going for friend wedding lunched lor... hiaz..

when i reached teh place it rains wad a suay day... in the end went home lor.. bo bian... now here writing.

actually after thailand trip i thought about wad i though befor bout my boy.. but in the end i still carry on coz i think he would be better... we had abit of chat but some how i been quite fastrated sometimes over his action n talk... coz i cant talk it n i gonna say out... after that it seem abit better le.. n he sold off his bike liao waiting for his busa... haiz but wad i cant sit his bike at all coz he say is single sitter... wow u noe how sad n down i was when i hear this??? its a very big da ji to mi lor... coz he will have lesser time for mi n he will keep going to malaysia withought mi le... that day at his house my tears just drop down... but of coz i hide it myself... i may feel unhappy but i keep it.. coz no choice wad can i do... if he dunwan i also cant force right... but dunno lah.. i really feel very hurt. n now thinking back bout his word my tears drop down again... but am i thinking too much??? though thats wad gers wan. especially when ur bf rides u wanna acc him n be his pillion??? haiz... dunno i really feel his not the right guy for mi... coz i like to go out wif my bf to where he goes n noe more friends of his.. n mixed around..

having less time wif my friends le... really lazy to go out now... my friends r all attached too... so its ok... of coz free time still can com out lah... hahaha miss my friends... miss clubbing... miss drinking...

2008-03-06T12:57:00.019+08:00

5 of us... was actually tired..

dar stupid face.. in the plan going back to singapore its so cramp inside...

mi n dar..

our last meal in thailand airport...

back to thailand airport.. our luggang.. the biggest is mine...

james, apple, my dar & shuan.. n mi taking the photos.. in teh hotel..

kaosan rd nite time... hahaha

cha tot chat.... weekend market its really big inside... the thnigs much cheaper..

the day pasa malam at kaosan road..

grozilla we saw there...

their kfc there is so nice... bagus

see so many things to buy..

the pasa malam at ba bong... we even watch ping pong show... their famous show there..

the toot toot at babong

somewhere near to our hotel kaosan rd..

this the thailand duty free... hahaha

we reached thailand airport..

singapore airport... at budget terminal... nothing de so sian..

the toot toot we took when we go other places in thailand.. cheap onli 100 bat to 150 bat.. hahaha

Back from thailand trip 5 days 4 nite... miss the shopping there its much more cheaper den here... but i dint buy much coz cash not enough

day 1

reached hotel bout 11plus am... check in the hotel.. the rest slping while mi n dar n apple went to walk around find food to eat was hungry after that den we go back to hotel rest... nite time we go out again... the nite market there was nice lots of things to shop.. we went babong its their nite market there n all the famous pub its also know as our singapore clark quey... but wif pasamalam... shop till u broke ar... haha after went back to hotel rest le..

day 2

early morning wake up to eat their breakfast.. we not bad... den went to kaosan road walk walk le... shop shop.. the things there alot just like our bugis street.. u can find all the things there.. one bra onli coz 80bat = sing $2 plus.. wow its so cheap man... after walknig went back to hotel le.. rest den nite go ba bong again.. this time we went for the ping pong show... kns they

cheated our money if not i will hav more to spend lor.. haiz.. nothing much the show onli gers without clothes dancing. went back hotel again but by cab this time round..

day 3

morning was suppose to wake up for breakfast but all slp till quite late lor... went cha tot chat coz onli weekend den open... we rush there we take 2 hour also cant shop finish the whole place lor.. coz too big le... had our lunched n head back to hotel.. nite time we went to the shopping center.. at mahongkong... all teh big shoppings center there... haha walk not long den went back to hotel le..

day 4

nothing much to shop went to kaosan road again coz last day we can shop all we want... but the pasanmalam was close... so disappointed coz some thnigs i wanan buy also not open lor... nite time they stay in hotel while mi n dar went buger king to eat.. not bad lor... nice... walk around kaosan road there... nothing much to buy le... den went back hotel le..

day 5 (last day)

morning wake up for our last breakfast.. went to kaosan road again for our last shopping trip but thsi time round the pasan malam open again.. omg but no much money to shop liao le lah... kns.. 4.30 we leave the hotel to airport le... miss the place man... next time must bring much more money over le... must shop till crazy... hahaha had our last meal at the airport.. we was so ke lian that we onli left 835 bat t eat a meal for 5 of us n one bow of noodle/rice coz 100+ bat lor.. so we all choose the cheapest... drink also dun dare to order lor... hahaha took the plan back to singapore after that.. was quite tired de... thats the end of the trip le..

2008-02-28T20:43:00.001+08:00

going thailand later le... guys n gers dun miss mi too much ar... hahahaaha will update when i am back

2008-02-24T14:40:00.009+08:00

last destination at bt merah de mac.. family photo but some of them outside

at yishun dam few of us... shuan his gf, dar & me , fabian & his wife last ken.. haha

dar & few old friends

see our funny face so stupid.

this our group photo at cosy bay. there was another group another side

our very own bbq pit pertatic

yesterday was a happening day. meet up wif ching aiai at cine leisure as she wanan pass mi the camera for my thailand trip. so excited we walk around wisma to buy my travel pack thing den hui xian came to find us too but she was going back to her hometown haha so mi n chnig went to far east as i wanan trim my eyebrown. after that we headed back to cine to eat lnog john silver its been so long when i last eat LJS. hahah she headed to her bf house as i head down to marina to find apple & james. they acc mi back home to put some stuff.

we went down to dar de working place at bedok coz we gonan buy food for the bbq, dar planned de after buying the food its almost time for dar to go off le den headed down to cosy bay & start all the fire things. above is some of the picture.

been to many places so its happening.. 1st bbq at cosy bay, head towards yishun dam den to mount fabour & last bt merah mac... hahaha happening day for me...

i be flying to thailand soon le will upload more when i com back... hahah

2008-02-16T17:44:00.002+08:00

today very sian... been quite long never blog le wo... now counting down to thailand liao left 2 weeks more very excited... thats the time i really can enjoy fully wif my boy... haha valentine days was a miss for me but nvm no flower or wad does not mean he dun care but as a ger we still envy wad... some more did a stupid thing helping my friend to send the flower to his ex house n yet i myself no flower so sad right???

time pass very fast mi n him going to 4 monthes le... hope when time come our relationship will turn better lor.. n also he will hav more time for mi bah...

wow yest was really a bad day lor someone stolen my ipod lor wtf i cure the person man... today buy 4d better let mi strike if not i curse his whole family ar... i just suspect the new guy steal it but there is no prove to it... so bo bian... haiz take it as a lesson again lor... luckly i still got a psp if lost i will sure cry ar... coz not mine.. see tonight got meet dar anot bah..

2008-01-25T01:19:00.000+08:00

just back meeting my boy.. today is a bad day for mi my mood n just very down now feeling very sad n lost...

1st meet up wif my boy at his work place i was sitting there alone soon after that raymond came n follow by shuan so decided to go bedok 85 eat.. but just when we turn out from his out place the floor was slippery i try to brake le but i too kan chiong go n throtter in the end bang letter box... luckly never kena my friend.. just coz of that been say by my bf at that moment i feel like crying out le... but list he ask how am i that make mi feel better... when reached bedok 85 he keep saying i almost cant control myself liao le... but i still hold on..

i really feel very left out n extra in the group le... when i was a pillion i still dun feel taht way onli when i ride i start to feel that... y does big bike always hiam small bike all also bike wad?? n who dun make mistake?? i already prepered for the worse le since the day i decide to ride so nothing scared mi... but is the feeling that u guys let mi feel so unbearable.. my wish com true le but i dun feel happy at all... wads the point??? why my bf dun understand my feeling?? i enjoy going out wif them i am happy when i hear them comments on my mistake but plz i may be a newbie but i still ur friends right??

really feelnig down dunno wad will i do when i ride while i am feelnig down maybe die on the road also dunno...

2008-01-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

today n mi n dar den 3moth annivessary so fast 3 month le... but he seem to do nothing at all but nvm lah... as lnog we r happy.. went out wif dar yest i was riding in the 1st place while his riding too.. so togetehr wif his friend we wanted to go watch movie but was fully packed in the end decided not to watch... was thinking of gonig to changi airport to eat popoye but stupid shuan bike no oil in teh end we eat at sepang bedok lor.. ordered a claypot kuey tiao but i eat abit teh rest dare eat.. he looks very hungry lor.. hahah

afetr chatting awhile i fall sleepy.. keep closing my eye coz i dun slp well for quite long time dar den send mi home lor.. reached my house le he ask mi wanan go his house anot but i rejected him coz was too sleepy n wanted mi to ride so i dunwan coz too sleepy later slp on the road ar... hahaha

slp till 3plus lor wow very long never slp till so late le.. but tomm gonan work again... sian leh..

2008-01-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

been very long never blog le... busy wif work n bf lor.. meet my boy almost everyday.. but the day befor had abit of unhappiness but was fine hope his not angry... now gonna rush for a project abit stress coz next monday gonna finish dunno how long i gonna stay over. meet my friend sister lesser n lesser le... no time for it...

but i think i spend less this moneth till now i still got extra cash.. hahah happy n new yr is coming brought new yr clothes le... looking forward to it.. dunno wad do to n where to go during newyr.. dar gonna work dunno will bring mi bai nian anot??

on 29feb will be going to thailand wif my friend n bf.. wow my 1st time taking plan n wif my friends n bf looks good.. going bangkok area for shopping n eat n play.. haha believe i will enjoy the trip... shop shop shop till i drop... thats wad my purposed... hope everything will be good..

2008-01-01T14:10:00.000+08:00

happy new year everyone.. its a new yr again... everything new hahaha.. been riding for few days find it not bad... been pillion my boy too but mostly he ride lah coz i still not very zai especialyl pillion him i unbalance lor.. he too heavy liao le... hahahah now gonig in to jb le wif my mum n bro go shopping le...

gonna shop for new yr clothes now le... hahaha new looks n new clothes... make mi feel high.. n my new rides.. hahahah

2007-12-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

this the front view can see my pig anot??? shining one. hahaha

this is my newly baby wif two litter cute pig infront... hahaha it looks cute when my bf pillion mi lor..

today is my 1st day riding my bike coz dar worknig liao le so i took the bike over lor... was abit scared on teh road at 1st but i too brave liao lah... so just chiong ar... but not bad lah... it feels godo to ride on own bike n on my own... now i can go anywhere wif my litter baby.. too happy liao le...

2007-12-27T18:58:00.000+08:00

wow its been a week le... hahah never post le... was busy for the past few daYS accmy bf lor... coz he meat an car accident on christmas eve so suay... visited him in the hospital but luckly nothing serious happened.. now he can walk le happy for him... but his bike gone case although i never saw it but the way they discript it really cmi liao..

today was a happy day for mi.. coz dar help mi brought a bike... list i hav my own transport now le happy leh... hahaha next time can stay late out liao.. but still must ride carefully if not lots of ppl will nag mi de lor.. hahahah so anxious to see my little baby leh... waiting for dar to com back hahaha

2007-12-20T15:49:00.000+08:00

been few days never update my blog le.. guess u guys must be anxious to read my blog bah.. hahaha

this few days was wif dar he came to my house acc mi lor... continue for 4 days we be meeting each other... so good... yest dar came my house acc mi lor... he was supposed to go jb but jam de so he never go... so nice feel the love from him again.. but scared it will end very fast but i will treasure every moment wif him de... he gonan change job next year le he say... dunno its good or bad.. one thing he quite respect my mum de.. thats wad my mum like bout him ba i guess.. coz his the 1st guy my mum allow him to stay at my house wan... haha. now his worknig gonan miss him le.. dunno tonight he meeting mi anot... wanan watch movie wif him also but den guess he wont be free also bah...

dunno wanan go where later leh... be having dinner on christmas eve... invited some friend but no reply yet..

2007-12-15T12:15:00.000+08:00

HaTe it.... i hate the feeling now... i hate it when i talk to him he give mi attitute.. i find that our relationship wont last le... coz i dun think he love mi anymore... he give mi attitute now le... slowly i will lost everything... just chatted wif him on the phone... his friend asking him to go kulai today i just onli say go again??? wad he ans mi was u always like that de.. dun go dun go lah... i go home.. dun u think the attitute very bad how can he say like that n the tone is not very good... i expect him to say he will bring mi go lor... or maybe i dun go i com find u. but the ans he give hurts mi alots... I dUnnO hOw lOnG cAN wE last lE. i Feel hurt everytime... y am i the one????

actually i hav two choices now... one is kelvin n one is him... i gonna give kel a ans by 22nd dec. actually i love both but think back i wif kel i am more xin fu.. wif my boy i will hav better future... so i can onli choose one... gers if u were mi which one will u choose???? sorry my tag board got problem cant reply msg...

i Respect n give in to my bf does not mean i can tolorate their attitute towards mi... if i respect n i hope to get respect too... y my boy cant be more caring n think more for mi?????

Y am i so Stupid to give in to him everytime?? should i voice out my toughts??? meeting kel in the afternoon going for willian baby ger de one month celebration...

2007-12-09T12:52:00.000+08:00

was back from my dar house... yest went movie wif dar... actually wanan go cine watch de but in the end dun hav the show he wanted so went to plaza sing but was full house also den went to teh cathay but also the same taht tiem was bout to raining le.. but i wanted to watch show no matter wad.. den bo bian he say go vivo watch lor the last place... so we went there luckly we catch a 12.30 show overthere watch "the golden campass' not bad a advanture show... heng he never fall asleep... haha after so lnog finally we got the chance to watch movie together again... coz everytime onli at home so bored... was happy when he acc mi yest.

after that went to his house bout 2 plus le... sleep at 3 plus... n he gonna work early today so bo bian lor... haiz.. wtd..

yest had a hcat wif hui xian also... lots bout our things my relationship my problems... for us gers we dun ask for much as lnog as ur boy love u n always care for u its already very xin fu le right... even a small action will make us happy... such a simply logic they also dunno mah??? haiz... i am always good to the one i love but y dun they appreciate it??? unless they dun like mi lor... if not i see no point y they ignore us sometimes... n actually i suspect my boy hav chat wif another ger recently.. but i cant confirm it.. coz taht time i look at his phone since he cant reply that ger y not he reply mi den??? am i very bored???? he think i always keep quite n give in to him nothing will happened mah.. after all i am his gf lor... how can i let this kind of things happened right??? its redicurious.. i msn him dun reply sms him dun reply also wad am i in his heart???

i think this few days i onli noe how to complain ppl always say we gers dun understand guys but plz turn around does u guys think bout us too??? gers is the one taht always lose out lor... so wad u guys gonan say??? afetr fuck already can just throw teh ger aside n treat it nothing happened mah??????? i wish i am guy lor....

guess my boy dun really love mi that much... from the way he treat mi the action does... wE from onE WeEk mEet 5-6 dAys become NoW 1 day or 2 day i find it unacceptable. wad i need is ur company not ur 1- 2 hour just to see mi for nothing.

2007-12-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

finding myself getting more n more lonely each day le... i am not as cheerfull as last time anymore... all friends working till late... all got bf also le all got their own thnigs no longer active like last time le... i got bf like no bf de... he work everyday even when his free he also cant acc mi... today he go to sec link wif his friend ya he can enjoy yet i at home alone u noe the feelnig really very sux n painfull... think le tears also drop... he say i was sick so cannot go out.. but i still go out wad its not a good excuss lor.. he can still bring mi out de lor. i am ur gf leh.. bring mi out also so difficult meh??? so wad ppl got big bikes... just now i really wanna ask mi friend fetch mi lor instead of him... list my friend willing to lor... not liek him.. i am already very bored n lonely le cant just think of mi mah?????????

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n so fuck up??????????????? i really hate myself now....... i hate the way i am now....... i really really very xin ku lor................. really...........

2007-12-06T01:15:00.000+08:00

sick le... never go work today.. went to see doctor in teh morning he say i am quite serious de... so he give mi 3days mc lor... haiz.. gonan hav a long weekend le... but bored leh staying at home onli slp lor.. nothing to do cant go out.. luckyl dar got com find mi yest n today very happy le.. although he cant acc mi but nvm lah... list he make the effect the com down my house n find mi lor.. very touch liao.. but i scared my boss wont be very happy bout it lor... haiz... coz i wanan take another leave at teh end of dec lor but dunno ok anot lor... haiz... due to now 3days mc this money i onli work less den 20 days... haiz... but will pass quite fast coz they going for holiday for bout a week lor...

tomm its thursday le... dunno guess gonna go buy soem vcd n stay home to watch bah... still not feelnig very good my tummy make mi gi crazy... guess gonan loss few kg le... no appitite to eat also.. just now my mummy just cook some porridge for mi coz i need to take my medicine... hahahah sian guess gonna rest again... tired

2007-12-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

haiz.. now feelinfg abit headach after work.. sian been sick for few days... guess gonna get fever le.. coz i feel hot n cold... how i wish my boy si wif mi... really miss him lots... yest never meet him... but he change le no longer the same as i 1st noe him.. of coz i dun expect him to be totally same... at list spend abti more time for mi... go out wif mi n i am happy le... of coz not everyday meet also lah... he will feel bored too... when i cry alone in my rom who noes... when i am lonely who noes??? wad i need is his care for mi... yest nite afetr reading through the msg he send to mi when we 1st together i really feel very sad n my tears just roll down from my eye... u noe the feeling its so hurt.... y do ppl change so easily... some more mi n him can talk till morning last time but now not even 15min lor... wads a big diff right... wad topic he also not interested in den how??? i am ur gf not ur friend leh... thought ppl say starting dun be so close so good but i already commit... y cant u just show mi more???? u say i change but i guess i change to good n not bad... i give him freedom all he wants... wad else i am just asknig him to give mi more times y cant is it very difficult??? does he noe my feeling??? he dun coz i never tell him befor coz i noe he dun like... his charector is very clear cut to mi lor... he dun love to talk but i do... unless he dun love mi if not y always leave mi alone in teh dark??? at 1st was so sweet i really hope that would last but y in all relationship either side will change n wont stay???? or the opposit change after ... haiz... got words also cant say to him n onli can write down my sadness n complain here.... really very xin ku lor.... y love a person its so hard n its hard to remain the relationship... i start to lose hope in this relationship.... but i will maintain it till teh end n one day i cant le i would give up...

now the problem is he dun even talk much bout his thing... how am i to noe wad his thinking.. n now i also hardly go his house le.. coz he say he wanna slp more.. when i hear it i totally sink lor... my heart was been stub by a knife lor... its really hurt... but of coz i understand it coz he work late de... haiz... i really dunno wad to say n do le.. just let it be..

2007-12-03T20:14:00.000+08:00

wow very full now... ate my dinner not lnog ago.. found myself slim abit le coz my jeans lossen liao le... hahah em... thats a great start for mi... again my target of sliming 10kg should very ok bah... hahaha now not onli slim for myself but also to look good n hav good health... hahaha like taht my dar also will dote mi lots lots... hahaha

yest went to meet jace at suntec... was supposed to go ecp wif ching n hui xian but abit lazy also... hahaha n no $$ coz rent bike need $$ but tomm i getting my pay le so i anytime le... thnig also.. hahaha the feeling of money is so shock... without money can die ar... hahaah

after meeting jace.. dar n law com to my house find mi lor... den stay at my house for awhile den decided to go out for a drink... shawn came quite late we went to upp east coast road near my work place there de hong kong caffe chat chat drink drink lor... their topic is always bike luckly i noe abti n also interested in the topic so i do comman abit list thats the way wad... hahaha wont feel left out.. i told my boy if can i geeting my bike after geeting my pay bout jan lor... wave lor.. cheap ma n onli for transport.. btw if go futher place he fetch mi lor.. right... hahah in singapore nvm lah... hahaha he even ask mi put his name... hahah of coz lah... ar bo whos name??? den shawn came den we headed to another palce also near by coz dar wan eat chicken wing... guess 3 of them getting fater n fater liao.. especially my boy lah... still dun diet... hahaha but nvm lah i like the way he is can le.. hahahah hope same to him...

2007-12-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

wow just wake up... 1st time slp till so late sia... so tired... just had my dinner...

yest dar meet his friend again.. haiz i wanted to meet him de but haiz nvm lor.. den i go fly wif my friend lor... meet up wif stacy n tracy earlier on at ps.. had our dinner there.. after that meet koni but my phone was stupid lor low batt... the whole nite uable to contact ppl but luckly still manage to find my friend coz his phone low batt too... so suey.. den koni came later was waiting for her outside heng she noe how to walk there if not think die liao le lor... hahaha den later alan came too wif his friend lor... den i went home...

dar call mi earlier but was too noisy to listen to the phone so i msg him i reached home call him lor... when i call him le he dun seem to be very happy lor.. i think i am not in the wrong in the 1st place i already inform him le my phone cant call out n i am using my friend de phone liao.. i rushed home after that lor.. i also abit not happy wif his words so i say him lor... sometiems i just wanan hav more time wif him nothing wrong wad.. since he meet his friend den i meet my friend lor nothing wrong wad right... den he call mi i mai ans but in the end i still call back lah... haha but in teh end he ask mi go coffee shop as he wanan go eat.. kns i though he come n see mi lor... but he say i attitude lor.. of coz lah his words hurt mi leh... kns.. he should please mi wad.. hahaha btw now going down to bugis soon liao le.. haha going to bank in teh money for him...

2007-11-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

wow today wake up late wtf.. luckly i am able to catch the bus n reached in time.. hahaha haiz today dar whole day never call mi le... miss him lots... haiz... dunno maybe he onli play game forget bout mi liao le lor.. haiz.. sad ar...

after work went to a fitness center nearby my work place... seems not bad leh.. one ween $20 dollar n i can go anytime to used there machines all that n some trainee to teached n guid u along look good.. decided to take up the package... they got two package both r good but one more ex but got nutrition guaidian lor.. but i be onli taking the cheaper one... hahaha good like that my dream will com true fast.. btw sicne dar no tiem for mi must well i go find something do do n sicne he say i need to slim down den i go for this may help... btw i lnog time never exercise also le lor... its a good chance too... every tiem 1/2 an hour of exercise keep mi fit.. y not...

gonan tell my dar bout teh good new... but haiz he haven even bother to call mi.. yest also lor.. now he everyday game game onli.. how about mi?????????? i am so lonely now..... got bf but his not around for mi.. haiz..

2007-11-27T09:18:00.000+08:00

after reading koni blog again.. i noe my ans too... i still wan my boy... coz i noe he love mi too.. althought i still hav feel for kel but i cant turn back the time n go back to him le... coz its the past n i am leading a new life since my boy treat mi good so y not...i cant let my boy down.. but sometimes i do miss kel lor... even if i am wif him back i believe someday same things will happened again so must well stay the way we r bah... onli until the day he noe how to think he will realise last time i treat him the best le... afetr all i still treat him as good friend lor.. now i am very clear le... i love my boy more.. hahahah

wow just came back from my boy de house.. wad a unlucky day i hav today... never go work...early morning my menses stain on my pants... haiz hav to ma fan my boy send mi home... btw he gonig to work also so its ok lah.. y he never off today so sad... haiz.. he was suppose to off today de lor... yest he took half day le but he gonna buy something thats y... wow he brought he dream psp i guess also noe he will buy it.. too rich liao... hahaha

my wish for my christmas is my boy can take off pei mi den go out eat walk walk..
bless my wish com true.. die now stomach cramp again wtf..

2007-11-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

after reading koni de blog.. actually i got the same feeling too.. things just happened in us... haiz y??? all kind of shit... sux...

just had a chat wif him again... haiz the feelnig is back... i cry the whole nite this morning wake up also.. haiz.. feel very bad towards my boy now... but cant help it... its so xin ku...

he cant give mi that kind of feeling n the time.. he work everyday sometimes i really tell myself is he the right one... i really dunno.. the way he treat mi really make our relationship very bad... i believe i give him wad he wants but he never give mi wad i wan... y????????? just like yest nite... icall him at 12 plus he was in malaysia bout 2 plus i call him again he was in sing already but he dun bother to returned my call at all... in thew end i fall asleep le... bout 3 plus he call mi again... guess he noe i be at home bah... when i listen to the phone he say he was outside of my house i though he tease mi onli.. but in the end its true lor his outing... dunno y suddenly he will appeared lor... i was really suprise i though he dun care bout mi le... noe wad he say.. "although i never returned ur call but i appeared outside ur house" wow this word make mi feel touch lor... but den... haiz he onli accompany mi awhile lor how i wish he can acc mi lor... haiz... so sad...

in teh afternoon he call mi once nia after that no more liao.. hope he meet mi tonight lor... actually wish to hav sometime spend wif him lor... coz that the onli way we can talk lor.. haiz..

2007-11-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

today slp till 11 wake my boy up... i also wake up le cant get to slp liao le...

meeting koni n his bf tonight den go find jace... she still very confuse bout her relationship now but we cant help her much onli can advice her the decision is hers... went to look for jace at suntec... after that we went bugis of of the restaurant for our dinner the food ok lah.. so so lor...

headed to bugis junction coz she meet her friend there after that mi her n her bg went to m1 shop coz his bf buying hp lor.. so good sia i also wanna hav a hp lor.. haiz guess this christmas i gonna be lonely again haiz... we went back to suntec to look for jace again coz she off work mah... my friend call mi up n tell mi she saw my boy... but i also noe his going lah so its ok.. but abti angry coz he told mi that onli him n fabian in the end my friend told mi got fabian wife n shawn lor... haiz... but guess not gonan ask much bah... feelnig abit sad lor coz y the fabian bring hsi gf yet he dun bring mi leh??? am i a disgrace to him??? or he scared i will be left out haiz... i wanan go lor i really really wanan go lor.. haiz... he enjoy yet mi leh... left alone he never think for mi lor.. wtf... super no mood now... the way he treat mi make mi think more bout my ex lor... haiz... sux man... fuck lah...

cant he treat mi abit more better think abit more for mi ma.. whole day onli a call from him nia... dunno wad time he gonna be back from jb lor.. haiz... yest never meet le today also never meet.. haiz now our time for each other is getting lesser n lesser le... haiz really very xin ku... i onli can cry inside my heart n yet i cant do anything... if i ask much he will find mi fun wu li qu nao.. guys r always like that they though they love us but to us we cant feel it at all... coz the action... haiz.. how am i gonna do... how i wish i am alone now.. n dun fall for anyone... it hurt really its more hurtfull den u had a fall lor... haiz...

2007-11-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

took a photo of my bday present last year de... long time never wear le... think wear 2-3 times nia lor... hahaha too fat to wear nice clothes..

this my new ipod touch cool man... i mention in previous post

a close up look of the tree

TOok at vivo city de christmas tree... nice wo.. a huge tree..

2007-11-24T12:14:00.000+08:00

few days never update liao... hahaha few days never meet my boy le... i mean miss him lots...

yest meet up wif stacy at ps... she bring mi go see her ger.. kns den had dinner together lor... long time never meet up liao le.. lol.. walk walk till 10 like that boy say never meet mi den ok lor.. so i decided to go dragon meet one of the friend but he say never go so bo bian...

ask koni n jace out, meet at clark quey coz we going to luner... saw suki sing wow so good now his famous last tiem he is just like us now one blink become singer n appeared on tv lor.. so gd.. after all his great but too bad never talk to him... btw luner also bored all uncle auntie really cmi.. we onli see suki they all sing nia... hahaha after that go off le... so we dunno where to go n its 12 plus 1 like that still early.. in the end msg my friend again.. he say he just reached dragon fly abit drunk liao... so we decide to went down... hahaha

very funny lor its ladies nite i mean our ladies nite... his quite ok lah friendly n sociable lor... dunno is it he drink abit too much lor.. hahaha at 1st he also never talk much to mi... saw alan also koni de ex... but guess she still cant forget bout him... but i can understand if it happened to mi i will be the same... hahah

my friend call us to go to the sofa sit we ( PAO TAI) hahaah abit nan ting leh.. especially us in gers.... lol after all his friend ok lah too friendly le one or two nia.. one of the guy guess drunk liao keep wanan touch us lor wow liao so hankie panky.. kns i still prefere my friend.. hahah coz he more si wen but he busy smoking onli.. hahah run here n there leave us behind but he very suai also lah got entertain us awhile lor... bout 4 plus den we leave lor... reached home slp..

2007-11-19T19:44:00.000+08:00

back from work wow so tired... hahaha em... very full now just eaten my dinner...

yest went dar house slp he com n find mi... nothing much to undate coz was at home yest...

had abit of chatting wif dar but not much... get to noe some of the question that is keep in my mind... now i understand how he was like... hahaha coz he treat his ex the same way too... so i must accept it... i must cheer him up n not feel bored when i am wif him.. always stay cheerful n happy... thats the way... n thats wad i am.. i gonna be myself again.. slowly i will get to his life i be part of him n he will be part of mi... hahaha

now started to save morning for my 21st bday n gonig for holiday wif dar... but haven plan yet.. hahahah but guess would be quite soon de lah.. i wanan go shop shop... cancer my leave this week i was suppose to be in malaysia but due to somethings happened so bo bian... but nvm i still got leave so anytiem i can still take... dar say planning to thailand next month but haven confirm.. think very hard lah.. hahah no one organise mah... sian..

2007-11-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

yest went out wif dar... befor that meet my friend apple bike kaki.. went central at clark quey de.. we went to eat the cake that show on tv befor those mini patten de.. so cute lor.. was thinking of having it for my 21st bday wo... hahah

den 1 of our friend came to join us but when he saw teh cake he was keep laughing n say look like those toy lor... hahaha but really look like lah but not bad lah... worth it.. maybe later o ni may show the picture.. taste not bad also..

after that 10 plus dar meet us after his work going in to jb eat tim sum... haha reached there was quite late coz JAM.. wth lor... bo bian cant get out le so guai guai get into the que lor... wad to do... onli that moment i feel the love... hahah dunno y... 7 of us go eat together... n guess wad the price is onli 134.6 ringgate lor... so cheap cheap n we eat quite alot also lor... hahaha eat person 10 nia... after we exit to singapore custom dar was been caught for the ciggrate coz he forgot to take out 1 stick coz i took 2 pack out one each coz i dun smoke so take for him.. so suey lor.. the police man question us.. " u noe one packet $200 fine u wanna pay mah??" wad a stupid question of coz who will ans no wad... he even ask mi i got smoke de meh?? my lips so pink i feel like scolding him.. but i never lah... in the end he give 2 choices either pay the fine or throw away one box.. wad a stupid question again of coz throw away lah.. worse he ask mi throw lor.. fuck right.. kns..

but dun worry coz we still got another 4 pack how can dar finish all i also dunno lor... coz all our friend dun smoke de lor.. all take for him nia hahahah.. went to dam meet another friend guess taht time was quite late le bout 4 plus already wow i was tired le feel like sleeping liao... n dar was tired too.. i really appreciate it that he still make the effect to send mi to my door step.. but of coz lah guy mah... n some more my bf hahahah... sometimes i maybe really think too much liao le... afetr all he do treat mi good... haha i will treasure him but think we still need to spend time together n hav a good chat bah... regarding our relationship.. comments n so on.. i dun wish later in teh end break off without even noeing wad happed n reason lor... i hate that.. list we say now maybe still can save lor.. if wait till he no feeling den thats it liao.. wad also dun need to say le.. haiz..

today is sat lor.. now at home haiz.. just got my new ipod touch 8gb de.. yeah not bad sia. got wi-fi de after all i like it.. maybe tonight meet dar go out bah.. will undate again..

2007-11-16T00:41:00.000+08:00

just com back from supper... went katong wif my bike kaki lawrence.. he fetch mi there.. went to the coffee shop opp katong mall the wanton noodles very nice lor... den dar com after that coz he working.. haiz.. but suddenly felt that we like stranger or maybe friends onli.. coz teh feel he give mi totally change le.. we dun seem to be that close le... coz the usure things he do does not exist anymore... is it that theres something happened between us??? or there is a 3rd party i really dunno.. i totally felt very lost now.. but i onli can say out my toughts over here... feel like crying now the feeling sux... its painfull inside mi. aftert that he fetch mi home... guess wad he say i stay home coz he very tired n wanan slp till 1pm wad a excuss lor.. actually i really dunno maybe i think too much... so lost so lost now... no one can help mi... so moody n sad...

2007-11-15T20:50:00.001+08:00

Finally i can used back my blog le.. goodness.. hahahah em... this week been staying at my boy house... but abit pai seh leh... haiz... actually sometimes i feel happy n sad... dunno y... the feeling is so unexplainable... haiz... when we meet up we can talk n play around didturbe each other.. but during working hours i find we like stranger he no longer like last time sms mi or call mi le.. dunno y... hate this kind of feelings... but of coz i wont show out infront of him coz we just started this relstionship... n 5 more days will be our 1mth annivessary... guess to him its nothing ba coz he dun care n dun even bother.. but for mi its diff... i care alto n it means alot to mi... i believe everyone would like to spend the day wif ur love ones on that day.. even a simple dinner also would make u feel happy right of coz i dun expect any thing from him... haiz..

but i understand he gonna work but i believe its not a excuss n i try not to think so much le... wad ever bad things i can think off i just put aside n keep it to myself coz i wanna avoid quarrel but indeed he dun understand mi well now.. hope in future he will.. after all compare wif kel he is good lah.. but the joy the time everything he cant give mi... but i hav to accept everything coz i really love him... he dote on mi.. also bring a new mi again n leave the past.. i dun wish to read his mine coz i noe i may end up a bad ending by guessing wrong... he say as long we r happy den ok lor... dunno how he thinks till now.. coz we really dun hav much time spend together... even weekend he gonna work.. haiz.. guess its gonan continue haiz.. life is misirable

2007-11-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

wow finally i can log in using my bro de net... hahaha been very lnog never update n miss out quite alot of things... guess lots of ppl may noe wad going on wif my life now ok i shell start..

broke off wif kel in 19th oct... coz really cant go on this relationship le due to lots of things happened in us.. haiz.. but as i mention previously in my post i been going out wif a guy aboy... n i like him after few times we meet up.. just on the 20th he ask mi to wif wif him at 1st he say onli try try lor.. den i agreed too.. but the time been wif him i can forget bout kel the unhappiness but sometimes i feel theres something left out in our relationship.. but to his charector i wont ask for too much happy go lucky onli.. coz he dun like ppl to comment too much or ask too much coz he himself is those heck care heck care of charector lor... he can be really caring sometimes n i feel secure wif him even my mum also like him... at list he got a stable job income n a good family background den ok le.. coz my mum also wan mi to find a good one mah..

as for mi i also dun ask much as long he treat mi well care for mi love mi dote on mi n trust on mi i already very happy le... $$$ dun mean alot to mi but is the heart that show.. a gift from him i may also feel very happy if he does.. its 3 weeks le since we r together till now.. so far so good our relationship so far ok lah... he also open a acc for our savings.. but i ask him to join my name so both our names can draw the $$$ list a save way n the trust bah.. not i dun trust but that wad my mum told me to be save lor.. n he agreed to.. guess we already plan very far le... list he noe how to think bah...

sometimes i do feel the diff between him n kel coz two totally diff charector.. i noe i cant compare them but towards kel i feel happier coz he can really make mi speck out all my mind without hessitate lor.. but boy its diff i hav to think of him cant say wrong thing so i feel very xin ku bah... but wad to do thats love.. he dun like mi to drink coz i drink le it wont be mi again thats wad he told mi so i gonna quit drinking coz of him.. so gers i cant acc u all to drink liao... pai seh ar.. he once told mi he may not be by my side but he will always care for mi.. really touch lor... n he wont sweet talk de unless kel lor.. but its ok n fine wif mi coz i dun need sweet talk.. guess i am wif him my mind start to change n think more mature le... n lots of things i also start to heck care liao coz i am too tired to care or think so much liao.. after 1yr 3mth of relationship i really wanan hav a relax life le.. dunwan to struggle so much.. dun think so much let nature be. as lnog i am happy...

all my sis r also attached le n having their own life liao... all in love le.. but of coz sometimes we do still meet up lah... no more chiong days le... hahaha all worknig n earn money liao.. guess we really grown up le..after that we will hav our own family as well... n life goes on...

think gonan slp le.. worknig tomm morning.. n my dar went our for supper left mi alone so sad... but its ok lah... hahaha i give him freedom n he give mi freedom so wads there to ask for right..

good nite..

2007-10-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

posting agin.. today was sick taking mc... at 1st though jia jai sick but in the end really sick lor.. haiz... tired of working liao... but no choice no money... dun talk bout my sad things le...

so tired now... nowadays chat wif ah boy lor.. after listening to wad hui xian words.. wow really change le... he call mi almost everyday lor... for nothing keep say miss mi.. thsi n that dunno is it his wire lose or wad.. must fix for him le... must be something wrong tahts y he say that de.. coz i noe we r onli friends no more den taht mah... so abit weired after listening wad he say... his ego com out le.. hahaha gd that is my 1st step of revange...

slowly bah... haha meet him this morning for breakfast.. 1st time leh.. but ok lah... list better coz i find taht we r closer n closer le.. but good n bad also hav lah.. dunwan to say more.. we shell see wad happened bah... hahaha

btw meet up wif ching aiai last sunday wow long time never see her le so happy when saw her.. took some picture to.. believe she already post on her blog le bah... nice pic taking by her digi cam.. hahaha but hui xian did not com miss it lor...

joey birthday coming also.. brought her a present my friend will noe i wont keep things to heart de... no matter wad still friend bo still live a road for them... so gonan attent her birthday chalet lor... on the 13th... but hope nite time be meeting boy they all ba.. hahaha sian..

2007-10-07T15:10:00.000+08:00

went drinking alone yest at boat quey... feeling so moody n troubled... went to the usure pub lor.. the boss still recgonise mi lor.. hahaha den order a jug of beer... thats the onli drink i can drink bah... the rest ex leh.. hahaha thanz to those who wanan acc mi de... but i am fine lah... haha

after that msg kel ask him to com down but he went dragon fly lor den bo bian lor... went down to find him lor.. his friend bring mi in lor.. haiz... i was abit drunk by den... sian going out le very busy now.. hahaha

meeting ching le... com back den talk

2007-10-06T21:09:00.001+08:00

haiz... dun feel very good now.. mood sucks... y all guys r the same... y am i the one that always fall for them??? i was not like a fool lor been play like a parpet... fuck man... been hurt so deeply befor n yet now another one but this time i am not that stupid de.. u wanan play wif mi i will play wif u too... dun think u r that gd lor... u r nothing but shit to mi now... wad a big lier... so li hai dun talk behind my back talk infront of mi lah... gt gf still wanna flirt around.. who u think u r?? wait till i slim down 1st i dun believe no guys wan mi lor... fucker.. btw i am still young so who cares...

u fool around wif mi i also can fool around wif u de... dun step on to my shoes or u will die very jia lat jia lat de...

btw i also need to wake up n keep an eye on this kind of guys.. treat u like very gd but at the back say bad bout u... n take advantage of u lor... wad is the big deal u hav a bike??? who fucking cares... wif this kind of charector how gd u r to the others also no used coz infront of mi u already show ur true colours.. dun think i noe nothing at all but i just keep quiet... when the day i cant take it n its my revange time le.. u shell wait... i hav time so no hurry..

warning to gers never trust guys easily le... just like mi i was too soft hearted my friend will noe that.. thats y i am always the loser but i gonna end everything... i wanan be the winner n not the loser out of all the games.... i gonna stand up...

2007-10-01T20:06:00.000+08:00

went out till 4 am yest morning again... wow so tired... not enough slp... chat wif boy till 5am so tired leh... but nvm lah worth it... went to 10floor to eat den went to bugis... he drive car n fetch mi... feel so xin fu wo... but too bad we need times for each other.. but was really happy been wif him even we r friends but its enough liao...

went marina south to play game... den to play bowling.. so nice... hahaha he keep di siao mi.. bth.. went down bugis to eat ba chor mee... but i never eat lah... den he send mi home le... btw i believe if the days come n we really be together i believe i be more xin fu de.... hahaha

2007-09-30T04:18:00.000+08:00

ended my relationship on 23 sept... been a week le... but i cant do anything to this relationship anymore so i decided to give up.. i cant go on like this 4ever... now i wanan start my new life again by choosing my new prince... hahahah

been gonig out wif my biker friends this few weeks was happening coz its liek been very long never go out liao... but in this group of friend i fall for a guy that pillion mi de... but so far i find him ok.. but my friend ask mi dun go for him.. but i was confuses.. haiz dunno see how bah...

went out wif them onli... just came back home... tired never slp well also sprain my neck somemore lor.. haiz.. so sad....

2007-09-16T15:22:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a wounderfull nite for mi... coz i manage to meet up my bro n sister le...together we celebrate birthday together again liao...

went steamboat at bugis there... got mi, dear dear, koni, koni friend, hui xian,jace n alex... hahaha although someone did not com but nvm le... but i also very happy le.. list this few ppl make their effect to com liao... hav a wounderfull dinner wif them.. n took some photos... after eating went to bugis de arcade dear n alex both play the car together but koni side hav to wait.. in the end onli my dear n alex manage to play nia... hahaha

play game liao we go eat ice cream.. nice nice leh... coz koni hav to work tomm so she cant join mi le.. so sad... head down to just d place to meet up my bro... was my sister celebration too wo... quite a num of ppl de.. i was drink drank drunk le... hahahah coz too happy... hav a cake this yr dear buy for mi de...nice nice leh... thanz dear muacks.. after that went down orchard plaza wif his friend lor... unable to join jace they all... so meet them up at geylang lor 15 to eat... that time i already seh seh liao le... hahahahha long time never like that liao.. happy leh.. btw thanz those who came down... :) n wish myself a very happy birthday

2007-09-13T20:13:00.000+08:00

em... feel like blogging now.. yesh will be getting my bike soon le.. hahahah happy.. but no pillion for now yet... gonna get used to it 1st... gonig to see bike coming sat wif dear... but sad is his bike gonna returned back liao... no money to pay... acturelly was disappointed wif him le... coz wad he done to mi lor... wad i say he dun listen in the end he suffer like taht no one can help him le...

btw celebrating my birthday coming sat be going to steamboat 1st befor heading down to lot 1 de just d place... nice place after mu.. coz techno n life band... n i can gather all the mu ppl again over there... all my belove sis n bro.. wee u wee leh.. cant wait till that day..1 more days to go...

tomm maybe going for ktv session wif apple... yeah my friend will gather again./... how i wish i am freedom again.. so i can go jb wif my friends.. haiz.. n my bikers day...

2007-08-31T18:50:00.000+08:00

em... lately things happened between mi n him dunno is it my problem or his... coz i find both of us more n more hard to communicate le... just dun feel good as i am the one working n he dun.. n i persuade him lots of time to look for job but he insisted not too i even help him to look for jobs... i was farstrusted bout this as he gt no more $$ to spend but yet wanan go out wif his friends n leave mi alone .. cant io hav freedom.. no friends to go out wif le.. btw birthdaY COMING so dun think i get anything from him too... btw also nt sure r we still together... heart breaks lots of time.. tears drop lots of time for him he dun seem be care.. been so useless i wish my heart can be as hard as a stone lor.. like that i wont get hurt anymore... haiz.. i believe those guys after him de will sure suffer lots from mi...

y those that like mi de but i just dun like them haiz.. liek that i be more xin fu.. as i will be love.. haiz... life r so unpridictorble.. think weekends gonna stay home liao...

2007-08-16T16:29:00.000+08:00

yest is my boy birthday went marina steamboat to eat.. give him the watch n also brought a ice cream cake for him.. guess he spend alot yest... btw he is happy this yr coz more ppl to celebrate for him... thanz to those who take out the time to celebrate for him.. thanz.. :)

he love the watch i give him.. haha after steamboat went to boat quey to drink go rab bar there.. was nice... drink quite alots of beer... but still ok lah... guess gonan be fat liao.. bloated wif beer... after that went tpy to eat lor... but i very full so never eat le... hahahah was very tired super tired till i cannot take it den ask dear send mi home liao le... hahaha

later meeting boy boy again... hahah

2007-08-12T14:38:00.000+08:00

life is so boring... btw its august now... yest went for movie 881..wif my dear meet up wif william n his wife at cine coz they watch rush hour 3.. both r nice show worth watching..hahah next wed is my darling birthday le.. old liao wo... got him a present of $100+ hope he will like it lor... n i specially go n wrap up for him wo... nice.. think getting a cake for him too wo... give him surprise... maybe going to marina for steamboat.. he call his bro to go too wo.. hope it wont be like last yr bah...

after that will be my bday at sept le..so happy.. haven think of where to go yet leh... so sian..feel like going somewhere special n not common... hahahaha saving up money for my bike le.. think sooner i getting my own bike le... hahahah nice nice.. but after that sure headach liao... haiz... later meeting my dear go out liao.. shop shop..

2007-07-28T13:06:00.000+08:00

so lnog never post le abit lazy leh.... btw lots of unhappy things happened but dun wish to mention here.. finally my bf found a day job... happy for him ..but its one month onli.. haiz... but better den nothing..

its sat today going out to watch movie but not sure wad show yet... jio mostl of the ppl go but think in the end just mi n koni n our bf go nia... coz the other gers watch themself... so seprate ways...

my bf n joey de bf bei gam thats y we also never go out le... but now my bf ok wif that but her side dunwan.. aiyo.. we gers meet up also difficult bo bian who ask her bf so quite... those ppl noe my bf will noe his charector too he love to talk... n he hates ppl that is quite n dun talk de... so things happened... after all her bf also not our type of friend bah... bo bian he still young leh... army guy mah..

working life is just so sian but i find my working life enjoyable coz i found a job i really like n we hav diff projects to do... so its not boring to do.. i find it sian onli if theres nothing to do lor... list i can learn more if i do more... hahah last month i got my 1 month bonus n this month my pay gonna rise but not sure how much yet... really very happy leh after a yr in the company finally i see some improvement in myself too.. n the boss treat us good...

wanna find a part time job also diff coz my bf ask him acc him work at nite leh... haiz... so sad no $$ wanna buy my bike n coming oct bah... i must get it.. i pass my bike long ago le but no bike very sian de... hahahaah looking up for my bike bah..

i miss my sister lots but all attached liao now... good.. but also bad... coz hardly meet up le.. but for mi i still ok de... coz i am freedom de.. anywhere i can go.. hahahah

2007-06-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

so late le... just finish talking wif joey bout an hour ago... hahaha now listening to some nice song.. hahaha btw father day coming le... n its the same day on william wedding dinner that day lor.. sad.. now no money waiting for my money to com in lor.. si bei sian.. no where to go...

dear dear also no money liao le wo... both jia sai liao.. hahah bored no where to go also.. think he slp le bah.. today is sat n i got no place to go.. mirical lor.. coz i used to chiong or go out on fri,sat de... sometimes even public holiday.. now hardly chiong le.. so lifestyle change le... hahaha not much to blog coz its the same old boring day..

2007-05-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

back at home le... meet up wif kel usure went for dinner... few days befor was having some quarrell.. acturelly after reading koni de blog i feel the storey happened between mi n kel had also become theirs.. n its totally same..

but slowly i realise to love a person is not that easy.. if he can put in all his trust in u y should u do something to make him dun trust u.. for once already alot le.. n he started to feel that u lie to him once there will be another one.. n so on.. so never lie to him again or the thing will onli be breaking up. u r not hurting him but urself too.. because of our playfullness n we give up this r/s do u think is worth it?? time is not a matter most important is the time u guys spend together n so on.. if u lose a good one u wont noe when there will be someone to replace him.

i do love kel i can say but just because of taht time i lie to him n he totally change to a diff n he dun dare to put his 100% in mi le.. so until now i dun feel that kel is loving mi more den i do. so i always get to quarrel wif him. yes he do love mi but not like befor le. the tone action everything change. so its really serious once u make him dun trust u le u may just lose him 4ever.

so koni he love u thats y he give u so many chance but did u ever treasure him u hav to ask him the question. if u r really playfull n dunwan to settle down den u got to let him go.as from wad he told u le wad he wan... maybe coz of the lie u made make him more strict on u ba. but u also cant blame him.. coz kel is doing the same thing on mi. so i also never club le. sometime onli go out wif friend talk talk onli.. hahahah so u really must think carefully coz u cant hav both at the same time.. onli can choose play or love... this is just wad i think n giving u some tips. after all u all onli 3 mth.. but mi going to a yr le.. so its hard for mi to give up. so thats all i can advice le. good luck.

2007-05-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

hahahahah.. i am here again.. miss lots of update. today is sat le... so sad my blog no song.. my blog editer do half way run away liao lor.. kns hahahahaha

yest was a happy night for myself.. coz some reason but wont say it here.

meet up wif my boy boy yesterday again... we r fine le after wad happened the day befor... hahaha

my life now really got no freedom.. haiz so sad cant go out wif my usure friends..so i securifly lot le.. my friend my family n more.. thats how life goes.. if u love a person u hav to give in ur time de. btw our 1yr annivessary coming up very soon on the 9JUNE hahahahah thats the date.. hahahaha hapyp dunno wad to get for my dear dear...

tonight gonna meet up again wif my dear but no where to go coz no $$ so sian..

i wanted to go out wif my biker friend coz they ask mi out but how am i suppose to do so?? but i did hav the urge to go out wfi them long time never meet le.. my apple they all miss them lots lots... also miss my bball friend my sec sch friend n more... haiz..

guess when i hav my freedom back i will be that lifely n cheerful mi again.. wait till taht day ba

2007-05-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

long time never blog le... currently mood is very bad... feeling down.. meet my dear bout 9 plus.. after saw him at 1st mood was ok but after that after some talking my mood totally went down.. dun feel like talking n i try to hide my tears from him... wanted to go to east cost to cool down my mood but who noes on the way to east cost his friend call him say wad bring him go to woodland lor.. he say will send mi home 1st... wow at that point of mood my tears started to drop down untile it reached my block i cant control anymore.. n he saw mi cry but i just walk n walk away back home... acturelly i think of lots of things.. expecially when i try to put in the effect but he dun seem to appreciate it... i can say i change quite alot for him but.. n wad i wan back is just a happiness n his caring for mi... dun little things quarrel lor.. n for him to understand mi well... thast all.. sometimes we may also quarrel over money but i mostly give in le.. now i really dunno wad i get from him lor.. after so long of relationship i really dun understand him any more he can change any time he like lor... but i cant.. coz i already fall for him le.. theres no turning back.. if i am last time de mi.. i believe i can do that but not now.. now my life is full of tears instead of happiness.. friends may though i am the xin fu one.. but i can say its a torture to mi.. maybe i can say now i am the one that hurts the most... to him its nothing... even i am not wif bhim any more also like that... life has become meaningless to mi le. i am just like a dog to him.. he say wad i must listen... haiz.. i find myself useless.. totally useless.. even if i cry also like that.. pain also myself choose de... hope we will end somedays.. maybe till the day my heart is really dead bah... haiz...

2007-02-20T03:10:00.000+08:00

its CNY~!~! think everyone should be having lots of ang bao now coz for mi i really get alot more den any other years... all thanz to my dear dear coz he bring mi to diff places to bai nian wo... hahaha lets talk about nian 30 wan...

went to dear de sister house at yishun after my dinner at home... too a train there den dear fetch mi to her sis house.. stay there for awhile her mum n her sis both give mi ang bao.. hahaha after that we went to william gf house to play poker... together wif zhi wei n ning lor... till the morning 6 am loss quite alot of money but nvm lah... 1 yr one time onli... den dear was quite tired also le... same goes to mi.. went home den fall asleep liao...

nian chu yi....

wake up early bian nian tyo my mum 1st den meet up wif dear dear and go to his mum house for lunched but he wake up late... den we go bai nian wif his mum n uncle.. together wif boy boy.. his sis son... em... 1st we went to boy boy den father house at hougang den headed to his gu ma house at telok blangar... wow his gu ma also cook quite alot of food... at 1st we reached his gu ma house not much ppl after that slowly all the ppl came.. n all of them got give us ang bao... good sia total we took 6 ang bao from there... hahahahah soon after the visit we went back to yishun. coz dear meeting his friend andy at chun dao he pan... reached there 10 plus we hav a walk over there but it seem so boring nothing to see nor play de... so they went lao pa sa to eat.... after that home sweet home..

nian chu er...

also wake up early... was raining so meet up wif dear abit late... while on the way to william gf house was raining cats n dogs on the high way sia... when we reached yishun dear was already wet... but nvm dear went up to her house n dry up the clothes... also they invited wu shi to there house... n the person that wu shi tou one is ah boy... their cousin... hahaha so qiao sia... after that went to find her mum at joo seng there... went up to dear mum de friend house they give us ang bao too... but we stay for awhile onli den headed to bishan his good bro house to bai nian... hahah his friend also give us ang bao sia... so good... we went for dinner together wif his wife... chit chat abit den headed to ming de house play poker again.. she live just beside my block... so near onli... hahahahahah at 1st win but in the end lose money sian lor... haiz... but they also got lose lah... play till 2 plus den go home le.. n now i am home to blog.. sian left one more day n i going back to work liao le... haiz...

tomm going eat steamboat at friend house... hahahahah see wad i will post next after tomm bah... continue later..

2007-02-14T00:53:00.000+08:00

wow really been some time since i last blog wo... today is valentine day here i wish all the couple happy valentine day.. today went out wif joey go shop for her valentine day present for her boy... so brought a pierre cardin wallet for him while i get a shirt for my dear.. after that she went back home while i still hang around at far east plaza... sooner dear reached le.. he fetch mi to his house n i pass him the present... n yet he give me a suprise too cos i never though he will get a present for mi.. n its my favour pigglet wo.. i really appreciate that wo... thanz darling..

going joey house for steamboat on chu san of the new yr.. coz her parents invited us so we going lor... also my nite job i quited already.. coz of some reason n dear dunwan mi to work also... n thats lots of thing happened also recently... bad n good all kind leh.... nowi really feel very xin fu le.. coz i noe my feelings well now..

New yr is round the corner too here i wish all people Happy Chinese New Year too get many ang bao n dun forget mine also wo...

above is me n my darling de photo... its been 8 month le... its last year de on my birthday time... so sweet right... so far i haven update any photo.. maybe next time round bah... hahaha i miss all my friends... hahaha btw clubbing i also wanna cut down le.. earn money 1st... hahahahah

next week also going for my bike pract le... gonan be fast this time round...
:)

2007-01-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. lets talk bout yest... its really a long storey to say here wo... yest meet up wif sis joey she came to my house.. den we went for a dinner after that at cine leisure... saw xiao fei n his gf also.. n the ke ai xiao bu dian.. hahaha cute sia... after eating we go walk walk lor coz still early mah... go n find xiao xuan again at heeren ... i tell her our last time de photo very funny lor.. totally change alot sia... she become more lian n chio le wo.. envy her leh.. den we head down to mu n meet charles there lor.. happened to saw li juan , stacy, li ping n li ting over there... ah boy also.. much more fun yest.. lots of ppl was there sia... dear dear n joey bf daven also got com find us sia... hahahah good good leh.. as usure we dance on the dance floor... jace com n find us too after that..

while i was talking wif my friend upstair.. suddenly was li ting n li ping upstair i though wad was happening sia.. in the end is that group of siao char bo finding trouble again... the jeremy de ex bian tai one... dunno y they just love to find trouble.. haha but the end end also say sorry to li ting lor.. so?? u r the one finding trouble in the end say lan jiao wei.. kns..

was really busy the whole nite coz val also got go down to mu n things happened again after she was drunk.. guess wad he n that bastard daryll almost fight sia.. of coz i run to tell kelvin quickly lah... coz is a chance i see PUA CHU TENG like that mah.. hahah after that val de so call bf wanan beat him lor.. but bouncer hold him down.. the bouncer also chee bye de bo dai bo ji go n pull ppl shirt for fuck sia.. kel already clam him down le le still go n pull for wad sia.. aftert hat kel they all sit outside phonix hotel... that time william also reached le... haha thought got show see in the end wasted... coz dear call ah boy ask bastard daryll go up n talk sia.. in the end also still hav to say sorry to val again.. if not i think val de so call bf gonna hit him very hard lor.. haah coz kel also bei song him le.. since last time.. think he still got face at mu meh??? kns.. with that bitch wawa together no used de... u guys better stop staring at us ok.. or else it wont be so easy lor.. see see see dig out ur eye den u guys noe.. NB~!~!

after mu went to prata shop for some bit.. saw that bastard n bitch again so suey sia... just imagine last time n now?? so much diff we used to be in a group now onli him n her?? hahah so funny sia... kel also saw him.. he accidently used helmet bang into him de lor.. i thought bastard is always so fierce de??? n this time so quiet leh?? though he say reason de??? xia suey his di tao lor... no used de... luckly i leave him early... if not i think i already bank up liao le... tu tou bei bei u also hav ur retribution ar... hahaahah simply just fuck off from mi n my friend lor.. in my eye u r just a piece of shit.. now den i noe wad my friend say r right my eye really ta stamp n its those very BIG de stamp lor... hahahahaha... go back home train few more yrs lah .. wan to com out play dun play till xia suey ur di tao lah.. plz... fuck man... at list i am happy coz he tio one heng is xiao val onli.,.. id his bf alex com out do u think he will bf let off so easy mah??? think alex used bottle n smash him liao lah.. hahahahahahah... btw just feel angry n happy n song.. hahahaha

2007-01-13T05:38:00.000+08:00

realyl very long never blog le.. guess u guys should wanna noe wad am i doing nowadays~!~! hahaha currently i am busy wif my part n full time jobs that means i am having 2 jobs... my nite jobs is onli weekdays.. n its a pub at concourse... its a nice place.. n the cust over there r very friendly n treat mi well.. $7/hr.. hahaha em... i work tehre for 3 days n i been earning $180+ over.. its really a good money earning place.. n its just for a short worknig hour... hahahaha i gain wad i wan n i work for wad i wan... n its $$$$..

i also fullfill my other wish is to pass my pract 5 n i did it.. finally i can go for road riding le... n after that my TP~!~! n i will get my licence... wee u wee... think i be having a bike really soon... slowly i wont hav time to club le.. onli working n $$ also my BF plus sister in my life no one eals... n my boy is getting his licence for 2A. will be changing his bike in few monthes time too.. yeah.. its seems everythings is going good in my life now~!~! but one bad thing i am still fat.. but nvm...

tomm is sat... dunno where to go.. coz its my off days... i just came back for a movie wif heng joey my dear n mi... watch the show dunno wad name.. mi n my dear fall aslppe in the cinema.. coz its really too tired.. both of us r having 2 jobs each thats y... very soon joey will join mi le... thats good ar... its really worth working in concourse pub den in other pubs... no fight n ti ko pek~!~! but more drinks n friends around there... the boss treat us good too... n transport back home... i treasure this job... really~!~! jia you..

guys wait for my bike to be out hahahah

2006-12-25T04:53:00.000+08:00

yo its christmas time.. which everyone a very merry christmas... hahahaha hope everyone enjoy it. acturelly tonight is quite boring... cos we acturelly dunno where to go omg... so sian.. went to charles de friend pub.. n something just make mi fed up/ coz they told mi a wrong place.. so hav to walk lor.. leg pain... after reaching the pub it was real darm boring it when i go in bout 1 min we gonan countdown to christmas.. omg its so irritating when they play wif spray.. luckly i was alert n did not been spray on my hair..... after awhile we decided to go to boat quey.. kel n wei come fetch us over n the rest took a taxi...

when we reached quite alots of ppl n looks happening.. n 6 of us went in to the pub.. n we order one bucket of beer.. hahaahh was sitting there doing nothing much.. bout 2 plus they leaving to mu cz william they all gonig over n the gers r quite excited bout it so we went over,, as ah wei kor n terry was there too... but da ie leave early.. saw val too.. hahahahah tonight dun really feel very happy.. duuno y...

but i am back wif kel le.. its gonna be the last chance le... if he does anything that make mi feel sad n unhappy its gonna be the end le.. n its his promise... i dunno if i should believe him again.. but after all the chance i give le its up to him to choose... i cant do anything.. he is gonig for an interview coming weds hope he can do it n quit the current job... hahahaha

oh tonight hav turkey wif my family.. n my mum friends.. hahah its nice.. i love my mum curry... gonan learn how to cook it.. wasted i cant get to drink much red wine coz i meeting joey n koni at cine.. hahahaha sian just reached home feeling tired le... gonna rest.. tomm my off day.. tomm gonna go out wif my biker friends its been so long since i last go out...

2006-12-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

saded... crying alone in my rooms.. feeling down n sad.. dunno y.. maybe i cant believe that it happened just so sudden.. n i dun hav to persuade him anymore.. as we r finished.. just coz his attitude n my stubbon that cause it bah.. wad gone is gone it wont be replace.. i hav my freedom from now on... n i am alone again.. dunno wad life i be leading on..

after all both of us hav wrong.. so we cant blame.. u hav ur own attitude n i hav mine... after 7 monthes together finally u noe wad kind of ger i am?? it will good taht we really be friends.. list we wont get to quarrel so offen le or maybe not at all le.. i noe i wan too much from u le.. just dunno y i always got selfish feelnigs to u.. sometimes i need u i wan u by my side n sometime i dun need u i will ask u away.. i can say is my feelnig is there for u.. same old phrASE i say to daryll now it reflects back to u too.. "feelings will fade but memories will always remain" pls forgive for wad i did to u.. n i dun mean to hurt u.. but its just my feelnig who does it.. i may feel guilty but after all i wont regret it..i will always remember the happiness n not the sadness.. all along i never blame u at all.. i really do understand u.. but is u dun understand mi n wad i really wans...

really hope i can be strong again n be the old xiao fong last time bah.. really thanz to u i really did treasure wad u give to mi... i always say words to hurt u.. n do things u dun like mi to do.. but in my heart i do care.. u just dunnoe mi well thats all.. really hope in my next life be can be togetehr again n i wish u would be better den now.. n wish u will find a betetr ger den mi... i really hope we r still friends.. i believe u hav the same feelnigs too.. the tears i had for u is all the pass le.. i gonna stand up again... but i cant promise that when i saw u i wont cry..

2006-12-02T01:47:00.000+08:00

hahaha so tired everyday tired... so bored.. yest recieve a sms i was like so shock lor... that daryll still dare to msg mi wanan go mu anot... i think his more worse lor.. got gf still can ask other ger out... he should be the one feeling shamfull bah... hahahaha... btw eveytime he will start scolding mi de so who cares... we hav nothing to talk le.... u shell help whoever u wan not my pro...

after kel saw those msg he feel very angry bout it.. n not happy wif him le.. of coz i stop him from donig anything... i dun wish to see more trouble.. i noe after all daryll cant win my bf de so.. better not make him lose face.. hahahahahah he should thank mi for that...

tomm going to expo wif my belove biker friend gonan buy mp3 player... the one i am using going to spoil le.. using it for bout 2 yr le bah... dunno y suddenly siao siao le... change a new one should be better.. hahahahah gonig mu too i guess... dunno leh... i wan faster get my pay n go for my riding test.. faster pass faster buy bike... heheheheh... its coming up very soon.. guys just wait for a bike ladie bah.... hahahaha

happy leh.... this christmas i sure spend alots de... pay all my things... present?? celebration wif dear dear... wad eals?? my mp3?? sure cost mi alot one... after that will be new yr...

my boss going to austulia liao.. happy for them can go holiday... they say will buy something for us... so nice of them right??? i love my boss n his wife.. they r really good.. never regreted working there... coz they treat us just like they treat their own child.... after all onli 2 person worknig mi n my colleage... so of coz will dot on us more de... heheheheh

work in a small company is better den in working in a big company.. list in small company we still hav a chance to see the boss chat wif them this n that... but big company boss heck care one so thats the diff between this... haiz... cant bare to leave them.. if i really go to study hope will hav a chance to work wif them agin if i went for study... hahahaha guess that time my pay will be higher le... hahahahaha

gonan slp le.. waking up early tomm.. tata nite nite

2006-11-25T12:32:00.000+08:00

hahahah sian... later going for my bike pract 5 le.. meeting up wif some friends there... coz they be takinng their pract too.. hahahah btw just wish us luck bah...hahahah dunno wad to do after that... sian.....gonna meet senfeng for my lunched... hahha

scared my timing onli n also the plank... haiz.. tonight gonig mu also.. dunno whos going lor bored... think getting sick le.. not good wif my trote sian lor.. haiz..

nothing much to blog leh....

2006-11-23T19:42:00.000+08:00

wow.. so lnog to blog liao... haahha too busy le... think from tomm onwards my timeing is more n more tight le.. coz i be starting worknig part time soon le.. some where near city plaza... hahah looks not bad... if ok i can work as full time... work weekdend n weekdays after my 1st job... think will be tired.. n less time for my belove dear dear liao.. u guys can com find mi too....

dunno got time to take my bike practical anot... but afetr calculate my monthly income bout $1500++ bah.. hahahahaha if fuull time i will hav more...but just scared i cant cope... btw the boss is nice... hahahaha.. n the place is not bad lor... quite near my work oplace n my house... hahahaha nice nice...

guys wanan find mi just give mi a call den... hehehe

2006-11-18T03:29:00.000+08:00

its sat again.. been never slp well this few day keep rushing for work.. so busy... haiz..just com back from movie... COLIC!!!! hahaah the show abit scary i sit wif joey... nice nice.. both of used screem ... so funny n KNN stand for GODBYE. n eveyone laught for that ... at 1st thinking of going to mu de.. but dear never wear shoe cant go n its late he gonna work tomm... haiz... den went back home lor...

To: Selene
think befor u talk. u r just a slut fucking around their blog.. if u so daring talk to mi face to face lor... ur bf so wad?? big FUCK meh??? just look at urself.. still say wad if i am a guy sure whack mi de.. u com try lah... who scared who u dare anot i am always in mu de... be waiting for that man... control ur own gf lah.. dun let her go around looking for guys in mu can liao.. world peace... btw fat ass is better den slut.. at fat ass can slim down but a slut will always be... btw dog barking u should reflect back to ur bf n not us.. just see who the 1st to start the conversation.. u should be the one looknig at the mirror... so poor thing. btw blog is for everyone to read.. n u dun hav to make any comman out of it.. if so.. den dun say that ppl look at ur blog this n that.. just delete it away den... in the 1st place if u r not happy just com out n talk n not maknig a big fast out of it in ppls blog.. n plz just take a look ur bf is also a hong one lor.. that how u guys suits. ke lian...

btw small matter i wont wanna care to... wait for them to com den say.... who cares.. btw they r nothing to mi.. hahahahaha i shell enjoy myself at mu... ruther to see er xin de ppl.

went for my pract revision... i find myself improving n thats great, gonig for pract 5 next week le... wish mi luck den... thanz dear for accoupany mi there.. always trouble him so jia lat... haiz... tomm maybe going to mu... but dunno wad time i be comnig back from JB.. sian... now gonna slp le... tired.. gonna hav a good slp
nite guys..

2006-11-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

yest went to mu... those ppl never com down.. i was wonder y lor... thats some peroblem between us... conflict... n its gonna be solve tomm... dunno wad gonna happened... but i will believe my sister de.... coz i noe...

but hope everything will be fine lor... haiz... my problem put aside 1st le... just feel angry bout somethings... n those who really backstub mi de... i wanna make things clear lor... n wads gonna happened i also dunno lor...

2006-11-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

haiz... sat de problem really make mi dunno wad to do.. after all dear still support mi for wadever i do... n ger things guy cant touch... btw meet up wif da jie also reguarding this matter n we did talk alots... n she printed the picture n pass it to mi... thanz da jie~!~! until now i noe da jie really cares for us alots alots... muacks!!!! love her... but if thnigs happened i wont pull anyone down de... even if i am in hospital or wad... if wan u beat mi to death if not life wont be so easy lor...

i also dunwan anyone to get involve in this matter.. after all i am not in wrong. so y should i admit.. n now i did not make a police report.. after lots of thinking n all the trouble will hav... so i shell see bah... after all i dun belive someone like her wont get any returbution one.. n it will be on their child..

read through yc de blog... i hope wad he say really work on him... as its all depant on him.. of coz i sure encourage him de jia you YC~!~! xing gan de!!!

now really very fan n confuse... report also cant dun report also cannot~!~! haiz... after all its sux... as its messy that nite... after all thanz to joey that nite... after all she the onli one that say go down cine wif mi de.. anything she will help... guess amount my friend shes the onli one will say that bah.... friends is wad??? dun need too many de good or bad u urself will noe.. n i noe whos good n whos bad.. who did thnig behind mi n wadever... all things lah.. but i keep quiet!!! maybe soft hearted is not a good thing i can say... hahahahaha... just though my face give ppl taht i am easy to eat??? guess i shell be more fierce le.. haha thats wad da jie say de... i too good to everyone le...

now i dare to promise i wont talk or see DARYLL YEO this fucker~!~! who ever talks to him sister bro friends till today.. i dunwan to say much!!! that all...

2006-11-05T14:50:00.000+08:00

yest was a fucking day for mi... totally sux men.... meet up wif joey n ling... while i go collect my polo-t.. hahahaha den we went cine to eat wow the mango snow ice very very nice lor.. n big blow very nice~!~! hahahaha.. after that we went to mu le... after that yc n sonice came.. so onli 5 of us lor... but was still so fun... later on jace came n xiao val also... it was so fun through out the nite... n really suprise when i saw kelvin lor... omg... my dear dear suddenly hug mi from the back... so sweet... but he was too high liao i think drink too much le.. hahahah

suddenly a guy friend of kelvin dunno dare val to open da pao... xiao not dare him also lor.. in the dunno wad happened they started quarrel while i went to ask xiao di wad happened coz xiao di also like wanna fight lor... when i walk they there is this two BITCH n so call XMM say wad i push her... of coZ i say i never push lah... ppl noe mi well enough noe i wont find problem de.. so nvm i say sorry to them.. the ger like not happy lor... com n hit my head... wtf... wanan hti back but the bouncer stop mi... n ask mi up to talk... there is police outside... after xiao val noe the ger hit mi she was angry n coz of the guy pro also... kelvin also very angry...

xiao di say the ger ask mi go cine talk... den mi n joey, yc, sonic, jace we went there... but the ger dun dare to step out... i was there liao since u dare to hit mi den should be dare to stand out... i dun believe i will lose to u.. so wad if u r pregnent... think i easy to eat izzit??? plz look at urself befor getting someone into trouble if not u wont noe urself will be in big trouble.. dare to find trouble in mu just never die befor... pui!@!!!!

one of the ger still dare to talk loudly n ask xiao val go cine talk, when xiao val reached the ger dun dare to stand out n talk.. we r standing infront of them lor.. dare to say dare to stand.. siao de ppl bei gang one lah.. f off n go back to ur xdd xmm playground lah.... n plz get to noe who u r finding trouble wif lor... if cant fight den dun find trouble.. n dun talk so loudly... that y i say siao de ppl cannot make it one lah.. the gang should close early... not to offen some of my friend ... hahahahahaha next week mu we shell see....

haiz i was so bad lor... was talknig wif dear under my block yest... while he keep vomiting~!~!

2006-11-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

yo... sian... bored.. gonig out soon le.. meeting joey liao... den going jalan besar collect my sbf polo-t leh... nice nice finally le.. my t is here.... good.. next tuesday is my revision for bike le.. nice nice... good good... brought a shoe from ebay nice men.. but abit too ex le.. cos the shipping is $25 lor.. wtf... kns.. haiz... dunno who is gonig to mu tonight...

2006-11-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

wow... so tired... yeah getting my pay le... tonight think the gers going to zouk... but i not going coz no $$ n guess they stay till late... nvm i stay hoem n rest lor.. tomm worknig also... finally my sbf polo t-shirt is here i been waiting for so long liao le... hahahah good good.. this sta 7pm gonna meet dawn ... but see if joey meeting mi early anot... coz be gonig to mu after that..

Yest quarrel wif dear again... n its very serious... but i dun wish to say coz its a very serious matter... i gonna take my bike revision le.... wish i can pass my pract 5 soon... thanz god..

will be starting my slimming programmed soon le.. hahahaha

tomm gonna work.. life is so sian... nothing interest me..

2006-10-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

went facial in the morning meet my colledge at suntec lor.. after taht we go up n acturelly its a MLM lor.. but free facial so i am ok.. after washing ok lor.. they hav cold steam wow really shock.. the product is new.. i find it ok.. n the price for mi is abit too ex but still can afford it... think i will take some of the products.

nite time went mos wif yc, kang wei, lyn jie, ling n spawn.. hahaha its really very cool men when i saw most of the ppl dress up. really fun more fun den mu lor.. compare to last yr.. but was very pack wif ppl... saw mike there he won a prize, think is the most scarest guy ba.. i dunno... there r also free pop corn n candy floss, really i dunno how to discribe it.. at 1st was at trance side but after that went to r n b.. in trance side its spacious but r n b side is more fun n pack... n theres ppl walking round in n out so irritating n its hot in there... in the end ah wei say wanna go mu lor.. so all went there...

when reached there saw koni crying n she hug mi.. coz she saw her cutie n selene together.. i also like quite shock... i mean since selene hav a bf den y still go n seduce other guys?? n its against koni too.. i noe how koni feel... so after all we ppl noe how selene was n wad kind of person she was... but for mi i did saw her n cutie quite close... but too bad his not koni de boy.. if not list she can do something...

in mu not that fun... saw that daryll again haiz y everytime is him??? omg.. really fuck...

i went off early.. coz head abit giddy le... dun feel like staying longer.. so i went off 1st..

2006-10-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

been so long since i last blog.. guess u guys miss mi alots right??? hahahaahah pai seh i too thick skin liao... was really been busy this few days.. even my holiday also wasted coz i was sleeping like a pig... hahaha n last sat is ah wei kor de 21st birthday.. celebrate wif him n the rest of them, was happy to see so many ppl wo... but too bad that day things happen so never really dance much n someone is gonig to mos...

i really gonna study for my future le.. in the line i dunno if i can succeed anot but i noe i love drafting so i dun mind... but my collage dun seem to be encourage to mi coz she herself say its very sian in this line coz she can give up her time her love life coz of this job... haiz i really must say ya its true... we must sacrisfied all our time n focus onto it... she is now 26 le but no bf.. hahahaha btw tomm i going facial wif her free trial leh... she ask mi to go de... coz her friend cant go last min so i will replace her friend slot.. tomm is halloween nite guess it would be fun over there...

tomm is also dear de friend william celebrating his advance birthday at mu... hahahah but i wish ah wei yc they all could com to mu.. but think they r going eals where le... saded... haiz...

2006-10-19T20:13:00.002+08:00

ben long time no blog le.. been quite busy de... just pass by to write some bah... holiday is round the corner le... n ah wei birthday is coming le... miss him sia.. so happy can see him le...

last few weeks/ days some thing unhappy happened... especially in mu... hav some conflict wif some idiot... that touch my friends.. btw doesent mean his a guy can do everything he wan... i wont care who is he as long as he touch my friend i wont be happy... btw withough any proof plz dun say ppl was saying bout u lor... not happy wif us gers com den... who scared who... even u r my friend de friend i also heck...

just some kind of ungental men.. btw dun say le... this sat mu again... hahaha but stupid de gonna pay cover charge for non-member again... sad.. maybe not buying things le broke for now...

mi n dear dear 4mth le.. gonig to 5mth liao.. happy... oh ya that day meet up wif ching omg i was so happy.. coz i saw her... hahahahaha long time no see lor... miss her men...

my bf call hav to go liao.. bye

2006-10-19T20:13:00.001+08:00

2006-10-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

this few days never really slp well.. so tired.. tonight gonna hav a early rest... tomm gonan work again...

yest nite went zouk wow its been so long sincve i been there le... still the same so fun n nice.. i love their dance n the way they dance.. its so unique lor... n with all my friends n sister around... more fun.. but one thing very suey i saw that daryll there lor.. wtf.. is this our fate???? always saw him where ever he go.. trying to advoide him n act strong liao... but haiz.. pass le... but i went off early last nite.. got work mah... was real fun wif u guys... muacks...

some of the things i dunwan to say i noe can le... coz its personal... hahahah

tomm got wedding dinner.. happy leh.. dunno wad to wear leh... sian... after that den go down to rush... dunno if its real that its the last week for them.. scarly com out wif next week den last day.. i sure F them off... hahahah... tomm gonna be a happening nite le... gonna rest le tired.. nitie

2006-10-02T14:01:00.000+08:00

em... now at home blog.. coz i com back from work taking 1/2 day off... coz not feeling well... fainted earlier on.... sian.. dunno wad happened just sudden black out lor.. haiz stupid leh... now face got scar liao.. f***... sian... this month 2 ladies r having their celebration at mu.. hahahahaha.. 22 n 21 yrs leh... how can dun go must sabo liao...

2006-09-30T16:21:00.000+08:00

been so so lnog never blog le wo.. hahah just move to my new house for one weeks onli... now having my own room le yeah... but hav to pay money le... more sian.. how i wish i earn alot now.. haiz.. really getting boring le... no time to rest at all... so busy.. expecialyl wif my bf haiz... btw that day steamboat was real nice men.. coz got quite a num of ppl de... n tonight is rush time.. coz last day for rush liao... hahahahahaha next weds zouk... meeting hui xian n the rest too... yeah cant wait... just pass my rtt.. very happy sia finally...

2006-09-18T19:36:00.000+08:00

sat was a enjoyabler nite for mi.. coz finally i got my love one celebrate bday wif mi le wo... hahahah just love him... but hope all the gers enjoy themself although i get drunk early... pai seh.. think the most funniest is i was my leg inside toilet bah.. hahahahah i recieve one stalk of flower from dear dear.. omg it was beautifulll ... love it... n a cake from him too... n i wear the dress that was given from my sister n friends.. love it men.... celebrate wif yc n shiny jie.. n some of the sept babe... hahahahahah after i was drunk dear n jace send mi home while ah chey send hui xian home lor.. coz so late alredy le.. hahahahahah

2006-09-15T23:05:00.000+08:00

yes its my bday le.. hahahaha gonna celebrate my bday at mu le... happy n thanz to those who give mi a big present.. a dress... not bad.. will be wearing it tomm.. n thanz fm for the adidas bag.... hahahah also to my belove dear dear den piglet.. its so cut i love it... althought i am sick but a appreciate wad ppl do for mi... btw last few days something just happened to joey.... dun wish to say much... coz nt my problem... i can do is just listen n see onli... btw after all i just wont leave my friend alone or put plan unless i hav important things on.. tomm is my bday.. dun wish to see things happened.. i sure will scold who ever is wrong one.... tomm lots ppl will be at mu.. so happy sia... n i am broke liao.. more sian.. haiz..will be busy tomm le wo...

2006-09-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

haiz... so sian... hahahah few moew days to go wo... this few day meet dear go out... how i hope i hav money now.. den open bottle... haiz... i brought 2 shoes... one heels de... not bad leh... but scared wear le ugly... dunno how my bday celebration gonna be.. hahah so excited... brought yc n shiny jie bday present le.. hope they will like it wo.... :) that day saw daryll at mu he was wearing cap... he seem to slim down alots.. n he was not that cheerful le... wish him luck for his ger that he want lor... after all its been so long liao... n he cry that day lor... feel like going out to talk to him.. but i dun hav the courage lor... was fun at mu .. its been so lnog since i been there..//

2006-09-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

so happy today.. its mi n dear de 3 monthes le... omg.. guess wad he brought for mi??? a ring... omg.. a ring.. hahahaha so nice of him... but haiz.. i dunno lah... next week is my baday le.. counting down liao le wo.... hahaah dunno wad to wear leh.. so sian wo..;.

2006-09-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

hahahaha... bored... i very good ger at home... dunno wad to write leh.. just counting down to my birthday n its more n more near le wo.. hahahahahahaha where is all my present/... i wan many many present leh... jk lah....

2006-09-03T11:48:00.000+08:00

yest meet up wif dear at nite..i went down to my friend de funural was thinking of gonig jb after that de.. in the end things happened... think is suey ba.. accident again wth lor.. fuck.. this time his bike really cant ride liao.. n the taxi uncle gonna pay for it... n the 2 stupid passenger on the taxi keep laughing i was darm again after scolding the taxi uncle i scolded n shouted at the 2 little boy.. wtf right.. ppl fall n they still can laught.. feel like ging over to hav a good scold of them.. n one thing the uncle also wrong.. he shouldent hav turn when theres car/bike going front... now my dear the bike take to biek shop to repair lor... so this few days he gonna take bus nor train liao... haiz....

i feel sad for my friend bah... coz his bf suddenly jump down from his house n die like that... so irrasponsible right.. n left her alone.. wow liao.. n today his body gonna burn le... they was gonna ROM on coming DEC de.. but now all gone le.. i think if i was the gf.. i will jump wif him liao le.. hahahaha jk... but hope my friend would be fine...

2006-09-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

long ttime never blog here liao le.... its sept now... so hapy n excited... still thinking of wanna get off for my birthday mah... haiz.. yest went mu wif the same person.. not much ppl lor.. abit boring leh...all just sux... i getting boring n boring... unexpected that daryll was not there... hahahahah nvm... today dear never fetch mi.. so i went home myself lor... cant blame him lah... he need to work... hahaha get my pay le.. but very little onli.. may not open bottle liao.. see how bah... lots ppl bday on sept sia.. feel like gonig shopping later on.. to buy some presents... hahahahahah see how bah...

2006-08-20T17:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday was suppose to go mu de.. but too bad i cant make it.. coz meet my dear le... if not he will go wif mi de.. was quite sad cant go mu de.. haiz.. stupid dear dear lor.. dun say le.. he say he wont because of friend wad de.. in the end also wad... coz i dunwan go wif his friends.. haiz... but i cant do anything.. in the end go watch movie lor.. my super ex gerfriewnd.. was quite funny de lor.. not bad... hahah... really bth that ning lor.. so playfull de... cant stand.. if i am her i think my bf sure kill mi de..hahahah maybe i should do that.. nvm next week gonna go mu le.. fuck care my bf liao.. coz he starting his job le.. so hes not free liao hahahahah... but i am free... very soon my birthday coming le.. n also cant wait for that day.. yeah.. sure is a wounderfull one... hehe.... nice nice... but my pay com i die liao.. no $$ sure spend all de.. gonna open bottle bah..

haven talk finish bout yest... after movie they went fongseng nasi lemak there for supper.. but i never eat coz not hungry.... after eating le.. they going tower somewhere at higher seletar reservior... mandai road there.... but when reached its so dark n spooky.. omg.. no light at all so scary de.. how to go up to the tower.. in the end never go up... after that went seletar DAM... hahahaha my old place used to go there wif many bikers de but now.. hardly le... sian.. go one round no ppl de... coz its quite late le bout 3 plus liao... den they suggest go jalan kayu for kopi.. while i ordered mutton soup... was nice i 1st time eat sia... the smell not that strong lor.. hahahahah.. worth it... after that go home le.. reached home bout 5am liao..tired.. n went to bed...

n now i meeting dear again... seems like everyday meet him lor... haiz.. so bored.. but going to his mother house.. coz his sister son birthday mah.. ask mi along lor.. hahaahah dunno wad to buy also lor.. hahahahaha gonna go le.. bye

2006-08-19T04:29:00.000+08:00

hahaah lets blog here... went rush tonight.. was alright lah.. join joey de friend n jace came along too.. hahaha befor that after work meet d3ear n his friend zhi wei n ning.. coz zhi wei bday amh.. so went to riverside point the indonasia restaurant for our dinner.. quite worth it.. not bad lor.. 6 dishes of main dish n free flow of rice n each person onli bout 12 plus leh... not bad.. after that i was suppose to meet joey de but they wanan go mouth faber lor.. so went there... i was quite angry de.. coz i meeting joey den dear dunwan me to meet her keep wanting mi to acc them lor.. but i cant wad.. den like taht we quarrel again... but he still send mi to rush.. but after rush he at loyang so never fetch mi.. i guess also noe he wont wait de.. hahahah if he does along ago already did.... dunno he now wif ger anot... if i noe on the spot i break off liao lor.... haiz dunno lah... btw rush was alright the songs not bad... got my favouret song too... ah bengs n lians.. when ending soon got a fight lor.. so sian... haiz.. n now i am home../

2006-08-17T02:16:00.000+08:00

hahahaahh back from home finally... wednesday celebrate dear birthday at marina south... mi him, zhi wei n ning, 4 of us lor..ning was funny ger... but shes cute... brought a cake for dear dear... n we sing songs... too bad onli 4 of us.. but nvm lah was fun.. after that went in to jb together.. when we com out coz going zhi wei house chit chat bout our business things.. on the way out from jb.. suddenly at one of the corner near to woodland we buang... so suey.. nb.. heng we nothing happy onli dear de leg bleeding lor.. haiz... 1st time sia.. think its the bed time coz 7 month mah.. its a warning to bikers that no cornering during this period if not good luck... but now we r fine le.. dear bike abit no energy onli lor.. haha.. heng still got zhi wei RVF help us if not dear die liao.. they went hospital while mi n ning sit downstair of teh blk chi chat till 5 plus when they com back.. was so tired.. den after that dear ride home lor coz he still can ride mah... so went his house ton..

today never tgo work slp at dear house... den nite time suppose to meet joey de in the end never coz of him.. we quarrel again lor.. sian... den i went off from his house.. after that he com fetch mi lor.. from clark quey to his house coz zhi wei n his gf meet us for dinner... went tiong bahru market eat... mi n dear quarrel again this time its serious one... i really wanan break wif him le... coz he slap mi lor.. wtf he slap n push mi leh... i was so hot till i really wanan fight n kill him lor... wth... wan com kill mi mah... in the end say sorry for wad... my feelnig for u hav fade especially that tight slap haha shuang.. i will remember it de... ok.. now gastric pain again.. fuck lah... chee bye... tired also cry whole day le.. acturelyl still wanna go fishing just now de in the end never... hahahaha

2006-08-15T03:04:00.000+08:00

today is dear dear de birthday 15th aug leh... just now dear com fetch mi from work.. den we went to marina south de billy bombus eat steak wow yummy n nice.. but expensive.. expecially the cheese friends really worth it.. n the shake too... hahaha we eat total bout $64+ lor.. but dear treat so ok lah.. dear also brought mi a stock of roses... but from mini toon de.. not real flower fake de... but i love it thanz dear...hahahaha after that went to boat quey one of the club name "WOW CLUB" his friend jio de... so go lor.. no ppl de coz its weekday thats y so quiet... i was sitting there nothing to do so bored lor.. n suddenly a call came...

a unknown num lor.. so i listen to it.. suddenly i listen i really very shock... i really wont believe it... guys wad... DARYLL call mi omg.. its the grettest suprise i ever had.... den i went out to listen... but saded he ask mi y am i keep looking at him on sat nite.. i was like wth... call mi just to ask mi that i thought wad happened sia... den disappointed again... but i was thinking how he got my num??? i called up joey n tell her bout it.. n she told mi that daryll called her n ask for my num lor... haiz... den she ask him wan for wad.. he say wanan ask mi something.. den joey ask him he n wawa togetehr ar.. n his reply is "yes" such a disappointment.. but of coz in my heart i still like him but i still wish them luck lor...

after i went back to sit... another strage num msg mi... n its wawa lor... guys he confirm wif daryll de... she ask mi wad.. y u ans daryll i not looking at him on sat nite... i was like of coz i cant say i looking at him wad.. so abvious.. n i wish him n her together n i noe they r together le... but its obvious u both r together lor... haiz... den she reply wif a msg... saying.. u noe he was crying coz of u??? i was like huh?? crying for mi?? he should treasure u now.. she say will tell mi wad happened.. but until now still no news from her.. can say i really wanna noe wad happened acturelly.... plz dun tell mi that u all hold hand all that in mu is fake de lor... i wont believe it.... btw pass le... i admit i still love DARYLL YEO RONG DA n i never forget bout him... but now i hav a good guy beside mi... i really dun wish to hurt him.... acturelly my feeling for dear has fade le... but i dun wan to see him sad... coz he love n dot mi alots... really...

i really dunno.. if this two guys ask mi to choose again i really dunno who i will choose.... one is i love de one is love mi de.... haiz.. so fan n sad now... hope wawa will reply mi tomm bah...

n tomm going steamboat wif dear n some friends le... happy leh.. steamboat n i brought a cake for dear...

id that time till now i still wif daryll i believe he will be really xin fu... coz hahahahahaah everyone should noe... sian.. gonig slp le.. tired... brain keep thinking bout him...

2006-08-11T14:59:00.000+08:00

sian... today off.. taking mc again.. coz yesterday i went to clinic after work wif dear... he acc mi lor.. den saw that mu de candy there was so suprise.. coz its not a original clinic... hahahahaha i was there for few hours lor.. so sian n bored.. after that dear bring mi home to bath... at 1st dun wish to go home coz lazy mah.. was thinknig go eat liao go shopping de... in the end all was wasted.. coz while eating suddenly my gastric very pain till i cant eat.... the pain is really killing mi.. so i ask dear eat faster... den he bring mi to his house n rest for awhile... but the pain dun seem to go any better.. bout an hours plus later... still very pain i really cant take it lor... 1st time sia... den i ask dear bring mi go hospital liao.. but he still at there tu... some more used medical oil to apply on it.. i was like wtf lor.. my gastric pain leh not stomach pain.. but he insist n ask mi rest for awhile more... but the pain still dun go any better.. in the end den he willing to send mi to go hospital lor.... on the way to hospital we was still quarreling lor.. power right... hahahahah

went to general hospital emergency department.. but there was many ppl there lor... wtf.. hav to wait till 3 am den can see doctor lor... wtf.. taht time was onli 10plus pm leh.... how to wait?? later wait till i die how??? stupid.. in the end dear bring mi to alexandra hospital... when reached there no ppl de.. compare to general hospital... hear the hospital was haunted one... hahaha but i bo bian so just went... the doctor give mi medication n one needles so ask mi to rest on the bed for 1/2 an hour to 1 hr lor.. see if the pain was alright not... the most funny was dear ask the doctor to wake mi up but i was sleeping so soundly lor.. thats wad dear told mi... after that went back to he house to rest.. wanted to go home de.. in the end slp at his hosue again... coz drowzeness mah.... just now went to eat... till now den home...